Sydney The Cockatiel

linktr.ee/helpsyd help Daddy keep me and himself alive

[sydthetiel]

Happy 13th birthday, baby girl

the Bean is doing well. She's staying with my friend and is absolutely spoiled. I had to flee to survive. I'm overseas, and only got to see her briefly when I returned for Rex's (my birth giver) funeral, and I had to take her to the vet for a swollen preen gland.

Rex has left me with so many more troubles and debts that I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to return home, so I'm trying to figure out how to get my things and Syd here safely. I'm exhausted and stressed, but I'm glad that my kiddo is happy and as healthy as we can expect, given her and Taz's history and her age. She's playful and has a great appetite.

I really do miss her, though. I wish I knew what to do to get her here. I just wanna snuggle her so bad.

I did have some presents sent to her for her birthday, and we had a video call 🩵

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Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, a month, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

Gfm requires at least $5 donation, so if you can't swing that, you can send less to:

ven.mo: https://account.venmo.com/u/rroche90 pay.pal: [email protected]

Edit, 11/7/23: And we also don't have hot water now either. When the plumber came to give me an estimate on the furnace, he found that the hot water heater had a bad leak, so that was turned off to reduce damage.

Edit, 11/12/23: Septic problems now, too. Sinks are backing up. Woo! Still no heat, btw. It's been a month without heat and it's getting colder. Friend bought Syd a bigger hospital cage, but it hasn't arrived yet, so poor girl has to continue to suffer. Still no transportation, either. HEAP has said they'll pay half the furnace bill if I'm on the deed, which I can't and won't do until the taxes are paid off. I'm not about to inherit that debt.

@sydthetiel is being kept in a tiny hospital cage in my office with a space heater. Not ideal, but it's keeping her warm at least.

We're really not okay.

Edit, 11/16/23: Still no heat or hot water. Plumber isn't even actually getting back to us lmao. Mechanic got back to us, though, and they've found that the brake lines are rusted and need to be replaced. They want an extra $3500 for that. So it'd be roughly $6,000 to get my van repaired. Or I can just fix what I can fix at $2,000 and take my chances with rusted brake lines, and be an accident waiting to happen because I'm desperate to not be trapped in a freezing house with no meds or food or water lmao. Or I just don't get to have transportation back. Or I have to buy a new used vehicle, for like, $15,000+. So... mostly there's just no hope left for me. I'm ready to just give up. It's too much to fix, and my odds of survival are at 0 anyway. I won't last the winter here, and I can't even leave.

Edit, 11/22/23: That plumber ghosted us. We got a new plumber. He came out yesterday and got the furnace rigged to work, just in time. As he pulled into the driveway, it started sleeting and snowing. Throughout the night. The problem is, the furnace isn't fixed, so it could crap out at any moment. The water heater is off, but still leaking, so it's time sensitive to have it replaced. But he's pointed out another problem with that; Rex's hoarding. We need to be able to get rid of enough of her crap to get the equipment in and out. He can do it, but it's gonna cost. Additionally, the chimney isn't in great shape so we have to do something about that, or it's going to defeat the purpose of these replacements. Waiting for the quotes on everything.

As for my van, it's ready to be picked up, without the brake lines being finished. We found a new place that said they'd charge between $700-$1000 to replace the brake lines. A lot better than $3,500, but still not money I have. So until I can do that, it's a risk driving it, but I really don't have a choice. I can't stay living like this, trapped in the middle of nowhere. It's defeating me mentally and physically. But there's another problem too, that won't be covered under warranty. A knock sensor. No idea how much it'll cost yet, but it needs to be replaced in order for the van to pass inspection in December.

I'm feeling incredibly hopeless. I can't even run, because I have Syd, and I'm not going to abandon her. She's my kiddo. She's in a bigger cage now, happily. But I'm at such a loss of what to do. We're not going to survive the winter here without these repairs, and fleeing is going to be really difficult, and I may not have a home to come back to in Spring if I did manage to leave for the winter with Syd.

[chaoticreation]

Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, a month, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

Gfm requires at least $5 donation, so if you can't swing that, you can send less to:

ven.mo: https://account.venmo.com/u/rroche90 pay.pal: [email protected]

Edit, 11/7/23: And we also don't have hot water now either. When the plumber came to give me an estimate on the furnace, he found that the hot water heater had a bad leak, so that was turned off to reduce damage.

