actually i'm reblogging this again with commentary, fuck it.
There's people in the notes talking about "not basing your worth off numbers", and like. that isn't what this post is about. It's not a threat, either, it's a comment on how this site works, at a mechanical level.
Likes are worthless. Let me say that again.
Likes. Are. Worthless.
They don't do anything. They're a bookmark. They were never part of how tumblr works - in the early days we didn't even have a like button, and the site still more or less acts as though we don't. They're personal bookmarks and the only people who "get" anything from them are you (you bookmark the post) and the OP (maybe a very slight serotonin boost), but they don't keep the post in circulation, they don't keep it alive.
Without reblogs, a post will be dead in the water within an hour. No matter how good it is, no matter how many hours of painstaking love and attention its creator put into it, it will be dead within an hour and never seen again. It gets pushed down the dashboard and nobody aside from the followers who were online when it was posted will see it.
And there's a huge difference in engagement on posts that get even one lucky reblog from someone with wider reach - that one reblog shows your post to five, ten, fifteen other people, and if one of those people also reblogs it, and so on and so forth, that's how posts stay alive and in circulation.
It's like a contagion, but we're sharing creativity instead of disease.
And that matters. That "lifespan" of the post matters, artists and writers give up on this site and go to sites where posts have longer lifespans because it sucks to spend hours of your life, maybe even days, to get two notes and some fucking pocket lint for your efforts.
We create for ourselves, but we share because we want people to see it, because that engagement offers positive feedback and encouragement to continue.
But more than that, if every post (whether art, fic, gifset, whatever) is dying within an hour or a day of being posted, that means it's not making it onto your dashboard. And if it's not on your dashboard, you won't see it. This kills the site, after a while. You stop seeing the posts, because nobody is putting them on your dashboard, because this site doesn't have an algorithm like twitter and insta's and it shouldn't, it's the last bastion of chronological timelines.
Forgive my giant fucking rant I am so tired right now and full of the plague but like stop acting like artists and writers are just being whiny little babies, or "threatening" to withhold our fucking work (you're not entitled to it! it's ours! if we get nothing out of sharing it we're well within our rights to keep it private!) when we say this site will dry up without reblogs. We're just stating facts.
also I’ve seen some people in the tags say ‘oh there have always been more likes on posts’ no there haven’t ????
these are posts from 2013, look at the ratio
not to sound like a nursing home resident but back then people know that the point of this site was to reblog things and share them, not to bury them away among your other 23k liked posts
Synopsis: taehyun is madly in love with his straight best friend, beomgyu. so in love he starts coughing up flower petals and blood, poppy flower petals to be precise, gyu's favourite. taehyun knew beomgyu could never reciprocate his feelings and so he has to choose— choose between surgery, and forever losing all his love for beomgyu, or, the inevitable, death.
Genre: hanahaki, angst
Warnings: mcd, mentions of blood,
do let me know if I missed any!
wordcount: 539
Taehyun's heart fluttered erratically as he watched Beomgyu laugh, his eyes crinkling at the corners, his smile lighting up the room. Taehyun's fingers itched to reach out and trace the contours of Beomgyu's face, to feel the warmth of his skin beneath his touch. But he knew better. Beomgyu was his best friend, and nothing more. No matter how deeply Taehyun's heart ached for him.
As weeks turned into months, Taehyun's feelings for Beomgyu only grew stronger, more consuming. He found himself daydreaming about their future together, about confessing his love and hearing Beomgyu say those three precious words in return. But reality always came crashing down, reminding him of the impossible: Beomgyu was straight.
One evening, as they sat side by side on Beomgyu's couch, watching a movie, Taehyun felt a sharp pain in his chest. At first, he dismissed it as heartburn, but when he coughed into his hand, he saw bright red petals mixed with blood. Panic surged through him as he realized what was happening.
Hanahaki.
He'd heard of it before, a rare condition that afflicted those with unrequited love. And now, he was its latest victim. Tears welled up in Taehyun's eyes as he struggled to hide his coughing fit from Beomgyu. He couldn't let him see. Couldn't let him know.
But as the days passed, Taehyun's condition only worsened. He coughed up petals with increasing frequency, each one a painful reminder of his unrequited love. Poppy petals. Beomgyu's favorite flower.
Desperate for a cure, Taehyun turned to the internet, scouring forums and medical websites for answers. But the treatments were grim: surgery to remove the flowers and erase his memories of Beomgyu, or a slow, agonizing death as the flowers choked the life out of him.
