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As the user says this is me questioning if I have OSDD or DID or if it is just dissociation messing with me.

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I hate not remembering things, i hate my mood randomly jumping from on to another, i hate not know the details of stuff going on, i hate feeling numb, i hate not feeling like myself even if i am doing thinhs, i hate dissociating and not knowing how long

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Forgetting all of yesterday afternoon, How joyous

#/sarcasm #i mean it made english go by faster #as in i don’t remember it #dissociation #questioning system #traumagenic system #did osdd

Is it possible for a systems host to always be in front? Or almost always? I experience dissociation but in the moment I always feel there, if not a bit dissociative or derealized? But I’m there. But then after the fact memories get all blurry and idk if that is just dissociation or could be a sign of osdd or pdid ??

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“Whatttt I never dissociate !!!”

And I don’t remember much of this morning or yesterday , but im sure that’s normal

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Found a Pinterest board i dont remember making thats named the name i have been assuming is the name of an alter(?) and just has fanart in it- it’s from a month ago so maybe that’s why I don’t remember? Idk.

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trying to keep track of possible switches just so we have a way of explaining them ?

Brains are weird, dissociation is weird. I’ve experienced dissociation for so long and explained how it terrifies me to many people , but on the other hand it can be so nice, comforting even, though forgetting is scary.

This leads to a major reason I think I could possibly have a more complex or identity form of dissociation- sometimes I feel like a different person. I think i am always/mostly in front? if that is what this, but when i dissociate i no longer feel like my name necessarily, but a different person + my memories turn blurry/hard to reach ?? No idea if this makes sense but it’s how my brain is.

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starryk1sses

I hate delayed amnesia so much. I’ll go through a whole day thinking I’m “fine” and fully present, and then hours later it hits me like—wait… I don’t remember anything from today. It feels like my whole day just slips through my fingers.

I’d like to think I’m staying relatively co-conscious with our other alters/fragments, but then once they leave, I lose nearly—if not all—of the memory afterward. It’s so disorienting.

systemordissociation

THIS THIS. Idk if it is a possible Dissociation or identity disorder BEYOND dissociation from anxiety/being overwhelmed but this is what a lot of my days feel like- and when I feel like I am aware i will sometimes have a sense of like “this is my name-“ even if it is NOT the name I usually go by? Then I forget most of the day (or it is blurry)

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