Syrose Faith Amarille

Spark and be a blessing✨

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your heart needs to be cherished...

...for all the kindness, beauty and love inside of it. it's one of a kind and that deserves to be acknowledged.

be sure to give importance to relationships where the other person realises your good qualities and cherishes your beautiful heart. those who don't understand you are never going to know your worth. know your self-worth ✨

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An #IdealFAMILY

We were to watch 3 videos about different stories from different families. First, there was about parents who are in abroad that even though they have send alot of gifts to their child the greatest gift for their child is to be able to spend time with them during Christmas. Second, a story about a mother named Amor who's doing everything to provide food for her children and for their education. Last, is about the story of a father who is the first man that his daughter ever loved.

I was most touch by the second video because Amor depicts my aunt who I see as my real mother. She didn't have responsibility for me yet she still shead her blood, sweat, and tears for me. Even though my parents were around she still needs to work hard for both of our needs and my education, for my parents have already neglected me and only see me as their child when they can benefit me of.

My aunt is a very strong person. And I admire her the most. She can do the chores that we think is only for the males. She is patient, and very delicate. And I love her for who she is. I thank her for everything that she is giving me. For letting me stay with her and coping up with my attitude.

For those who want to see the video of amor check the attached link.

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What’s Your Love Language?

I've taken a quiz that will help you determine your primary love language, what it means, and how you can use it to connect with your friends and loved ones. It works for all relationship types (e.g., parents, friends or dating interest).

According ti the result of my quiz my primary love language is receiving gifts. I totally agree! Because it's not about being materialistic or so. But being myself even though I appreciate and love hanging out and being with my love one's, sometimes I just like being alone and like doing things in my own.

I also think that it is the best for me because that will define my character not quite talkative about my personal stuffs, etc., or it will symbolize that my love wilk not fade even we're apart from each other, or we only met virtually.

Receiving gifts for me makes me feel loved and important, especially hand made, because it made me think that they are thinking of me and remembers me that will lead into effort on finding or making things I love.

What's your primary love language?

Take the attached quiz to find out:

The 5 Love Languages®

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You are not alone. There are people who understand you. There are people who enjoy your company. There are people who care about you, people who love you, people who respect you.

You may feel alone right now. And that's okay. Just know that you won't always feel this way. There are people out there that want you to be happy. Because you deserve to be happy.

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A Love Story

Have you ever been in love? Or feel loved? Well, good for you. They say, love is an amazing feeling. It is an intense feeling of deep affection. And some says, love is the act of caring and giving to someone else. Having someone's best interest and wellbeing as a priority in your life. To truly love is a very selfless act.

I really love hearing love stories. The one's that never get old, a love that is precious like diamonds and gold. There are many forms of love, family, friends, pals, and the one love that almost all is longing for. A love of intimacy and that you only feel at one person that is someone very dear. And they ddscribe it as true love. But my question is can true love be only in one form? And does true love is only to be felt with one person?

Let me tell you my story, well you see I am someone who is longing for love, even though I not knoow the meaning of loving but I know it's there.

I had a couple of suitors before and I've been to 3,if I were to say it for the lease, relationships. I've tried dating in short distannce and apart. But none of it seems to work. I've even had a relationship online which only lasted for two months and take note that's the longest I could hold.

Failded atempt on relationships, made me conclude that I must not be ahead of my feelings, that I must not be fooled by butterflies and spark lights.

Through years of finding I realized something, that my true love was always there, that I'm just blinded by people perspectives and that I didn't manage to see that my true love was and will always be my mother.

Around her I feel the joy and safety. Comfort that I need and the security that my mothers love will always be right here and will never fade. That my mother will always got my back no matter what happened. She'll always be there to support me.

Now, I'm still waiting for the one that God promise that I could spend the rest of my life with. Have kids if granted. And someone whom I will feel more than what love I feel in my mothers arms. That one true love I found in my mother will bloom in God's son's arms.

Now, I'm not in rush to sort of faantsies. Now, I'm focused on loving myseld more because that's the one true love I need to work on now. And loving myself is the best way to spread love.

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Pause for a thought: Happiness

When are you happy? What makes you happy?

Happiness is a sense of well-being, joy, or contentment. When people are successful, or safe, or lucky, they feel happiness. The "pursuit of happiness" is something this country is based on, and different people feel happiness for different reasons.

Personally, I feel happy when I see my mom happy. When I help other people. Whe I make other people smile. When I achieve something big, and when I am learning and seeing myself growing.

Bonding with others also makes me happy. Small talk and soft gesture makes me happy.

But what is the most and be the biggest joy to my life is that when I already reached my goals and aspirations in life. I am well content, and when I feel like I can fully rest in peace.(Im not wanting to die, but if ever I will die I want to die with having of self completeness)

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BRAIN DOMINANCE: Which side of your brain is more dominant?

Doing this activity made me know about my brain because I wasn't really expecting that I am incomplete left dominant, what I expect is that either I am left dominant or equal. I didn't know that incomplete dominance exist.

The traits about with having left dominant brain is true about me. Because I am well aware that I am not good with arts and I am more interested in numbers, though I am not very good at manipulating numbers, I find it more interesting for me.

Overall, both activities in the videos attached in the link have tought me to be better and how to use my brain more effectively.