Edit, 11/12/23: Septic problems now, too. Sinks are backing up. Woo! Still no heat, btw. It's been a month without heat and it's getting colder. Friend bought Syd a bigger hospital cage, but it hasn't arrived yet, so poor girl has to continue to suffer. Still no transportation, either. HEAP has said they'll pay half the furnace bill if I'm on the deed, which I can't and won't do until the taxes are paid off. I'm not about to inherit that debt.

@sydthetiel is being kept in a tiny hospital cage in my office with a space heater. Not ideal, but it's keeping her warm at least.

We're really not okay.

[chaoticreation]

Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, a month, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

Gfm requires at least $5 donation, so if you can't swing that, you can send less to:

ven.mo: https://account.venmo.com/u/rroche90 pay.pal: [email protected]

Edit, 11/7/23: And we also don't have hot water now either. When the plumber came to give me an estimate on the furnace, he found that the hot water heater had a bad leak, so that was turned off to reduce damage.

@sydthetiel is being kept in a tiny hospital cage in my office with a space heater. Not ideal, but it's keeping her warm at least.

We're really not okay.

[sydthetiel]

A happy peeper adjusting to a terrible tiny hospital cage that's going to be replaced in a week <3 Bean is just happy to have Daddy time

[sydthetiel]

Update Time!

I'm not completely out of the woods yet, but some serious burdens/guilt have been lifted.

Family friend came again today, brought me another grocery order, which has a new can opener (this one better fucking work) and some more cold foods to last the week and stuff. Eggs, salad, etc. I can feel a little better about what I'm putting into my body besides canned crap, without having to spend hours to make it.

She helped me get a huge chunk done of what all those aides were supposed to do with me. We went through foods and organized, cleaned my "ration rack" (which is, as it sounds, a rack which holds the rations for days I can't get out of bed. Chips, crackers, croissants, poptarts, cookies, etc. All the snackies, and some extra drinks, so I no longer have to sleep with all of them.) Ahhh wonderful. It's also out of my path now for trying to get to my office where Syd is currently located. No more squeezing and side stepping. Mentally, that's a load off. Clutter and mess trigger my OCD bad enough to hit me real hard with depression and hopelessness. It's the biggest reason why hoarder Rex is so bad for me.

Syd's new water bowl came. As expected, it was too big to fit in such a tiny hospital cage. It was a two person job to take the top off and install it, and it takes up so very much of the cage. I held Syd, while friend put the top of the cage back on. The sight was so fucking depressing. Friend says to me "I'm gonna buy her a bigger cage." And of course, cages are expensive, so I told her that, and explained this one is so small because it's literally all I could afford, and I feel like the worst dad ever for it. And of course, at this point, we're both crying, because my baby girl deserves better than a tiny fucking cramped piece of shit where she can't even spread her fucking wings, but it's impossible to bring her home cage into my office. It ain't gettin' up the stairs, or through the doorways. Dear fucking gods, no. Friend insists, "We're gonna order a cage today, on your phone, before we leave." And she did. It'll be here in roughly a week. It should (better) be big enough, and it's quite lovely. It has a stand, so I can store her food and all that, and will make an exceptional hospital cage, where Bean can flap and be happy and well cared for. I am in fucking tears. Her gofundme is still up, for vet stuff, but this is fucking HUGE for us! She also said she'll take us to the vet for another Lupron injection, since Syd's horny again, and said she'd pay for the shot!! <333

Between sobbing about trying to figure out how to pay for van repairs, a new hot water heater, and a new furnace, and a shut off notice for the electric because once again Rex didn't pay it, not having to worry about shelling out an extra $100 or so on a hormone injection is just... such a fucking weight lifted.

On top of that, Daddy's getting some needs met, too now! She assembled my shoe rack! No more bending or tripping over all my shoes! They're right there! Aaaand I finally have my new massager. It's been sitting in a fucking filthy box for like two years, and she helped me get it clean, so now I have that. As soon as I got situated in bed tonight, I tried it out. The pleasure screams I felt as it massaged the knots out of my agonizing back and shoulders is just... oh gods. Probably sounded like a whole ass orgy up in here. Actual goddamn pain relief! PAIN RELIEF!!!!!!

