Am I real?

Bodily adult - Minors DNI ⚠️TW⚠️ Self h4rm, ED, Blo0d Newly-SelfDx Traumagenic System?.?.? Several of us are constantly in denial. Using this as a vent blog for some of us. Others are still using @social-nuisance. We will introduce ourselves as we feel comfortable. We are just starting to learn about ourselves. Other diagnoses: BPD, PTSD, OCD, MDD - Ren 😈 (They/Them/He/She) - Sab 👤 (It/They/Them) - Alex 👽 (She/Her/He/Him) - Aura 🦋 (She/Her) -Nyx⌚️ (She/Her/He/Him) - HT 🤹🏼‍♀️(She/her) -Ches/Chester (He/Him)

[partsofafaeling]

[systemofuncertainty]

Why would I tell anyone if I know it will ruin everything? Im not okay. But no one really should no.

-Ren (just telling the truth that no one wants go hear)

[systemofuncertainty]

Everything is spiraling. I just feel sad all the time. Pain. So much fucking pain. It hurts to be alive and I just want it to end.

[systemofuncertainty]

"I'm sorry to hear that"

No you're not, or you'd do something about it. Fuck you

[c-ptsdrecovery]

[systemofuncertainty]

I can't breathe. Feeling like im suffocating. Trapped. Release me. Let me go. Please just let me fucking go.

[systemofuncertainty]

What is wrong with me? Fuck. I don't know what I am. I don't know why I don't think about it. I don't know why I had interest before and now I have to force myself to think about sex. Or force myself to even try. When I was younger I know that I wanted it. I know that I had thoughts about it. But now... I only seemed to care when I wanted to get pregnant. What is wrong with me? Fuck.

[border-fine-personality]

oh no, time to parent myself through another trauma again

[leafsea]

forgiveness // 1.30.2017

[batwizard]

anyone else live under the assumption that they’re constantly doing something wrong

[thoradvice]

something important to remember is that there's always time. if you lost many years to abuse or mental illness, you will get a chance to live life on your terms. there is no limit on the age you have to be to achieve goals. you can go back to school at 30, or switch careers at 40. you can start new hobbies at any age. there is no cut off age for being happy and content. if you're trapped right now, you will get the opportunity to become who you want to be.

[hel7l7]

I feel like I keep doing everything wrong

[cyber-abyssal-deactivated202509]

"Hi! I'm a severely mentally ill person who was abused, tortured and isolated for most of my life, I've developed many disorders and complicated mentalities since I was raised like a abused street dog, sometimes I can be really aggressive and even experience delusions and hallucinations, which make my life really hard, i have aggressive outbursts, mania and depressive episodes, and due to my fawn trauma response, I tend to just agree with anything anyone who's angry says about me when i'm accused of something, and then don't care to fix It or explain myself because I feel like I deserve that punishment either way"

"OH SO YOU WERE LYING ABOUT [X] THING?" "OH SO WHAT ABOUT [X] THING YOU SAID?"

"... Did you even listen to anything I fucking said?"

[i-am-confused-always]

what I say: “it is what it is”

what I mean: “I have cried about this for hours and have probably self harmed and contemplated suicide over this.

[systemofuncertainty]

We had friends over for my birthday last night. I was surrounded by people who were there for ME, and I couldn't feel more alone. I felt like I'd tune in every now and again to be aware of what was happening... but otherwise, the words coming out of my mouth - The things I was doing- I felt like a puppet that I definitely wasn't controlling. Then here I am the next morning feeling completely detached from any of the positivity that came from that experience last night. It's not for me. It's isn't mine. How do I stop feeling like this? I want it to be mine.

[sunlit-mess]

Composed, with a puzzling warning sign laughing, smiling, spewing sweet phrases In silence, you'd hear a ticking sound

[systemofuncertainty]

Sometimes I just feel like the social media manager/functional face of this body. Like I am just around to set things in order and make sure life doesn't fall apart. But I'm not actually attached to or really care about this life. It's not mine.