can we get a nervous Jax x fem reader please? (it's his first girlfriend)
Ი︵𐑼 Shy!Jax x Fem!Reader
A/N: Of course! I didn't really have an idea for a full fic, but I hope some hc's are okay too!
Also, I apologize in advance for any grammatical errors since English isn't my first language and nor is this proof read </3
CW//: none, established relationship, OOC(?)
✦ At first, Jax refused to acknowledge his growing feelings for you and it took him a while to finally come to terms with the embarassing truth. It took him even longer to actually do something about it, everytime he mustered up enough courage to make a move, he'd shy out before getting too far. Fortunately for Jax, you weren't that oblivious to his attempts and you'd help him out whenever you saw him getting too flustered.
✦ Since it'd be his first serious relationship, Jax would be quite hesitant initially. He'd contantly overthink everything he does or says around you, not wanting to do or say the wrong thing. He'd constantly push himself to mask even around you, never fully opening up, afraid that if you saw him for who he really is you'd just turn your back on him.
✦ For the most part, Jax would do his best to keep his nervousness hidden behind the usual obnoxious persona he takes on. It'd be quite difficult to see the cracks in the mask due to the fact that he'd still act like a jerk and antagonise you much like the others, not offering you much of a special treatment—only sometimes would he go easier on you or would consider sparing you from his vicious pranks. However, you'd definetly be able to see Jax's more timid nature when it'd be just the two of you in private.
✦ Jax would have these moments where he'd open up for a split second, blurt out something deep with actual substance then play it down in the most horrendous ways possible—he's just awkward like that.
✦ Jax would prefer actions over words when it comes to showing his appreciacion for you since he doesn't really have the guts to voice out what he's feeling after all. It'd be small things such as including you in his more mild pranks, spending a night in your room to cuddle with you out of the blue, maybe suggesting an adventure based on something he knew you'd like and enjoy, leaving small gifts at your door or even in your room when he finds something that reminds him of you.
On rare ocassions, Jax would muster up enough courage to speak his mind and offer you the comfort of verbal reassurance. Probably the first time you heard him voice his unfiltered thoughts was when you were gone on the fast-food themed adventure and Jax accidentaly got drunk on stupid sauce.
"Oh my f&?%!@* god..." you groan as you drag an overstuffed garbage bag after yourself. Who knew 57 baby gloinks could make such a mess?!
You push (or more like kick) open the back door of the restaurant with your foot and make an effort to throw the trash bag away as fast as you can, afraid it could rip open at any moment. You let out a small sigh of relief after you managed to get rid of it without making a mess. Alright, just 2 more hours and—
"Heyyy... You know what I just realised?"
Your train of thought is cut off by a loud yet very familiar snicker coming from behind you.
You nearly jumped out of your skin, the sound startling you for good. At the same time it makes you immediately whip your head in the direction of the voice, searching frantically for the source. That's when you finally see him, casually sitting down near the back door you just came out of while leaning against a garbage bag he most definetly was supposed to throw away a while ago.
"Jax!? Have you– Have you been here the whole time!?" You stare at him in disbelief, a surprised and somewhat angry expression slowly taking shape on your face.
"Oh, nahh... I've just.. I've just been on my breakkk" He laughs again as he makes a gesture of looking at his wrist to check the time, tho there was no watch to actually look at. "You sound like you could use one too."
"Jax! We really need you back there! Ragatha's drunk or– high on some stupid sauce and–" You groan while you start heading towards him.
You couldn't believe him. You've been looking for him literally everywhere! What was he even doing out here for so long?! Oh, he had a whole lot of explaining to do.
However, the closer you got, the more you noticed something wasn't right. As you got a closer look, now standing right in front of him, your anger slowly died down and instead turned into frustration.
"F@%&... you're just as gone, aren't you?" You let out an exasperated chuckle, looking down at him as you tried your best to not crash out. It was torture having to look after a drunk Ragatha and you can't imagine having to watch over a very drunk Jax as well.
"What? But I'm right here with you, babyyy" He reaches his arms out to you, wanting you to come closer. "And I'm not going anywhere..." Jax whispers in continuation before he gives you a wink.
"Oh my God, you're so much worse than I imagined.." You can't help but laugh at the silly display despite still being at your wits end.
You grab a hold of one of his streched out hands, intertwining your fingers as you sit yourself down next to him. Maybe you did need a break like... this.