Taehyun couldn't bear the thought of forgetting Beomgyu, of losing the memories they'd shared together. But he also couldn't bear the thought of leaving this world knowing that Beomgyu would never love him back.
Night after night, Taehyun lay awake in bed, grappling with his impossible choice. He couldn't bring himself to tell Beomgyu the truth, couldn't burden him with the knowledge of what his love had wrought. So he suffered in silence, his heart breaking a little more with each passing day.
One evening, as Taehyun lay on his deathbed, surrounded by wilted poppies, Beomgyu sat beside him, holding his hand. "I'm sorry, Taehyun," he whispered, tears streaming down his face. "I never knew. I never realized how much you loved me."
Taehyun managed a weak smile, reaching up to brush away Beomgyu's tears. "It's okay," he said hoarsely. "I never expected you to love me back. Just having you as my friend was enough."
Beomgyu squeezed Taehyun's hand tightly, his shoulders shaking with sobs. "I wish I could have been more for you," he said brokenly.
But Taehyun shook his head, his vision blurring with tears. "You were everything," he whispered. And with those final words, he closed his eyes, his hand going limp in Beomgyu's grasp.
As Beomgyu wept over Taehyun's lifeless body, he vowed to never forget the love they shared, even if it was only ever one-sided.
And somewhere, in a field of blooming poppies, Taehyun's spirit soared free, finally at peace.
note: this is a short version/drabble of a story I've had on my wip for a while :D hope you liked it!!
Synopsis: taehyun is madly in love with his straight best friend, beomgyu. so in love he starts coughing up flower petals and blood, poppy flower petals to be precise, gyu's favourite. taehyun knew beomgyu could never reciprocate his feelings and so he has to choose— choose between surgery, and forever losing all his love for beomgyu, or, the inevitable, death.
Genre: hanahaki, angst
Warnings: mcd, mentions of blood,
do let me know if I missed any!
wordcount: 539
Taehyun's heart fluttered erratically as he watched Beomgyu laugh, his eyes crinkling at the corners, his smile lighting up the room. Taehyun's fingers itched to reach out and trace the contours of Beomgyu's face, to feel the warmth of his skin beneath his touch. But he knew better. Beomgyu was his best friend, and nothing more. No matter how deeply Taehyun's heart ached for him.
As weeks turned into months, Taehyun's feelings for Beomgyu only grew stronger, more consuming. He found himself daydreaming about their future together, about confessing his love and hearing Beomgyu say those three precious words in return. But reality always came crashing down, reminding him of the impossible: Beomgyu was straight.
One evening, as they sat side by side on Beomgyu's couch, watching a movie, Taehyun felt a sharp pain in his chest. At first, he dismissed it as heartburn, but when he coughed into his hand, he saw bright red petals mixed with blood. Panic surged through him as he realized what was happening.
Hanahaki.
He'd heard of it before, a rare condition that afflicted those with unrequited love. And now, he was its latest victim. Tears welled up in Taehyun's eyes as he struggled to hide his coughing fit from Beomgyu. He couldn't let him see. Couldn't let him know.
But as the days passed, Taehyun's condition only worsened. He coughed up petals with increasing frequency, each one a painful reminder of his unrequited love. Poppy petals. Beomgyu's favorite flower.
Desperate for a cure, Taehyun turned to the internet, scouring forums and medical websites for answers. But the treatments were grim: surgery to remove the flowers and erase his memories of Beomgyu, or a slow, agonizing death as the flowers choked the life out of him.
Taehyun couldn't bear the thought of forgetting Beomgyu, of losing the memories they'd shared together. But he also couldn't bear the thought of leaving this world knowing that Beomgyu would never love him back.
Night after night, Taehyun lay awake in bed, grappling with his impossible choice. He couldn't bring himself to tell Beomgyu the truth, couldn't burden him with the knowledge of what his love had wrought. So he suffered in silence, his heart breaking a little more with each passing day.
One evening, as Taehyun lay on his deathbed, surrounded by wilted poppies, Beomgyu sat beside him, holding his hand. "I'm sorry, Taehyun," he whispered, tears streaming down his face. "I never knew. I never realized how much you loved me."
Taehyun managed a weak smile, reaching up to brush away Beomgyu's tears. "It's okay," he said hoarsely. "I never expected you to love me back. Just having you as my friend was enough."
Beomgyu squeezed Taehyun's hand tightly, his shoulders shaking with sobs. "I wish I could have been more for you," he said brokenly.
But Taehyun shook his head, his vision blurring with tears. "You were everything," he whispered. And with those final words, he closed his eyes, his hand going limp in Beomgyu's grasp.
