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wayv’s relationship styles as taylor swift lyrics

pairing: ot6 x reader genre: headcannons, fluff word count: 1.1k contains: idol!wayv, so much fluff, just them being cute

for my swifties out there <3

Kun

“i want your midnights

i’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year’s day” 

- New Year’s Day (reputation, track 15)

This is my favorite Taylor Swift song Ever, it is so indescribably special to me, and I think it’s perfect for Kun.

To me, this song is about a resilient relationship of strength and support. No matter what sort of obstacles you face or mistakes you make, at the end of the day, you always come back to each other.

I think he would want a lot of reassurance from his partner, sometimes he finds himself wondering if he’s doing enough. His busy schedule makes it hard for him to spend as much time with you as he wishes he could and sometimes he just needs a verbal confirmation that it’s enough and that you love him no matter what.

This song also reminds me of a more domestic type of love. Like he’ll wash the dishes while you dry them or dancing together in the kitchen at midnight while cooking something for him to eat after coming home from a late practice. 

Just likes a reminder that regardless of the hardships you face, together and individually, you’ll always be together at the end. 

Ten

“i once believed love would be burning red, but it’s golden” 

- Daylight (Lover, track 18)

He’s very passionate about everything, dancing, performing, he gives every ounce of energy he has. But when it comes to love, it’s different.

His love is less of burning fire and more of consistent warmth, light, and comfort. 

He can brighten up any day, no matter how bad it ends up being. One smile and you already feel miles better than before. 

He would sit with you for hours and just talk about anything and everything. It doesn’t matter if it’s a good day or a bad one, he just likes hearing about your life. He’s the kind of person who values a deep connection and he wants to know you as much as he can. 

He’s gentle and caring, but he’ll still tease you sometimes. He never takes it too far though, he can read you well and knows when to stop before crossing a line. Little jabs are a part of his love language, but he balances them out by being attentive and affectionate.

Winwin

“i’m the one who makes you laugh when you know you’re about to cry

and i know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams” 

- You Belong With Me (Fearless, track 6)

Falling asleep on FaceTime together would become a routine whenever you’re apart.

You get used to him calling in the late hours of the night after he’s finished work for the day he just wants to hear your voice. He likes hearing about your day, even the most mundane things (those are actually his favorite details) like the lady with a little dog in her purse on the bus or the woman in a business suit and headphones dancing by herself on the sidewalk. He likes the fact that you’re so open with him, always willing to share yourself.

It makes him want to do the same for you as well. I don’t think it would take long at all for you to really get to know him well, especially once he gets comfortable around you. Your late night talks would become his favorite thing.

Xiaojun

“all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing” 

- Sweet Nothing (Midnights, track 12)

This lyric goes both ways in your relationship. He’s always supportive of you and doesn’t expect you to try and “repay” him in any way, he does it because he loves you and wants you to be happy. 

I once heard someone describe this song as “everyone wants something from me, you just want me” and I think that’s exactly the case with Xiaojun. He’s an idol, he is constantly surrounded by people who all want something from him, expect something from him, so he absolutely treasures the fact that you just want him.

He also doesn’t seem like one for grand gestures but instead he’s more subtle about showing his care for you, like holding onto little pieces of information about you like your favorite food so he can cook it for you at some point, or a movie you mentioned so you two can watch it together. 

His love is in the little things but they all add up.

Hendery

“you carry my groceries and now i’m always laughing” 

- Stay, Stay, Stay (Red, track 9)

He would find so much joy and comfort in the domesticity of your relationship.

Late night runs to the grocery store for ice cream, sitting next to him while he games with your head on his shoulder, cooking together, he loves the moments when it’s just the two of you.

Also, he loves your laugh and he loves it even more when you’re laughing because of him. He tells corny jokes and embarrassing stories all in the hope of making you smile. 

He’s all fond smiles with a tender, loving gaze. He also likes holding your hand and it hurts him that he can’t hold your hand in public so he tries to make up for it when you’re alone.

Yangyang

“you can hear it in the silence

you can feel it on the way home

you can see it with the lights out” 

- You Are In Love (1989 (Deluxe Version), track 15)

Even without verbal declarations of love happening very often, he will make sure that you never ever doubt how much he cares about you. 

Likes spending time with you as much as possible, it doesn’t even matter what you’re doing. You could be hanging out in his room and just talking and that’s more than enough for him. He just loves being around you.

Very attentive and a good listener but he also knows how to add to the conversation and give advice or support. He definitely seems like the type to love dates where you just stay in, order some of your favorite food, and talk for hours. 

When you get tired, he’d ask you to stay “just a little longer” and when you lean on him he plays with your hair until you’re about to fall asleep. Even then, he would still ask you to stay, it’s an unspoken ‘I love you.’

If you do decide to go home, he’d drive you himself so he can make sure you get home safely. 

Never ends a day without sending a goodnight text.

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heyy sorry this is weird but did you happen to have a fic with mark as ex bf and we're not really strangers? like i remember that fic bc it was my favorite but i can't find it and all i have is a screenshot of your username i'm sorry again if it's not you 😭

i haven't written anything like that sorry :(

if anyone knows this fic and could give the link, it would be greatly appreciated!