"What's that supposed to mean.." Jax pouts, throwing you a confused and almost hurt look.
"Nothing, bunny-boy." You assure him, though he doesn't seem convinced. So, you lean closer and give him a small peck on his cheek, hoping to make it up to him. But the small crumb of affection just makes him quickly shut up as a cartoonish blush slowly appears on his face.
For a moment you relish in the comfortable silence, neither of you saying anything more. It was kinda nice actually, dealing with this version of Jax.
"You... you might be one of the luckiest ones out of the bunch, you know?"
"Huh?"
"You... " Jax smiles at you, a big and genuine toothy grin "Even in this stupid uniform, are just so... gorgeous."
Were you hearing this right? Was Jax actually...
"Your avatar in general is absolutely– incredibly– amazingly well thought out.." He holds your hand tighter while also running his thumb over it in a soothing motion. "..and if it's based on those– mindfiles or whatever chatter-teeth calls them," a chuckle interrupts his rambling "well... I'd say you're just as perfect in the real world."
You were the speechless one now, the compliment throwing you off in the most heartwarming way and how Jax was just staring at you as if you just hung the moon, pupils dilated, full of admiration, was a sight you'd never wish to forget. Before you could even gather yourself, he starts again.
"No, I knowww you're perfect..." He snickers again. Then, he scoots closer, letting go of your hand and instead wrapping both of his arms around you. "In every possible way." he murmurs as he rests his head on your shoulder, comfortably curling up against you.
You can only hold him close as you're still trying to process everything.
Okay... you had to find out what they put in that damn stupid sauce.
✦ Jax would fluster so bad when it comes to PDA. Every time he'd try something—hugging you from behind, grabbing a hold of your hand or giving you a quick smootch when you're on an adevnture and no one is looking, he'd turn very red very quickly which is both an adorable and striking sight. It'd be even worse if you were the one to anything like that.
I imagine Zooble caught a glimpse of it once and they haven't let it go since. They found it hilarious and would often bring it up to either give Jax a taste of his own medicine or when they wanted to shut him up instantly.
✦ Another thing that gets him all hot and bothered is if you were to answer to his usual bratty behaviour in the same playful manner. Jax doesn't really expect you to bite back whenever he's acting out like he usually does and when you actually do, it always takes him by surprise. He never knows how to react to your teasing and just ends up going real quiet while staring at you dumbfounded, a million thoughts running through his mind all at once as he tries to find a comeback that isn't utterly corny.
I feel like in these situations where Jax gets overwheled and flustered like that, his tail unconciously waggles—and he has no idea.
(I also imagine his ears twitch whenever he's irritated—and he has no idea about this either.)
✦ Sometimes Jax would become self-aware of his behaviour and his execessive shyness (by his standards) when he's around you, which always serves to remind him of his evil clone. He dies of cringe at the thought of even coming close to that submissive and annoying version of himself. Just imagining it makes him spiral every time. You'd sometimes find him ranting about how irksome his clone is, trash talking it and poking fun at it's expense out of the stupidest reasons.
✦ Jax wouldn't be that big on pet names. One of his favourites would be "bunny" but he'd throw a "sugar", "doll" or "sweetheart" and variations of those here and there too. He'd resort to the more corny ones when he'd want to purposely annoy you or grab your attention.
"But honeybunchessss" He wraps his arms around you from behind, pulling you close and nuzzling his head agasint your shoulder. "I promise it's gonna be fun for everyone..."
"No, Jax. I am not helping you make Zooble into a piñata—" You scoff, trying your best to sound firm despite the corny nickname making you want to laugh your ass off.
"C'monnn, my..." Jax pauses for a second, looking for an even worse pet name. "My sweet little pumpkin pieee~" , he whines into your shoulder again.
"Jax! I am gonna make you into a piñata if you don't stop..." You barely manage through your laughter, unable to take him seriously anymore.
✦ Jax has an irrational fear of you abstracting that often bleeds into his digital sleep. Once in a while he'd have these nightmares about you that always make him wake up in a cold sweat. He wouldn't be able to calm down or go back to 'sleep' if he doesn't assure himself you're okay and that it was just a dream—a really bad dream.
Thus, you'd randomly find him desperately knocking at your door in the middle of your rest hours. He'd make up some dumb reason on why he needed to check up on you. Then, he'd come up with an even more silly reason on why he just had to spend the rest of the 'night' with you.
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