I ate twice today, and finally had some decent hydration, too. Huge boost. I no longer detest the idea of my chicken and gravy tray. Meal plan for tomorrow!

Sunday, she's coming back, and we're gonna tackle some more stuff. I can't fucking wait. I mean, I would really love a weekend with my girlfriend, and some rest, but also, just... a clean environment is so fucking good for my mental health. And it makes me happy that they'll take all the outdated foods I won't eat, so I don't have to feel like a douchebag for wasting it and throwing it out. They're happy to eat it, and I feel like I can give something back for all the help, while also clearing out all the space.

We got a game plan for downstairs, and will start making dents in that.

But honestly... This huge chunk done today is... the kind of support I needed to feel like I might actually survive? I mean... it's still grim. The debts, the bills, the taxes not being paid. The gofundme is still just as fucking urgent as ever in order to not go homeless. In order to get heat and hot water and transportation back. But I don't feel quite as stranded and alone.

We most definitely still need like $2,000 for the van repairs, and $3,000 for the water heater and furnace, and uh... like $6,000 for the backed taxes and another $5,000 for this year's taxes.

But I don't have to cry about not being able to give Syd a better cage, or Lupron, and I have some better access for my own self care. Pain relief is so wonderful. Especially when healthcare providers are failing me so miserably.

Gofund.me ($5 min donation according to their standards) Other options (as much or as little as you can spare <3): Ven.mo: @rroche90 Pay.pal: Rory Roche (Can't miss my portrait of Dean Winchester!)

[chaoticreation]

Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, a month, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

Gfm requires at least $5 donation, so if you can't swing that, you can send less to:

ven.mo: https://account.venmo.com/u/rroche90 pay.pal: [email protected]

Edit, 11/7/23: And we also don't have hot water now either. When the plumber came to give me an estimate on the furnace, he found that the hot water heater had a bad leak, so that was turned off to reduce damage.

@sydthetiel is being kept in a tiny hospital cage in my office with a space heater. Not ideal, but it's keeping her warm at least.

We're really not okay.

[armandlucienduval]

Aaand it's worse lmao. Not only do I need a new furnace, I need a new hot water heater. Had a plumber come. He goes to the basement, comes right back up and says my hot water heater is leaking. So now it's turned off so it doesn't explode, which means no hot water. Had to have him go back down to look at the furnace because I guess the water heater distracted him from the reason we called him lmao. That needs to be replaced, too.

So we're looking at like $3,000 for that.

$2,000 for my van

$5,000 for backed taxes, and it's gonna be another $5,000 soon. New tax season.

I have no transportation, no heat, and no hot water.

Syd is in a hospital cage in my office with a space heater for warmth.

I have Raynauds. I won't be able to wash my hands anymore without extreme agony, and then having to hold them in front of a space heater until they thaw.

I can't. I fucking can't anymore.

Idk if a bird sanctuary will take her temporarily until I can get shit together. But if not, then the two of us are just gonna freeze here I guess.

[sydthetiel]

Syd: *screm* Me: What upsets thee, my child? Syd: *screm* Me: I'm here! Syd: *screm screm* Me: I'm right here! It's okay! Syd: *screm screm* Me: *Negan Whistle* Syd: ...

I'm sure she's still adjusting to what we have to do to survive this cold until we can afford a plumber to fix our furnace. She's in a tiny hospital cage, in my office, with a space heater on, and the door cracked for circulation. She's closer to me, at least, but now she's in a strange new room, in a very tiny cage in comparison to her house which is big enough to fit me inside. She doesn't even really have proper flapping room in this thing, and it pains me. But it's all I could afford, and it's a piece of crap, but we're desperate. My soul aches.

[chaoticreation]

Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, two weeks, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

[chaoticreation]

Happy Halloween! (Or, it has the potential to be?)

I'm stranded during my favorite holiday. So this is me, officially trick-or-treating. A dash is a theoretical door. So with your help (sharing,) you'll bring me door (dash) to door, asking for, instead of a piece of candy, a $1 donation (you know, less than the price of a candy bar.)

