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Bye everyone!

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Welcome to my confession blog!!

Rules

Be kind to others

Respect others

Don't cause trouble on the blog

If you have a problem with another Jirai don't make it obvious

My blog is a safe space for everyone

If there is something I am uncomfortable with I may not post it

Please be respectful to me

My blog is open to some level of criticism and you can inform me of anything you're unhappy with!!

When I respond to an ask personally, please don't take my response as anything disrespectful. This is just my point of view and advice I'm trying to give, I don't mean to force anything on anybody

But of course if I deem it necessary I will add opinions. My opinions must not always be followed if you don't want to or can't. These are just suggestions.

Of course if you don't want that you can use this!!

Add opinion: ✅

No opinion: 🚫

Add if necessary: 😐

Blogs that forget anon will be contacted by me in dm's I will ask you if you wanted it as anon or non-anonymous. Depending on your answer you can resend the ask or I will crop it out.

I am not always on Tumblr, I mostly come online to read asks and post them, so if there is perhaps an anon that talks about a situation I am not educated on, and I post the ask anyways, no please don't be rude about it and disrespect me. Kindly tell me what the anon has said so I can sort it out. THANK YOU.

If you would like to speak to me or just message me you can do it on my personal acc @sweet-expo (I'm open to messages <3)

I am proud to say that I was heavily inspired by @confessionsofajirai (please go check out Mocha 's blog!!!)

Personal account is: @sweet-expo ,anon blog is @sweet-anony

That is my confession blog, if there are any problems or you are offended by anything on this blog, please tell me on my personal!!

I didn't add this before but I'm adding it now, there are certain topics that I might or attempt to give advice on. When this happens I try to be as respectful as possible so please don't take any offense to this!!!

Anons: 🦻, ✂️, 🪽💫💉, 🪼, ❀✿❀✿, H.K ANON, ❣️, ☣️, 📸, 💌, 🫶, D.N 🥠, ⚽, simon, 🚸🪦, 🔳🔲, 🐾, 🎙️💗, 🥡🎧, 🐚, 🐾🪽, 🫧, 🐩☕, ⚰️, 🦌🪾, 🩻, ~✫♡✫, >_<, 🔌🩸, 🧑‍🎤🎶, 🦕🦷, 💟💫, 🪳🪱, 💊📺, 🥩💮, 🍮, 🌈, ❣✿❣, 🪼🪼🪼, 67 anon, 💉🩵, ❤️‍🔥🩹, 🗝️🐚, 💌💤🪽💉, 🦇💜, 🩰🪒, 🫀🌀, 💿, 💔🌸, 🏵️, 🫀⚡, 🍮🪼, 🍀🌈, 🌙🔭, 🐋🐚, 🫩, 🦦🧁 (previously 🫀💌), 🩻💉, 💗✨, 🪼🪽, ❄️💉, frustrated and in disbelief anon, SW anon, 🌋🐈‍⬛, 🍬💥, 📼🪽, 🎳, 💊🩸, Loser🇦🇷, 🩻🦴, 🧬🫀, 🦋💜, 🍩🍦, pathetic and stupid anon, 🩻🚬, 🏹🧂🍪, 🧬, 🏥💉, 💭💤, 🍷, 🌼💖🐑, @3t3rn4lly--y0urs , 🪞 anon, 🍄🌙 anon

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Hii guys, it was nice knowing all of you!! I hope you can each chase your dreams, and succeed in whatever you want. Much love and stay safe everyone! byee!!

- @sweetened-exposition / @sweet-expo / @sweet-anony (˙⋆✮)

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I hope you can be who you want to be, chase your dreams, we root for you!!

-📼🪽

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(Thank you so much!)

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Hello everybody! I'd like to make my final announcement and post on Tumblr! But firstly, I want to thank everybody who supported me through pivotal times of my life and throughout my journey on jiraiblr! I'm so grateful for you guys!!