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it's important to establish boundaries

boundaries are a great way to let people know about yourself. once you establish clear boundaries, people around you know what's okay and what's not okay, when it comes to interacting with you.

never allow anyone to behave with you in a way that you don't appreciate. it puts at risk your self-respect. be kind and polite but let people know what works for you.

respect yourself and let other know that you do so ✨

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“You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging.”

— Brené Brown

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Pause for a thought: Expectations from others.

How do you handle expectations? Do you see them as a challenge or potential failures? Do you thrive on challenges or do you shrink away from them?

Expectations from others, are my expectations about myself. I feel they expect me to be this, because I think that way and I mostly want to achieve to be like that.

I see them as a challenge that if I will not do good it will lead to be a failure and regret.

The past me always shrink away from challenges, very afraid to take the risk and all. And what it gain me is regrets, sadness, and a heavy heart. But now, I've realized that "what if I did that" is worse from the thought of "what if I didn't" because I already know what's gonna happen if I didn't try and there are endless possibility if I will try.

Now, I've learned to go with every oppurtunity given. And if I'll fail then I will use it as lesson and a guide to make myself better.

It's not bad to have expectations about your self. Embrace it but don't live with it. Make it a standard but don't let it make you devastated. Sometimes, some things are not gained instantly,it takes time. And if you cannot achieve or handle the expectations now, let go, breathe, and allow yourself go naturally, because you will achieve it unknowingly.✨

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Pause for a thought: Adolescence/Adolescent.

Growing up and being an adolescent wasn't easy for me. This stage of myself is very challenging because I'm very anxious all the time and I can't control it.

I'm very confused about my true identity. Not knowing oneself is huge problem 'cause I don't know what to do or what to act in given situations. Making it harder to make my own decisions. Thus, leads me to regret most of the things I've done.

I was loss of love. I am finding it from one person to another. Makes me please the people not showing them my true side. But what could I do? I don't know me. Following one's road to another, and lost my own track.

I also made the people around me confused and loss interest in me. And they often think I'm weird and not really trying to understand that I am losing myself and it's hard to find them.

Starting of my adolescent journey made me lose myself.

Now, I'm trying to fix myself and go back right on my paths. I'm molding myself into a better version. And in the process of getting my confidence and passion back. I'm making the regrets and mistakes onto lessons, and learning from my past experiences.

I need to make myself do something today that my future self will thank me for.✨

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PAUSE FOR A THOUGHT: COMPLEXITY✨

Have you ever met a person who seems to be so complex that is difficult to fully understand him or her? What makes this person a complex character?

Yes, I have she is very complex. No one really gets her because her attitude is changing from time to time. Nobody seems to know her attitude best even her friends and peers.

Even I could not understand her. First, she wants this, then she's not liking it. She seem okay but after awhile she broke down.

She's always thinking about what to do but in the end, she didn't know what she was doing. She doesn't understad what she wants in life. She is troubled because she didn't know what to act. She's thorned between this and that, and what ifs.

She didn't know her true self that's why nobody seems to understand her because in the first place she doesn't understand herself. And she cannot do anything about it because people around her has no patience for her. That's why she always adjust to what her peer wants and forgetting her true identity. She is expected to be this thus, she's being that. And alot of people have different expectations about her and it's making her loose herself.

All she wants is the people to like her and accept her for who she really is, but how can anyone accept her if they didn't meet the real her?

By the way her is me.

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"Let it go and be amazed by what you see through the eyes of grace."

- Matthew West

Forgiveness,

a word many could not understand. Is it a feeling? Is it a thing? What's the essence of it? Is it needed?

Matthew West's song makes us understand the word forgiveness. That forgiveness when we give it to someone, the burden inside us will be gone. All the negatives that we see in the person will be banished. That it makes us happier and our hearts lighter.

Though, it seems impossible to forgive, especially when the person have done a huge impact that ruined your life, you can never fully heal the wound unless you forgive. You accept and forget.

Forgiveness, is the start of facing a new future and not living by the past. It makes the world beautiful. After all

the world is full of forgiveness...

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Who is Syrose Faith?

I've ask a lot of people on how would they describe me. They told me that I was responsible, helpful, hard-working, and a good adviser. They also told me that I was a great leader and follower, listener, a friend. Approachable, Wise, pretty inside out, and creative. Some told me I was always advance, that I need to chill. A number have told me that I don't have confidence in myself and my capabilities.

It was nice to hear the positive insights, but why it never satifies? Maybe because, I, myself, don't know me or the purpose of my life. I love to hear negative thoughts about me, although it hurts, but I always think it could help me to become a better person but, I don't know how to use them. Thus, it makes me think I ain't improving.

I have alot of questions in mind. Was I doing/showing those things they describe me because I want to be liked by them? Or was it really myself and that I need to love myself more? Was I responsible because I like to get the work done quickly, that's why they've think that I'm too rush?

I want to find myself but where do I start? But there is something I know about myself. I cared alot about others . I am afraid to disappoint the people around me. I want to help the people who are need. And I love others more myself. Is this where I got wrong?

I'm ending this with a quote:

"When you know yourself you are EMPOWERED. When you accept yourself you are INVINCIBLE."

I might not know myself now but I'll get there. Not now but soon. And it's the same for you! Don't stop knowing, accepting and loving yourself!✨

Crdts to Pinterest for the qoute and picture.

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“How beautiful to find a heart that loves you, without asking you for anything but to be okay.”

— Khalil Gibran