Please try to help me fill my bucket (the gofundme goal,) or even overflow it so I can get back on my feet. I'm even in costume, as Negan! Syd and I are freezing here without heat, and I can't get food delivered, and I don't even have access to my prescriptions because they won't mail them and medical transportation won't stop at the pharmacy. I need my van back, and we need our furnace fixed so we can have heat again. Any surplus we get will go towards paying off last year's and this year's taxes.

go.fund.me has a $5 minimum, so if all you can spare is $1, you can send it to:

ven.mo: @rroche90 pay.pal: [email protected]

Love you all, and have a safe, fun, and happy fuckin' Halloween!

*knock knock knock* Trick-or-treat!

[chaoticreation]

Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, two weeks, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

[chaoticreation]

Happy Halloween! (Or, it has the potential to be?)

I'm stranded during my favorite holiday. So this is me, officially trick-or-treating. A dash is a theoretical door. So with your help (sharing,) you'll bring me door (dash) to door, asking for, instead of a piece of candy, a $1 donation (you know, less than the price of a candy bar.)

Please try to help me fill my bucket (the gofundme goal,) or even overflow it so I can get back on my feet. I'm even in costume, as Negan! Syd and I are freezing here without heat, and I can't get food delivered, and I don't even have access to my prescriptions because they won't mail them and medical transportation won't stop at the pharmacy. I need my van back, and we need our furnace fixed so we can have heat again. Any surplus we get will go towards paying off last year's and this year's taxes.

Love you all, and have a safe, fun, and happy fuckin' Halloween!

*knock knock knock* Trick-or-treat!

[chaoticreation]

Preventing homelessness for Rory, organized by Serena Mara

Hello everyone, I'm reaching out on behalf of my dear friend Rory, who has been faci… Serena Mara needs your support for Preventing hom

10/29/23

This area is a death sentence without transportation. I'm running out of food, I can't get my prescriptions, can't flee in an emergency, and me and Syd have been freezing for like, two weeks, aside from the past two days because it's been surprisingly warm out for October. But November is around the corner, and it's gonna get cold. Fast.

I don't have the funds to repair my van, or the furnace.

Eventually, I'm gonna go homeless if the taxes aren't paid, but the van and furnace are extremely pressing matters right now.

If you can afford to donate, I'd appreciate anything you can spare. If you can't, that's okay. You can still help by sharing this campaign! Please don't donate if you can't afford to, but please SHARE no matter what!

OUR SURVIVAL DEPENDS ON IT. YES, I AM BEGGING. I'M TERRIFIED.

[chaoticreation]

Happy Halloween! (Or, it has the potential to be?)

I'm stranded during my favorite holiday. So this is me, officially trick-or-treating. A dash is a theoretical door. So with your help (sharing,) you'll bring me door (dash) to door, asking for, instead of a piece of candy, a $1 donation (you know, less than the price of a candy bar.)

Please try to help me fill my bucket (the gofundme goal,) or even overflow it so I can get back on my feet. I'm even in costume, as Negan! Syd and I are freezing here without heat, and I can't get food delivered, and I don't even have access to my prescriptions because they won't mail them and medical transportation won't stop at the pharmacy. I need my van back, and we need our furnace fixed so we can have heat again. Any surplus we get will go towards paying off last year's and this year's taxes.

Love you all, and have a safe, fun, and happy fuckin' Halloween!

*knock knock knock* Trick-or-treat!

[great-and-small]

Which of the following do you consider the classic “parking lot bird”

Pigeon

Grackle

Canada goose

Ibis

Crow

Sparrow

Other? Tell us in tags

Voting ended onOct 19, 2023

Just curious about everyone’s thoughts on this as I’ve been thinking about urban wildlife a lot lately

[sydthetiel]

Had to get a new brand of pellets for the Bean. They stopped making the ones she eats.

I did it right, mixing them with her existing pellets. First time? She eats all the old pellets and leaves the new ones, but I left them for her. Checked on her again and she finished them all.

So I give her both again. Go to check on her Vergara she's screaming at me like I'm starving her. All the new pellets are gone and she left the old ones.

So I gave her the new ones and she dug right in a if she had no food and I'd been starving her. Guess she likes the new ones a lot better lmao. Good news, I suppose, since I can't give her the old ones once they run out.

She's such a strange little baby. I love her so much

[sydthetiel]

Syd is breathing heavier than before. I'm really hoping it's just because the air quality has been shit. I can't afford to bring her to the vet. While I appreciate the donations we did get, that was only enough for visits she already had, without any extra testing.

