Wrote this to myself a year ago and now looking at it and feeling that this is what I needed whenever you loose people who thought would be by your side always. Posting it here so that I come back and read it everytime I get that feeling of abandonment.
" A tough night but a big lesson, never go back to the place that disrespected your feelings and broke you. God gives you multiple signs to let it go and move one but you always choose it at the end. Nevertheless God loves you baby he wants ur good so he needs to hurt you - To make you stronger to overcome situations where you have no choice but to choose silence yes you are a coward for not being like others , for not taking advantage of the situation and behaving the way you want cause you are you , and you always will be girl, pat yourself that no matter how much dirty and toxic it goes you held up your morals and the way you deal with things. I am so proud of you that you broke down still chose your stance and never got influenced. I am so proud you tried your best to keep things together to consider others feelings and trying to hold onto relationships. But my girl you can't have peace in a place where your emotions are not valued. This was the only way you could realise it and I hope this was a lesson you needed to come out of your delusion that everyone cares for you. No one does my girl hold on to the things you love as they were with you forever, others are temporary and they will always be. Chin up! set backs are part of life. You can only rise up when you are in the bottom you will fly high with people you deserve you don't need to beg for understanding, things will come and go what remains is ur feelings and morals."