As Beomgyu wept over Taehyun's lifeless body, he vowed to never forget the love they shared, even if it was only ever one-sided.
And somewhere, in a field of blooming poppies, Taehyun's spirit soared free, finally at peace.
note: this is a short version/drabble of a story I've had on my wip for a while :D hope you liked it!!
hi there 🥺 I hope you are doing amazing and I just wanted to tell you that you are an awesome person and I'm forever grateful to have met someone like you :'( <3
- 💜
deco <333 hihihihi
i hope youre well <3 🥺 long time no see,, missed you tons
interactive game— inspired by the ones found on tiktok!
rules . . !
a decision screen will be prompted to you in which you must make a choice. depending on your choice, you will receive a certain amount of hearts.
-X hearts: negative/bad choice -> subtract this from your current heart count
0 hearts: neutral choice -> add nothing to your current heart count
+X hearts: positive/good choice -> add this to your current heart count
after making your decision, please click the link to the answer sheet to see how many hearts you have received. do this without looking at future decision results!
please keep up with your score! at the end of several decision screens, you will see how well the date went depending on how many hearts you received! happy romancing <3
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game . . start !
today is your first date with beomgyu! here are five hearts for you to take care of, make sure you increase the chemistry between you two without choosing bad choices.
decision one
going on a first date with your long time friend can be a little anxious! this is why beomgyu texts you a good morning text with a time he’ll pick you up. he also adds this message at the end:
beomie 35 mins ago
don’t be too nervous today :)! just treat it like any normal hang out
a: text him: okay <3 can’t wait to see you
b: ignore his text accidentally, too nervous to actually respond
c: text him: okay <3 but don’t be too nervous yourself
answer sheet
decision two
he picks you up from your place just in time! you can see that beomgyu is nervous by the shaking of his hands when he opens the door for you.
a: you give him a hug to ease his mind
b: you tell him thank you for opening the door for you, getting in
c: you accidentally trip while getting into the car, the nerves too high for yourself
d: you tell him an inside joke, hoping he would laugh
answer sheet
decision three
on your first stop for the day.. the arcade! you usually went there every month or so when he was free, but this time it was different.. why?
a: he finally won a plushie for you on the first try!
b: you beat him in air hockey.. 2-1
c: laser tag ended up with him trapping you against the wall, ready to kiss you but chickens out
d: you almost fell on him during dance dance revolution
answer sheet
decision four
time for a snack break! what do you end up choosing?
a: a milkshake with two straws to share
b: some popcorn with extra extra extra butter
c: pizza, a little heavy for a snack but at least it’s filling!
answer sheet
decision five
when you two go back to playing games, you earn just enough tickets to get one thing. beomgyu insists you get whatever you want, so you get a small bear that reminds you of him.
a: “look, beomie! he looks just like you!”
b: “now i can carry you around even when you’re not with me.”
c: “you can keep it, gyu. so that it reminds you of me when you’re on tour.”
answer sheet
decision six
after getting your prizes, you and beomgyu walk to the nearest park. but in the meantime your fingers brush together, soft feather-like touches.
a: you link pinkies with him, something you always do as friends
b: you shy away, bumping against him playfully to ease both of your flustered selves
c: you reach out and hold his hands, intertwining your fingers loosely with his
answer sheet
decision seven
walking near the park with a great view of a lake, he can’t help but take pictures to remind himself of your first date.
a: smile and pose for the camera!
b: turn away in a shy mess, laughing softly when he complains
c: you ask him to share the photos with you so you can remember the memories too!
d: you ask him to make you his wallpaper with them
answer sheet
decision eight
before heading home, you drag him towards a pretty spot to see the sunset view. he hugs you from behind, pressing a kiss to your temple before you turn around. his face inching towards yours..
a: your lips brush against his, before you pull back as a tease and giggle when he pouts
b: you press your forehead against his, “today was so fun, beom.. i loved it.”
answer sheet
decision nine
before beomgyu leaves to go home after dropping you off, you give him a bouquet of flowers as a thank you for giving you such a great date— to which he loves. send him off with a kiss?
a: yes! nice and sweet
b: a hug instead, he makes you feel safe and loved
c: both a hug and a kiss, why not? <3
answer sheet
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heart count . . !
how well did your date go? let’s see!
0 to 9 hearts: unfortunately, beomgyu didn’t have the best time. maybe it was the way you two were friends first, but he feels that it’s best to remain friends.