I'm terrified I'm gonna lose her. It's almost a year since we lost Taz and I can't cope. If i lose my girl too, I may as well throw in the towel myself. She's all I have left in my physical world. I'm battling for my own health. I'm tired. I'm tired of begging, of not catching a break. I cry like 20x a day.

I'm lost. IDK what to do anymore.

[sydthetiel]

I don’t remember the last update. Things have been hectic. Syd finished her injections, and we’ve currently decided to stop the lupron. Being in a reproductive state isn’t an issue - unless it’s an issue. So we’re trying to watch to see if it is. Thought she was better, but she is still breathing heavy. She had blood tests done, but they came back fine. She’s healthy as far as that’s concerned.

So going forward would be x-rays and stuff, which I can’t afford. Given her behavior, though, I’m wondering if it’s just best to drop it for now. Her tests are normal, her behavior is normal. She’s mischievous, and active. She’s vocal, and has a fantastic appetite. She’s even eating by holding pellets with her foot, which, let’s face it, is a challenge, but it keeps her entertained. I gave her a new treat stick today, and hung it from the top of the cage. She is hanging from the top bars and munching away, so it’s safe to say the girl’s got strength.

She definitely has days where she shows she’s missing her boy, though. We both miss our Tazzy a lot. She sleeps in his favorite spots at times, and she’s really clingy. She throws a fit whenever I leave her sight.

I’m aiming to get back upstairs, though, which means I’d be spending less time in her sight. I really want to get some sort of perch stand to keep upstairs for her to join me when I can keep the door closed, but all the ones I’ve seen are expensive, so I’m not sure what to do so that we can chill together when I make that shift.

I would still like to get the x-rays done so we can rule out any sort of enlarged organs or other internal stuff that could be making breathing difficult for her, and I really need to pay off Taz’s care credit, so I’d still be super grateful for donations. I’m too stressed to take anymore commissions. I’m super behind on the two I have (I haven’t forgotten them. I just have more on my plate than I can handle, with my mom being in the hospital, my own health, and Syd’s health. I swear I’m going to do them. I just really don’t know when life’s gonna let me.)

We love you!

throwback pic of Syd’s first time at the beach during the worst time of our lives.

[sydthetiel]

Syd Update 2/17/23:

Syd’s had two lupron injections up to date, and just completed her sixth doxy injection today! Specialist says that’s it, until a follow-up and bloodwork in a month. She’s definitely feeling better. She’s eating normal again, and throwing tantrums when Daddy doesn’t share his food. She whines when she wants to eat but Daddy hasn’t sat down yet, because she waits for Daddy to sit down before she’ll eat. So, I think it’s safe to say she’s still missing our Tazzy boy. I’m her man now, and she’s a social eater like me.

I definitely still need help paying off my care credit, and I’ve been dealing with a whole bunch of other misfortunes. Taxes still haven’t been paid and they’re about $5,000. I just had to replace two tires on my van, plus an oil change and inspection, bringing the total to almost $500. With no public transit where I live, neither of us can survive without a functioning vehicle.

Now that I don’t have to worry about her health for a month, maybe I can focus on my own. I haven’t been doing good at all, but haven’t had time or energy to take care of my own health by time I took care of all my other responsibilities and Syd’s health. My birthday just passed, and I didn’t even get to celebrate at all. When I finally had time to make plans to do so, we ran out of fuel, because my mom isn’t doing her part in paying for bills, costing me more in emergencies (had a shut off notice on electric last month because she didn’t pay, after letting me believe she did. She hadn’t paid since October, and blamed me for why our bill is so high. Honey, those are late fees, not me running the bill high. That’s you, not me.) So I did my best to keep us warm while we waited for another emergency fill up. We have our heat back now.

linktr.ee/helpsyd 

Thank you again, to everyone who’s shared our posts, interacted with our tiktok, donated, or prayed for my girlie. She’s on the mend, and we couldn’t have done this without you. We love you all <3 Please keep doing what you’re doing. It gives me a little hope to hold onto while I struggle to find any in my situation.

throwback to when they were little beebs (roughly 4-5 months old. Tazzy’s the one chewing the bars.)