supernaturalruinedmylife

[divertedfuture]

“I want to say I can’t go on without you, but that isn’t true. I have gone on without you. We have gone weeks and months without talking and I have found myself happy during that time. I thought of you and I missed you, but I also had happiness. But the thing is I don’t want to go on without you. Even though I know that I am able, and able to happily live a life where you only live in my memories, I don’t want to. I don’t need you. I want you, and us and our late night talks which stem from fights and end in jokes. I want you to try to make me laugh when I’m so angry all I can see is red. I want to hate you for doing it, for not taking me seriously even when I know that it’s your way to cheer me up and show me you love me. I want the part of us that is so intertwined and impassioned in each other that we can go days without needing another human soul. You see, I have had life without you, and I know what it entails. I have had adventurous solo road trips and hikes where I sit at the bottom of rocky cliffs staring out at the ocean. I have had drunken flings and nights where my girlfriends and I drink wine until we collapse on the couch. I have laughed without you. I have loved without you. I have had passion with other and I have had heartbreak with others. So believe me when I say that I do not need you, I can do this on my own or with someone else, but you are still a unique and wonderful presence in my life and I want you.”

— Excerpt of a book I’ll never write #187

[sprmint-bkgsoda]

From the mouth of a One Percenter -

Abigail Disney

[mantaphase]

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[marthawells-deactivated20181223]

“Yes, there is a superyachtinvestor.com. Go look at it and it will make you so angry, you could chew glass.”

[anarcho-smarmyism]

we stan class traitors on this blog

[cenobitic-anchorite]

Abigail Disney has no control or input on the operations of the corporation, she is a Disney heiress and, in that respect, nothing else. She puts her money towards philanthropy, especially women’s movements around the globe and peace organizations like Peace is Loud and the Global Fund for Women. She is a documentary filmmaker who explores these themes as well.

There are problematic family investments she earns money from that, legally, she cannot divest from. Instead, she donates these profits to charities that counter to those investments.

[wolverinedoctorwho]

Reblogging this version because I needed to read this after watching the video

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[thegoodvybe]

[captainsnoop-deactivated2020041]

i wish i could have been alive when gods would regularly come down from the heavens and fuck the brains out of mortals for no reason other than they felt like it 

[het-fekat]

Bold of you to assume that’s not still happening

[biglawbear]

Well bitch it ain’t happening to me

[mainflopgirl]

anyone who says they would rather be an avenger than a guardian is a fool. the guardians go on constant outer space adventures with a talking tree set to 70’s dad music. plus they all love and would literally die for each other. what do the avengers do? assemble for five minutes then get into a walmart parking lot fight and never see each other again. fuck you.

[circuskidcon]

Thor ghost wrote this

[virqosgroove]

Slide this fast and look at the magic

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Reblog for good luck if you saw purple!!!

Original post here 

[megumi-divine-deactivated202209]

WHoT IN THE NAME OF DARK MAGIC IS THIS OMF

[mxnia-deactivated20190213]

if you’re gay, you’ve almost definitely gone through/are going through an emo phase, an anime phase, a homestuck phase, a weird kids tv shows phase, or some combination of these four things. sorry, i dont make the rules.

[sweethxarts47]

[daevite]

me: god i love paranormal shit and urban legends

me, after indulging in aforementioned content:

[parentless-suggestions]

Is it bad that sometimes I wish my mother would have beaten me so that the scars could be visible. Instead I’m left with doubt and trust issues.

[iguanamouth]

a mess

[itastemetal-deactivated20200404]

this is THE BEST explanation of this aspect of mental illness i have ever seen

[sparklecorpse-deactivated201906]

i dont care if u never listen to me ever again just let me be ur internet dad for just one second: dont start cutting yourselves please ever

[sparklecorpse-deactivated201906]

ok im gonna reblog this again bc i want more ppl to see it?? ive compiled a (by no means complete) list of the things u can expect if u start:

- u cant stop. its a legitimate addiction. there is no ‘seeing what its like’. its soso hard to stop it and believe me, because that was me. i thought i would sate my curiosity but all i did was make my life miserable - everything can become a trigger. someone carved things in a table?? trigger. u get a scratch by accident?? trigger. see something sharp?? yup.  - the scars dont go away and if people see them (and no matter how hard you try, people will see them) they get this awful fucking look on their face like a mixture of disgust and horror and pity  - u have to sit through people making shitty fucking jokes and calling people like you (real, struggling people like you) edgy emos looking for attention and it makes you feel sick but you have to sit there silently - in fact, any conversation about self harm becomes thoroughly uncomfortable because they’ll talk about it like no one in the room has ever gone through it (or, if they know, they’ll glance at you out the corner of their eye when they think you cant see) - any emotion can give you the urges- not just negative. ur body associates the happy feeling with the pain so ur brain is like ‘????? u cant have one without the other??’  - it can have been years. years. you can have stopped and got better and you’ll still feel the urge to hurt yourself and it makes you feel like you haven’t improved at all and you’re still fourteen and hating yourself - (maybe this is just me) but some part of you misses it?? you stopped and you know its horrific but its so difficult to get rid of your blades or whatever you use because you feel so weirdly attached to these things that are so awful and you dont even know why 

god damn i just want yall to understand that you dont have to hurt yourself ever, okay?? just. don’t. trust me.