10 to 17 hearts: beomgyu had a great time with you! he definitely does not regret asking you out on a date, but he does still feel that friendship vibe still lingering. maybe in the next date it’ll go away <3
18 to 21+ hearts: a perfect date with beomgyu! he enjoyed having that time alone with you, and sharing a few kisses here and there <3 expect him to stay up all night thinking about you
thank you for playing! please reblog with your delulu experience and what result you got <3
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huening kai x gn!reader; friends to lovers; warning: kai is a very awkward and shy bby
the one where your shy friend attempts to ask you out on a date.
requested
being friend with huening kai was definitely very affectionate, but not in the romantic type of way. he always made sure you felt happy or content, and always spent time with you; there was nothing in the world that could make you doubt his love for you.
the only thing was.. his affection towards you was more than just platonic.
of course it was hidden from you, and very well at that. kai was known to be shy about his feelings, and when it came to you, he couldn’t help but blush at your actions in the moment and then freak out to taehyun when you weren’t there.
so every time he gifted you a random plushie that reminded him of you, or your favorite snacks from the nearest convenience store, you thought it was just a friendly gesture of his. he does treat you similar to his members, so what’s to say he liked you more than just a friend.
but the more he continued gifting you things, and checking up on you more than anyone else in your life, the more you grew to fall for the tall boy. it was difficult not to, with his beautiful smile, gorgeous laugh, and endearing love for his nintendo switch.
the more you spent time with him, the more you began to realize that his actions were just friendly gestures. one night he got up at two in the morning to come comfort you, but he also has done that to his members.
needless to say, maybe you weren’t the exception in his life.
you knock on the dorm’s door, waiting for one of the boys to answer it as it was your weekly movie marathon with them. and it starts off nicely, until the first movie ends and you’re speaking with soobin, a shy hyuka next to you growing nervous.
“hey, yn,” he suddenly nudges your leg with his knee, bringing your attention away from his member and onto him.
“what’s up, ning?” you ask, smile on your face as you reach over to the coffee table for your drink.
“um..,” kai’s face flushes and he rubs the back of his neck shyly. “you.. you look cute, today.”
before you could make a mess on your clothes, you swallow whatever you had sipped from your drink and widen your eyes at his words, “what?”
“you’re cute, okay?” he repeats so quickly, that it leaves you even more flutstered than before. but no matter how much you adored and appreciated his words, they were merely just friendly compliments.
“thank you,” you whisper, giving him another soft smile as you press a hand onto his shoulder. “you’re cute today, too.”
it takes everything in beomgyu, who’s sat right next to huening kai to not burst out laughing at how awkward this situation was. his friend was being very shy, to the point of poor communication, and you were being so oblivious to the fact that kai was trying to flirt with you.
“he’s trying to flirt with you, yn,” beomgyu manages to say, still hiding behind a laugh induced smile. “he’s not just being friendly.”
“what?” you turn your head to the side, confused at what he was talking about. heuning called all of his friends cute, what was so romantic about this time around?
“yah, this is so horrifying,” yeonjun says from across the living room, hand covering his eyes. taehyun can also be seen slightly cringing as he attempts to dissociate himself from the conversation by being focused on his phone.
you turn to your kai, and he is beet red. eyes are avoiding yours and focused towards the ground, and fingers messing with the edges of his hoodie sleeves.
“you’re trying to flirt with me? but we’re just friends..,” you whisper towards him, still confused about the situation, but it would be a lie to say your heart didn’t skip a beat towards beomgyu’s words.
a shy grin appears on your friend’s face as he turns to face you this time, confidence filling his body when he realizes you’re not trying to escape the situation.
“i like you, yn. i have for such a long time, i’m just really nervous around you to act on it,” he confesses, his hands leaving his sleeves and moving them on top of yours. “please tell me you feel the same.”
you stare at the two of your hands with relief and happiness; the boy you fell in love with, fell in love with you, and there was no way you weren’t backing down from a chance with such a great person.
“i do.. i have felt the same for a long while, too.”
i have one for moots as txt members so ill do songs!! doing my most closest moots since i have so many ^~^ if youre not on here and want a song lmk!!! ALSO gonna refrain from txt songs to help with my music variety journey LMAO
these are going off vibes of the song (aka the instrumentals) rather than the lyrics !!
