me realizing I don't really have a say over what happens in my life whatsoever, that I'll be forever be affected by who and what I was born as despite me having no choice in the matter, and that my actions and thoughts are influenced by Something out of my control so I'll never be really free, so if life is going to suck at least I'm going to get to pick in what way it'll suck: wow I'm just like the Character that's so cool and not horrible!















