sweaty lil’ sweet pea

free Palestine. ‘97. she/her. sometimes phd candidate. sometimes making pottery. (probably reading fanfiction on kindle)

[alhashimine]

the most lethal face cards you ever did see…

credits to @/samirasmohan on twitter <3

[omtai]

Im sorry I didn’t reply to your message for three weeks. I did not forget about it infact I thought about it regularly every day. It will happen again

[belovedinfidels]

robby x samira x abbot is a ship that’s not for everyone but it’s certainly for me. robby being abbot and samira’s one point of contention. samira being abbot and robby’s. how robby is so envious of how easy and simple and uncomplicated abbot and samira want each other, and how they just go for it. the way robby disguises this as concern, how he always says “what about her career, abbot? what people will think?” and “how could you of all people be so careless with her?” and the unselfish part of him that really means it, all that red faced indignation, but he’s such a goddamn asshole it seems laughable to think he could be defending her. and samira, who doesn’t ask for much, who has come home from shifts where robby has taken more from her than he gave, who does not say anything to abbot until she does and even then it’s so…vague. he’s heard more from perlah and princess. it’s not some big fight between them but haunts their relationship like a ghost, this tension that comes from how much abbot doesn’t say even though he knows. how on bad days samira sometimes sees him standing side by side with robby laughing at the hub and thinks “if i asked him, would he pick me?” and on his own terrible ones how robby knows abbot would, in a heartbeat. how robby doesn’t blame him. how he sometimes thinks about abbot and samira together and it makes him ashamed. how on the roof one night he gets stupid, some version of jumping off only a little less deadly, and says, “i don’t hate her, you know. i never have. god if—i don’t know. if i was any smarter, maybe it would’ve been me. i don’t really blame you.” and it sits between abbot and robby like an unwelcome third before abbot says, “you’re not stupid, is the thing. oblivious, sometimes. stubborn, yeah. but stupid—no. you know what she wants from you and you withhold it because you’re afraid of what she could be to you if you weren’t holding her at arms length. she’s incredible, man and…god, beautiful. i wake up every day afraid she’s gonna get wise and leave me and i love her anyway because im not a goddamn coward.” how it begins there.

[claypigeonpottery]

sold

it didn’t explode lmao. putting this in the kiln felt like I was tempting the kiln gods to bring disaster, but the firing went great

[eameschairs]

finding a random ao3 user with a shitton of bookmarks who seems to have similar taste to you. elmofire.gif

[detailspecialist]

no, mel isn’t just simply crashing out over her sister having sex and a boyfriend. being a caregiver/sister and doctor isn’t just something she does, it’s all she has to define herself. it’s the structure holding her together, it’s the only context she knows how to exist in. and basically both of those collapse simultaneously in the span of three hours. it’s bigger than her and becca no longer operating in the same version of their relationship, it’s bigger than her loneliness, it’s bigger than the stress of the lawsuit. it’s her identity slipping away from her which obviously feels incredibly destabilizing bc she doesn’t have anything else to fall back on.

she is being irrational and overbearing yes, but she isn’t overreacting. obviously she’s gonna wobble when the ground shifts beneath her feet.

[detailspecialist]

tdeardz let’s be mutuals

[maruti-bitamin]

painter for a season

insta/bluesky/ store/cara

[nobrashfestivity]

John Singer Sargent - Staircase in Capri. 1878

[emulsified-blog]

small town stained glass windows

[rherlotshadow]

Dewerstone Wood, Dartmoor, England.

[sweat-peas]

I redownloaded tiktok for the purposes of finding a recipe and erased like 3 hours from my life before I even had the will to open up my saves to find the recipe, but I kept seeing the “x number of things that are worth the money” trend and I wanted to partake so

the worth it

tailored clothes

a magnet/postcard from every travel destination

^^on that note, useless little trinket gifts for friends back home after every trip

uniqlo cashmere heat tech

the eltana lox cream cheese spread (I have no business spending $10.99 on 8oz of cream cheese but it’s SO good)

walk-in flash tattoos

blunnies (but only if you plan on leather conditioning them)

the anti-worth it

a ceramics studio membership

signing away your twenties to a phd program

popmart blind boxes

[infectiouspiss]

violence and death and dying and blood and guts and gore and violence and viscera and fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

[manasurge]

@beanswithbones

[2022dirt]

Faces in coffee.

[sinni-ok-sessi]

I do think the ability to emoji-react is a net win for human communication. not only does it give you an outlet for 'I see and acknowledge this but don't have a verbal response' but it also adds a pleasing alethiometer element to things

my coworker announces that he's off to the dentist. someone reacts with a tooth emoji. is this a statement of dentist solidarity? a wish for my coworker to return with more (or fewer?) teeth than he set out with? simple word association? who can say

[softness-and-shattering]

Friend of mine calls it active listening. Ah yes we are speaking of tooths. I understand and respond. Here it a tooth image. I have heard you.

[unthrifty--loveliness-deactivat]

Just so we’re clear, if I point out that you did something racist, that’s not the same as me thinking you’re irremediably terrible. You did a racist thing.

[unthrifty--loveliness-deactivat]

You think you don’t do racist things, homophobic things, etc? You do. I caught myself in fat phobic and homophobic lines of thinking/speech just this morning. I’m fucking gay married. Nothing disqualifies you from acting in a way that reflects the society you exist in. We are obliged to fight it. Why not fight it in honesty and with camaraderie?

[beybuniki]

why are they like this

[alhashimis]

Irene Choi as Joy Kwon THE PITT (S02E02)