[prismpom-moved]

I will reblog this every single day.

[illinicoise]

“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

[spn-fandom-breathing-heavily]

not even risking that shit

[codyslipring-deactivated2015060]

scrolled past this, re-evaluated my life, then SCROOOLLLED back up and hit the damn reblog button. 

[tumblgang]

She ain’t no games in real life so I take her serious all the time

Anyone with a name that starts with a “Z”, ends with an “i”, and isn’t some kind of Italian pasta, IS SERIOUS

I’m not climbing no mountain with a pig on my back, 🙅🏽🙅🏾🙅🏿 Negative.

[skuubasally]

Nope. I know better, have your reblog Madame Zeroni.

[luckytaters]

who the fuck is Madame Zeroni

[saudadesinfinitas-deactivated20]

Look at these stupid children who don’t know who Madame Zeroni is

[drayaintshit-deactivated2019030]

☝🏾😂

[callmedeku24]

Man lissen if you don’t know you better ask somebody AFTER you hit the reblog button

[emeraldmercury]

Idk who she is but I have an exam today so I’ll reblog her

[deadwatered]

Mom, I know you’ve never known me, but I want you to know me, mom. When did they hurt you? Were you young like me, mom? Was it someone in the family, you know, they can’t be trusted, mom, you know, I only said it out loud this year. I was institutionalized, mom, I’m suicidal, do you have those thoughts? They think I’m bipolar, mom, they say I’m borderline. And they ask if it runs in the family, mom, but I don’t know you, I wish I did. They didn’t treat me well, mom, and no one listened to me. This life that you wanted better for me, mom, left me without an identity, and instead a crisis. I sense an impending alcohol addiction, mom, yo sé que te gusta la cocaína, I started popping pills, mom. We’re both out of control, I try to control everything with my eating disorder, mom. I get sad, I barely have a relationship with dad and I don’t think he truly understands me, mom. I feel alone because I never had you, I latch onto any mother figure, mom. I search for you all over the earth only to come up empty handed, mom. Do you get sad, could I change that? I wish you wouldn’t get sad, mom. My brother tries to get me to love you and my family tries to get me to hate you, mom, but I’m a little lost in the middle. Would you forgive me if I said I used to hate you, mom? Do you still love me the same? Do you love me at all, mom? Do you think about me? Are my words a waste, mom? Are you going to toss them once received? See, I wish I knew you, mom, but I don’t and I never will.

open letter to my mother (via deadwatered)

[sillysmallsilkworm]

Fasting Tips

Fasting is hard. I just got done fasting for 42 hours (yay!) and it was sooo difficult. But because i now have control i’m going to fast again soon.

So i’d like to share my best tips on how to take control, stay in control, and fast.

NEVER EXERCISE WHEN FASTING!!

1. The first 12 hours are always the hardest. Distract yourself for the first 13 hours. yes 13 because by then the hunger pains will have subsided greatly. Read a book, watch movies. STAY AWAY FROM FOOD.

2. Drink diet soda when you’re stomach starts grumbling loudly and you feel super hungry. The carbonation will trick your mind and plus, the flavor will help you stay sane.

3. Chew sugar free MINT gum. The flavor will actually make your stomach feel at ease. It tricks your mind that you’re full. And i mean… who can actually eat something after that strong mint taste?

4. Brush your teeth every 6 hours. One, it’s keep your teeth hygienic and strong. And  same with the gum, the mint taste will make it harder to eat. And if people ask if you want food, you can tell them you just brushed your teeth so you can’t.

5. If you must eat dinner with your family; say you have a stomach ache, sore throat, or even that your heads hurts too bad and you should take a nap.  

6. If step 5 doesn’t work; hide the food. In your sleeves, down your shirt, in your pockets. feed it to the family pet. You can even do this trick i made up-

(Get a cup and fill it with a little bit of water. Put the food in your mouth and chew DON”T SWALLOW and every few bites act like you’re about to take a drink drink, but actually spit the food into the cup.)

7. If you fast for more than 36 hours and you feel faint; take a nap, drink diet soda, chew gum, or you can even chew food and spit it out.

8. Look at thinspo constantly. This way you won’t lose motivation.

9. Do your makeup and/or have a spa day.You deserve the self care. And this will make you want to look beautiful, thin, small, perfect. Search up clothes you’ll wear when you reach your goal weight.

10. Stand in front of the mirror naked. Remind yourself why you’re doing this.

STAY STRONG!!

If you can have enough control to say no, then you WILL reach your ultimate goal weight. Just keep going.

It’s going to be hard. But it will definitely be worth it.

[superwholock-alissa]

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[starsmattersinpoetry]

i. She was raising storms in her daydreams, always at war with her own skin. Not a day went by she didnt remind herself she could die. ii. So much potential wrapped up in such a little body. Always creating, Creating Creating Never happy the first time around. iii. Didn’t we always see this coming? Look at her mother, she never even know what a will to live looked like. iv. I heard they found 8 empty bottles of vodka under bed, and 3 more in her closest. She was just asking for it, wasn’t she? v. She hung with the wrong crowd, they all talked about death like next fun advantage. The nothingness is brighter than most of their futures. vi. If someone had to go, aren’t we glad its her?

THE WORDS I WON’T BE HERE TO HEAR// Kayla (via starsmattersinpoetry)