@st4rrykai adrenaline - cravity
-> i rlly rlly love this song. reminds me of confetti and star reminds me of sparkling glitter in the sky kinda like fireworks in the night sky :O its really pretty and it reminds me of your personality— bubbly and supportive <3
@itgirlgyu me= (naneun) - just b
-> this song is disney coded and qiwi is too (in a good way ofc) love love. this song also reminds me a lot of your works, not sure why or how but it does and when i started this thing i was like :O NANEUN IS SO QIWI
@majestyjun crazy - 4minute
-> i was so horribly down bad for this song and i was between this one and another for mille but i think i chose good ^^ i remember you saying you like darker-esk concepts and not sure where you stand w 2nd gen kpop but this song just screams mille
@1004tyun youth - troye sivan
-> crystal idk if u know this but ur vibes give me troye sivans music !! was gonna put angel baby but i think youth suits u better~ idk you just give off this song T^T maybe bc of the album cover (its blue) but also because youre very in the moment which is what this song is about
@cherrypeaking acacia - yezi
-> the cover art for this song reminds me of cherry blossoms and thus you but i think this song fits u too !! the softness of yezi’s voice reminds me of cherry berry and the rap reminds me of how ‘dark’ you can get haha
@isitthemoon look what you made me do - taylor swift
-> every time i hear taylor it reminds me of you LMAO but i think the more hard beat songs suit you best <3 honestly the vibes of the reputation album remind me of you but i havent really heard the whole album so ill just put the one i know best !!
@taedeco the story never ends - lauv
-> deco <33 i rlly like soft songs for you but the upbeat ones if you know what i mean! the softness of the lyrics remind me of how supportive you are and the beat reminds me of how inspiring you are
@huen-ingkai out of the blue - dowoon
-> happy and bouncy,, just like you sun :3 i like listening to this song on walks and it helps me be present and comfortable !! not only that but the duet makes it extremely just.. happy haha idk how to explain it fully
@huckleberrykai sunkissed - khai dreams
-> that upbeat sound found in indie pop songs is definitely you berry DONT ASK ME WHY IT JUST IS gives comfort just like u!! just khai dreams in general gives off berry
@banggyu0308 fairytale - stray kids
-> the magical but upbeat songs are youuuuu ~ similar to ghosting by txt but fairytale has the oomph that reminds me of you. maybe its the stray kids oomph that does
@blackhairedjjun line without a hook - ricky montgomery
-> indie pop all the wayyyy >< this song had me on chokehold since last year and definitely reminds me of you idk why. definitely how deep the lyrics are that correlate to your writing 0.0
@strawberry-kirby gingamingayo - billlie
-> the girly pop cutesy songs for my marshmallow of a kirby <3 i dont know many of these songs but this is one of my faves ! the cuteness reminds me of how sweet and loving you are at all times ^~^
@fairyofshampgyu hollywoods bleeding - post malone
-> you give off such strong post malone vibes i have no idea why !! just think youre cool like his music aahh i dont know post malone that much and weve rarely interacted but like him i rlly hope we interact more !
@tehyunnie three empty words - shawn mendes
-> definitely softer western pop music!! i have a long history w this genre and it reminds me of how long youve supported me <33 the guitar sounds also just give off your vibes no idea why ><
@trustfndbaby jour de pluie - louane
-> uhh debated putting a french song on here but i love it for you because although we dont interact as much i still love seeing (hearing the song) you every time!
@gyuletters butterfly - christina perri
-> soft pretty music for starlight <3 maybe its the name and vibes i get but youre realllllyyy sparkly in personality. plus the meaning behind the song is very deep and i think youre good at reminding people to smile <3
@beoms-sugar cherry (real miracle) - dreamcatcher
-> another cutesy upbeat song !!! but so sweet like sugar <3 i was between this one and another but the intro part reminds me a lot of you! theres a music video too and that definitely screams sugar haha
@sunoooism fight or flight - conan gray
-> i cant remember for the life of me if you enjoyed conan but i feel like we had this convo EITHER WAY you give a lot of conan vibes and i just had to put one of my favorite songs of his
@iheartpantheress bubblegum bitch - marina
-> pink = bubblegum and marina vibes from pantheress is PERFECT <3 plus the vibes of the song just remind me of u
@agustdiv1ne you were beautiful - day6
-> aahhhh i debated putting a bts song mainly because when i think of you i hear BTXT but i refrained— you give of rock band music vibes which is why i chose this one bc its one of my faves
@goldennika older than i am - lennon stella
-> pretty song but also really stunning voice and when i see your user and see your personality on dash im like :O golden for sure
@beomsitez pov - ariana grande
-> apologies for leaving you out chou >< couldve sworn i added you but i guess not :c but i think any western poppy song suits you so well ! stuff from ariana, dua lipa, lady gaga etc
