If I dont belong, if no one wants to look at me, no one wants to react to my shared words or anything that comes from me
Despite being either less toxic or no different nor any less/more special than the rest whom seem to be known by over a 1000 ppl minimum from at least one or two posts. I can go away, that's fine.
I don't know why my existence is always a plague avoided by people like I will infect them. I don't know why me even invisibly being there ruins everything. But even though I do nothing different, or what I do different to those who speak to me (and love it), I'm just, abandoned and disregarded as a weirdo no one interacts with the posts of.
Ill go. Sorry. Idk what i did but it feels like i sicken everyone I come across the dashboards of. And forgotten. Despite how "creative" i am and how much pain those followers/moots and friends feel sorrow about over my life, it seems like nothing and my abandonment fear plus never even getting noticed by them let alone my own audience, is fed into.
Don't tell me to write comics and shit if not even you look at my blog unless feeling forced to by guilt. With literally no attention to my existence, why should I break my back to be forgotten even beyond "unheard artist" 10 years after? I will never be mentioned even at that level.
Not targeted, but at the same time, kinda directed at everyone that has ever even interacted or encouraged my continuation of torturing myself to create. Albeit not intending to harm me but then again, everyone plays this fucking game with me no matter how little we have known each other.
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