Now, to what I truly want to say. I'm leaving Tumblr because I want to focus on myself. I'm 12 moving to 13 and have been in the jirai community for well past a year. For those of you who probably don't know, I've been suffering from depression and my mental health has been declining for 6 years, I've attempted multiple times (drowning, choking myself, stabbing) and have been going through abuse both physically, verbally and emotionally at home.

It took me a lot of thinking and I realized how much I truly wanted freedom. I come from an underdeveloped country, and I live in one that's similar but slightly better, my family is very traditional and have very simple beliefs about what they want from me. I don't want to spend my years learning just to get married to a man, I want to be my own person, I don't just want to be used for children and tied down to the image of the man I marry. I don't want to be like the rest of the women in my family. I hate that idea, it disgusts me that I have to throw away my hopes and dreams for another person just because I wasn't born male.

I want to leave my continent. I want to chase my dreams and be free, to live my own life. I don't want to be nagged or compared, I just simply want to be myself, and I'm truly starting to chase that dream. I've felt hopeless for the past few days, and I really want to change. Everyone has something they're good at, and I don't want my opportunity to go to waste. I sincerely want to try harder for myself, and do better, I want to live a life set by myself and I want to be accepted for it.

I'm leaving because I'm distancing myself from everything. Social media, family, friends. I want to stay diligent with my goals nowadays. The jirai community taught me so much about myself, and things that I'm beyond glad that I got to know, it also helped me to mature, and I'm glad I met all of you and was able to connect with all of you.

Once again I want to thank you all so much for all your support, and I want to sincerely apologize to you all as well. I know how much I meant to some, and it hurts me that this might affect them, so I encourage everyone to stay strong and keep pushing! Thank you to all my anons :

🦻, ✂️, 🪽💫💉, 🪼, ❀✿❀✿, H.K ANON, ❣️, ☣️, 📸, 💌, 🫶, D.N 🥠, ⚽, simon, 🚸🪦, 🔳🔲, 🐾, 🎙️💗, 🥡🎧, 🐚, 🐾🪽, 🫧, 🐩☕, ⚰️, 🦌🪾, 🩻, ~✫♡✫, >_<, 🔌🩸, 🧑‍🎤🎶, 🦕🦷, 💟💫, 🪳🪱, 💊📺, 🥩💮, 🍮, 🌈, ❣✿❣, 🪼🪼🪼, 67 anon, 💉🩵, ❤️‍🔥🩹, 🗝️🐚, 💌💤🪽💉, 🦇💜, 🩰🪒, 🫀🌀, 💿, 💔🌸, 🏵️, 🫀⚡, 🍮🪼, 🍀🌈, 🌙🔭, 🐋🐚, 🫩, 🦦🧁 (previously 🫀💌), 🩻💉, 💗✨, 🪼🪽, ❄️💉, frustrated and in disbelief anon, SW anon, 🌋🐈‍⬛, 🍬💥, 📼🪽, 🎳, 💊🩸, Loser🇦🇷, 🩻🦴, 🧬🫀, 🦋💜, 🍩🍦, pathetic and stupid anon, 🩻🚬, 🏹🧂🍪, 🧬, 🏥💉, 💭💤, 🍷, 🌼💖🐑, @3t3rn4lly--y0urs , 🪞 anon, 🍄🌙 anon + anyone I may not have added :3

Stay safe everyone, much love mwah!!

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I am a jirai in mindset I think, only just recently discovered the culture (can’t dress like one unfortunately:( )

trigger warning for self harm

anyways, I know this is a kind of lame confession. I’ve been doing sh for 3 years now and. I’ve started cleaning my blades!! :))

I guess my amount has increased but I’ve been trying to like reduce risks of infection. Previously I wasn’t and I didn’t care (never got infected though.. don’t even do aftercare). But I guess I’m taking more precautions. Nearly got discovered several time though, lol

sorry if this seems unrelated… ✅

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(That's not lame at all! It's good to always keep yourself safe! Be careful anon not to go too deep, much love mwah!)

