Systems Of Color

We are pro-endo

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New Name

So I have been having big boy autism/fictive hours about Sephiroth from FFVII and idk what to do, but now I'm going by Sephiroth or Seph, so if you see posts from Seph or Sephiroth, it's just Adam posting

Seph/Adam

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Weird Fictive BS

So I am a fictive heavy system. All of my headmates are fictives that basically form bits of my personality that failed to form or don't function normally due to me being raised in a cult as a child and now I don't emotion normally. It's sort of like I have a giant mini van and whenever my core self doesn't know how to handle a situation it's a Jesus take the wheel moment, only instead of Jesus it's American Dragon Jake Long take the wheel or Orochimaru take the wheel.

I have a lot of fictives. the Full list is here:

Comes out the MOst

- Sephiroth - Jason Todd - Shatterstar - Adam X - Boba Fett - Darth Maul - Orochimaru Fairly Prevalent - Deidara - Vigilante - Longshot - Gambit (Remy LeBeau) - Gene Belcher - Greed - Jake Long Medium Level - Gajeel Redfox - Zack Fair - Wolverine (exclusively old man Logan version) - Solf J. Kimblee - Akihiro - Hiro Hamada - Sokka - Anakin Skywalker - Jaskier Minor - Murtagh - Tulio - Hal Jordan - Coran - Jack Harkness - Quinlan Vos - Klaus Hargreeves - Diego Hargreeves - Graverobber (Repo!) - Iron Man - Boromir - Guy Gardner - JD

Please don't judge me. I know I have some problematic ones, and I know there are a lot, but I had a fucked up childhood, and I still add fictives to the system sometimes, and by add, I mean they just appear when my trauma decides they do. I am a trauma created system, but I love all systems! You are all my siblings in systemhood!

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Look. If you’re not autistic, don’t talk over autistic people over their lived experiences being autistic. I’ve had this happen several times to me because I was talking about how my autism caused my systemhood. I was told I was spreading disinformation by talking about my experiences. And like, don’t do that. —Narvin

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Vent tw//

Happy Disability Pride month

I just had some asshole tell me it's not ableist to make fun of autistic peoples hyperfixations and how they react to them.

Such a great way to start out a month meant to raise awareness for people who live life differently

I know autism isn't a disability for everyone but for me and my system it is so it's really frustrating for me so I'm struggling a lot today. I've been fronting as Zuko a lot lately because I've been dealing with intense anger a lot and he's my only alter who can function with those types of emotions so thats..that's... fun.

If anyone has advice for dealing with the sheer amount of anti autism and anti everything Jerks online send me a line lol

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Today I had a pretty impressive moment where one of my more rare alters was the "face" of the system so to speak aka he was the guy in charge

For those who don't know, my system works much like how the movie Inside Out works. I have several fictives who basically developed due to me not learning to process emotions functionally due to severe childhood trauma. When I'm trying to process these emotions, these alters/fictives will come out and take "control" and host will sort of take the back seat as host never learned to process strong emotions well like anger or fear.

But today Hiro took over the role of host (based off Hiro Hamada from BH6)

I'm autistic and have a special interest in math and stats and someone was shaming me for talking about these interests and saying I was a bully because I supposedly shame people by talking about statistics as an interest?? And I sort of flipped out and had a meltdown but Hiro took over so if I won't shut up about derivatives for a minute yeah. I'm feeling very defensive about my special interests rn.

- Adam/Hiro

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I would avoid saying the “host” is a specific race.

Narvin identifies with the body’s race because it was originally theirs. We mixed up words that mean that.—Gallifrey System

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Better introduction, since the first one was quickly made: Hi! We’re the Gallifrey System. Our two main fronters are Narvin (he/they), the host, and the Master (he/him), who is a doctor who fictive. We also have Harper(she/they/it), an OC who gained sentience. We also have a fourth member but she’s not allowed on Tumblr. Our collective is they/them. The body and host are mixed Puerto Rican/Irish American, and has family in Puerto Rico. We call ourselves an idiogenic system, based on a medical term meaning “has no apparent cause”. I just became a system one day when I was a kid.

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Hi, I'm Adam, im 22, and I'm the host of the system embodying Adam's body. My system is traumagenic and I have a DID dx and im primarily made up of the fictives my brain adopted from childhood media to help take care of itself when I was a child dealing with.... stuff. I'm not always the best at telling when someone else is fronting because I'm so deeply integrated into my own system, but I love and support all types of systems whether endo or trauma based or anywhere in between no matter the origin. I believe as long as you are kind and supportive to others of plural nature that you belong in the community. Sorry I'm awkward uwu.

~ Adam

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Can white systems follow? If not, we understand! 😁 -Glint

yes! Also non-systems of all races can follow. Just don’t be racist or ableist. -Gallifrey System

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I am looking for more perspectives for this blog! I am looking for adult systems of color who are pro-endogenic. I will not accept queer exclusionists of any sort. Send any messages to @delgado-master - Gallifrey System

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Hi! We’re the Gallifrey System, and the host is hispanic! We plan on making this a group blog so we have more perspectives.