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Noah, He/Him, 18. In ed/sh recovery since May 3rd 2025! Not posting as much since I'm doing pretty good

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Hi everyone! (*Kricket noises*)

You can call me Melle, Noah, or Lycan! My pronouns are he/they. This is an ed/sh recovery blog for me.

🌘I'm currently in ed/sh recovery (since may 3rd 2025). It'll probably be quite rough, so this blog will sometimes have vents on it (appropriately tagged and with warning ofc!) I really want to learn to love myself again. I want to feel alright again.

🌗My fav animals are Elephants! ^_^ I used to lie about that, because I was conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I love them though. I also like dogs, wolves, birds, and anything with horns/antlers.

🌔My fav foods are Sweet potato(!!!), oatmeal, pumpkin soup, and the Mcflurry pistachio icecream. I will also absolutely devour any yogurt bowl in front of me

🌖Fandoms! Spider-man, Undertale, Deltarune, Heaven official's blessing, How to train your dragon, Spider-man across the Spider-verse, Batman, Omniscient readers viewpoint, My hero academia, Omori, The last of us, Pokémon, Teen Wolf, Furry, and Harry Potter.

My comfort movie is Happy feet U ´ᴥ` U

🌕I LOVE listening to music! It's my everythingg. My fav artists are; AJR, Cosmo Sheldrake, MARETU, Kikuo, Mother Mother, the Trouble notes, and The oh hellos.

Fav current song: Ava - FAMY

#potatougheats for random food posts and collection of yogurt bowls

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Yogurt bowl talk

Lmaoo, so there's this one classmate of mine, she's basically me but blond and a girl. She loves protein bars, analyzes restaurants and the menus dayss before, loves yogurt and oatmeal, hasn't had her period in a year, knows about the existence of calories, and goes to the gym. Kind of suspecting she has an ED too (or had one idk) because the way she acted on the school trip was EXACTLY how I acted when we went to Rome during my ed.

She's my fav classmate though so I'm sad she's leaving this year :(

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Yesterrdayy

Been feeling dysphoric again lately. I wanna cut my hairr

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Wieiad at the beach!

Had a really fun time. it was SO HOT though, I ended up falling asleep in the sun and burning my legs

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Pics of what I ate yesterday, going to the beach today!

+ a shit ton of strawberries which made mom mad bcs they're EXPENSIVE

Dinner looks ass but i swear its just chicken, potatoes, mushrooms, and eggs, with some lettuce that was going bad

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Wieiad in ed recovery may 21st

Breakfast: yogurt bowl

Morning snack: nectarine & mandarin

Lunch: minion soup

Afternoon snack: protein bar

Dinner: beef with corn, beans, broccoli, and sour cream

Evening snack: pb and chocolate sprinkle icecream

Been trying to hit my protein goal again :) it's super fun actually, like a game somehow.

And duck

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Day 1432 of reblogging pictures of elephants.

Sent to me by @dinosaurwithablog!

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My oatmeal is watery💔💔💔

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Wieiad May 17th

Breakfast: yogurt bowl

Lunch: Burrito but the tortillas were moldy 💔

Dinner: Spaghetti with beef

Evening snack: icecream

Today was eh. Just tired

It's been 251 days of endless fucking waiting just for the trans diagnosis. The wait to get onto hormones is even longer.

Walked with my dog to get my mind off of things.

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backpacking sounds lowk fun tho

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Yogurtbowlmaxxing💪💪💪

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Hiya! Think I'll be posting wieiads again because I've seen an increase in ana content on tiktok, and celebrities looking worryingly skinny. Recovery is worth it guys

Breakfast: Yogurt bowl with banana, summerfruits, peanutbutter, and cinnamon

Lunch: Bigass bowl of oatmeal with fruits and peanutbutter (this thing was like 400g!)

Snacks: ricecake with cottage cheese, banana and honey. Protein bar. Nectarine

Dinner: Wrap with vegan kebab, garlic sauce, and some greens

Evening snack: straciatella icecream

Also the Pitt is SUCH a good series. I really recommend it! (there is medical gore though)

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Accidently found this blog while looking for fan art of the stoner warrior cat and got overwhelmed with pride for you cause I've loved so many people with eating disorders nd I know how hard it is to push yourself back up. And you're doing so GREAT WOW!!!!! It's amazing that you're doing better than you were!!!!!!!! Sorry if this is socially inapprioate I just like saying nice things to people and making them happy. Are you on book 6 yet btw

Thank you so much for this, it genuinly means a lot to me :) I'm doing much MUCH better rn and although I stil have my bad days, I'm so happy I chose recovery.

It'#s also not inappropriate at all! This really made my day.

And yeah I've already finished book 6! Currently stuck on the 1st book of the 2nd series because of the pov switch lol. Got too attached to firebeart.

(sorry for the late reply!)

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Icecream!! (with brownie mixed in and marshmallows)

Finally got back the motivation to work out lmao

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Exactly a year ago I ran away from home because I was at my absolute worst. Here's some things I wrote in my logbookthingy while in Amsterdam :)

Yapping

Looking back, I still feel insane when thinking of what the hell I did. I went to Amsterdam and spent about 3 days there, I spent the night on a bench and in a mcdonalds, I slept in parks and strangers gave me/paid for food (this sounds unsafe but I didn't really care atm)

At the same time this is what pushed me to recover. I think that while restricting I felt that noone saw me. Noone noticed how miserable I was. I had only gotten about 2 "you've lost weight" comments and my parents never said anything when THIS was my dinner after going to the gym.

*shivers*

When I ran away, I felt like they finally saw. And I could also let go of food worries somehow, maybe because noone knew me there? Idk

I never told my parents about my ed, becauss I'm scared asf about what they'll do, and any food-comments they make will hit twice as hard. Besides, I'd be scared of seeming "fake" to them. They wouldn't understand and I'm alr the way things are rn

I did come out to my parents as trans, which was the core of my ed. Currently been on the waitlist for nearly 8 months and it's agonizing because nothing has really changed and my parents are ashamed of it but oh well

If you'vd read allat than tyvm and I want you to know that recovery is worth it

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It’s really important to find motivation to recover. Personally i do cheerleading as a base so I want to be strong enough to go back to competing!

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For me it's transitioning! I wanna build muscle to look more masculine and I need the energy to do so :)

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Hellooo, another update!

Went to Prague last week :)

Gorgeous place, had so much fun there!

Now some talking:

Had its ups and downs bcs the friendgroup I went with was NOT good at planning which was kind of stressful. Ended up pvrging twice as some control thing and calorie comparison to friends, competitive disorder etc.

BUT STILL OKAY LETS GET TO THE FUN PART! We did karaoke and looots of museums and the weather was amazing and so was the food (istg knedlíky are so so SO good. the sweet ones are to die for). We went there by bus in a 12hr trip which was exhausting but also really fun :)

I'm kind of concerned about a friend though, like, idk if its just me projecting but their entire behavior is EXACTLY the way I acted when I went to Rome last year when I was still restricting. Trying to choose the smallest portions, protein bars, acting withdrawn after one of her meals had lots of oil, being very focused on finding restaurants to eat at, etc.

I'm probably just projecting but still worried.

I also kind of relapsed a little bit after that week bcs the stress got to me a bit (plus my pants got thighter which is HORRIBLE) but I'm alr again.

Still coming to terms that I wont like my body skin and bones or normal or chubby bcs it's the fact that even after 180 days on the waitlist I still havent heard anything from the transgender care place and I'm just stuck with this body for now.

+ice cream with friends