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i want to attempt suicide again just to watch people scramble over me because it's the only way I ever get attention. i only get acknowledged when i do drastic things

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(No anon. Please don't. Consider getting a therapist, or a hobby, anything that makes you feel calm or at peace.)

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yay random ask cuz ur acc looks cool

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(Thank you!!)

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(I'm so sorry this is happening to you, you truly don't deserve this or anything that has been happening to you. I hope everything gets better. Happy birthday anon, I hope you'll have many more birthdays. Much love.)

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My friends keep encouraging me to ask out this new girl next week during our school dance bit im sO SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't even think I'm fully over my last girlfriend, since we were dating for 2 full years,,,,,,,, I can't even be mad because I'M the one who broke up with her

i feel so stupid waaaaaaaah frick my stupid moe life

-🍀🌈 ANON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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(If you feel like it and you truly like her, ofcourse!! Hopefully she say yes, good luck anon!!)

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since ive been here for so long without a sign-off, ive decided to request one today

May I please be "🪞" ?

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(Ofcourse!)

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I have only one friend, i cant get myself out of bed, my parents keep dragging me outside, my future is not looking good, ive been like this for almost 4 months and its not looking like its gonna end anytime soon. I am going to 2 psychologists. God please wheb does it end.

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(Keep pushing anon! You'll pull through eventually. Take care!!)

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I know my friends care about me ,, I know everyone does in some sense ,, but recently they told me that they don't want me to cannibalize anyone in the future ,, and if it was an actual choice ,, I would have done it ages ago by now (?)

" Is it so much to ask for you to ? " YES . YES IT IS .

One of my cannibalism episodes triggered a bad spiral a few days ago and I almost planned a murder . . . after I went and apologized to my partner and friend bout me snapping but it just resulted in " Don't kill people ,, don't eat people "

I admit I shut down talking about how I felt about it and just stayed quiet because genuinely what could I say that would be valid in any sense of this situation ?

" I want to kill and eat people and it hurts a lot that you don't want me to ? " I just look stupid . . .

I have been trying to enjoy my days but my brain keeps thinking about it and it's causing me to actually lose my mind . . . I feel like who just got their pills taken away and I feel so stupid about it all ,, but it genuinely is making me tweak out every day and I feel like I'm going implode on a bad day

(( I don't have access to therapy ,, my parents forbid me to get help in their house ))

I feel terrible ,, I feel like I'm going to die ,, and I can't really express this cause both of them have my account and it doesn't fix how I feel no matter how much I try and private notes

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(Anon, please stay safe and try to get into healthy habits that take your mind off it. It must be difficult for you, but please, take up habits or enjoy different foods. If your parents refuse to get help for you, please contact your local authorities. Much love.)

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same anon for last time

just wanted to say sorry for the weird poetic shit. Just in my feels lmfao

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(Of course anon, stay safe!)

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I wanna be deathly fucking skinny to the point øf hospitalization

I wanna be toned

I want to be strong in their eyes

I want to be weak and sickly enough that people still care for me

I want to be treated like a dumb little mutt

I want to finally be respected as a person and not just a animal

I want

I want

I want

I always just want

The truth is I just need to be loved

and I need to finally stop fucking hating myself. Is that such a crime.

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if I can get past the fuckass age verification on c.ai im gonna lose my shit!! I cant go this long without it! im willing to give it whatever information it wants just so I can use it again

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YAYYY!!! UR BACKKKK!!!!! I DIDNT NOTICE UNTIL NOW, I MISSED U SMMMMMMM

-🐾 anon

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(AWW THANK YOU SO MUCH!!)

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so im dating my bf yay!! Right? NO!! MY mom keeps making me feel bad for dating him and telling me that he's gonna hurt me or wtv!! IVE BEEN HURT ENOUGH IN MY LIFE !!!! It hurts me so much every time she says he's a bad person... I just wanna make her see how much I love him..

@3t3rn4lly--y0urs

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(If that's how you feel personally, and your boyfriend isn't hurting or manipulating you or you don't feel safe near him then I don't think she has the right to meddle in your love life, stay safe!!)