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hii could you write some renjun fluff?? it could be anything really i’m just trying to distract myself these days and i feel like crying. hope you have a good upcoming week <33

hi!! thank you so so much for the request, you can find the fic here! i'm so sorry this took me so long but i hope you like it and i hope it can help you feel a little better. remember to take care of yourself and look for joy in the little things <3

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all the scars, they’re leaving

“you’ll be dancing once again, and the pain will end”

pairing: renjun x gn!reader

genre: fluff, established relationship, comfort

word count: 1.1k

contains: so much fluff, reader can drive, mentions of food (ice cream

summary: renjun just wants to make you smile

a/n: this was requested and i tried to make it as soft as possible. loosely inspired by chiquitita by abba, it’s just such a fun song

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By the time Renjun gets home from practice for the day, you’ve already changed into pajamas. To be fair, it was nearly 10 o’clock (which was considered early for Renjun these days) and you had already been tired all day. You hadn’t even bothered to cook anything for dinner and opted for leftovers instead. Renjun had texted earlier about eating at rehearsal so once you knew he’d eaten you discarded any plans of cooking something for him and got changed.

At first, you wanted to go straight to bed, but you wanted to wait for Renjun to get home. He’d been so busy recently that any time where you both were at the apartment at the same time was precious and you didn’t want to waste a second of it.

So you grab a fluffy blanket and curl up on the couch to wait, putting on one of your favorite comfort movies. Taking the time to just relax was already helping, the one thing that could make you feel even better though, would be if your boyfriend was with you.

Lucky for you, just as you begin to really miss him and feel your mood dipping, you hear the front door unlock and open. A smile creeps onto your face and you sit up on the couch, stretching a bit before going to the door to greet Renjun.

He breaks into a grin when he sees you, slipping off his shoes before closing the door and opening his arms so you can hug him. As soon as he has you in his embrace, you let out a content sigh. His chest is warm and his t-shirt is soft against your cheek as you rest against him. 

“Hi Love,” he says, rubbing slow circles on your back and he lets you hug him for as long as you need, holding you to his chest the whole time.

“How was practice?” you ask, finally pulling away.

“It was good, we’re actually ahead in terms of learning the choreo. We were all so in tune with each other today.”

You smile, you know the hardest part of learning new choreography is synchronization so you’re glad they managed it so easily today. 

“How was your day?” Renjun asks and you see the way his smile falters as you shrug your shoulders. “Did something happen?” he asks.

“No, it just… wasn’t the best, I guess.” You try your best to sound nonchalant about it, you don’t want to concern him, especially not after he had such a great day. “But it’s okay. It’s over and now you’re here,” you say, your smile returning. 

“You know what could make it even better?” Renjun asks, eyes sparkling.

“What?”

His smile widens. “Ice cream.”

You can’t help but mirror his smile. “As good as that sounds, I don’t think we have any in the freezer.”

Renjun just shrugs. “Field trip?”

You laugh a little. On one hand, you’re already wearing pajamas, but on the other, you really do want ice cream and you and Renjun haven’t gone anywhere together in a while. He’s always either busy, or it’s a busy time of day. You can’t even go grocery shopping with him out of caution. But late at night everywhere is less busy and you’re much less likely to be approached by anyone. It’s on these nights when sometimes you feel almost normal with him. It’s a feeling you treasure.

“Let me put on some sweatpants,” you say and Renjun’s grin widens.

“You can borrow one of my hoodies if you want,” he offers and even though it’s warm enough to go without, you slip one on anyway. You love wearing his clothes so you’d never turn down the opportunity.

Once you’ve gathered your things, you grab your car keys and Renjun’s hand before exiting the apartment. He intertwines his fingers with yours, his thumb brushing against the back of your hand. It’s comforting, like a gentle reminder that he’s here and he just wants to make you feel better.

You lead him to your car, illuminated by the streetlight outside your apartment. You let Renjun pick the music as you start the car. He settles on a chill driving playlist and you head to the nearest grocery store, less than 5 minutes from your place.

You park near the front and Renjun takes your hand again as you walk up to the store. There are other cars in the lot though, so he squeezes your hand three times before letting go. You’re used to moments like this and even though it’s upsetting, you understand why he has to do it.

Inside, you forgo a cart and Renjun just grabs a basket from the stack. You know your way around this grocery store by now so you head for the frozen section. Already debating what kind of ice cream you want to get. 

When you reach the row of freezers, Renjun leads the way, scanning the shelves of ice cream when he hears you gasp.

“Oh my god they’re playing Shakira,” you say, a wide grin spreading across your face. Sure enough, “Whenever Wherever” by Shakira is playing over the grocery store speakers. Renjun laughs a little at your sudden excitement and his smile only grows as you begin to sing along softly moving to the melody of the song. 

He sets the basket down and extends his hand to you. His hand feels warm in your own and your smile widens as he dances with you. You can’t help but laugh when the chorus begins and he twirls you around. 

You feel a little silly dancing in the aisle of a grocery store, but it’s nothing compared to the love you have for Renjun. So you ignore the slight embarrassment when someone walks past the aisle and turns the other away and just focus on your boyfriend and the fondness his eyes hold when he looks at you. There’s so much joy in such a simple moment and as he twirls you again, you let any lingering stress wash away because even though you know your life isn’t perfect, it’s not all smooth sailing, you can still find happiness in moments like these, and that’s enough.

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blue butterflies

“i guess i want you more than i thought i did”

pairing: chenle x fem!reader

genre: fluff, some angst, friends to lovers

word count: 3.3k

contains: arguing, chenle calls reader “my girl”, he’s a lil possessive but i tried my hardest to make it not toxic😭, mentions of reader wearing a skirt, some tears but no actual crying, fluff at the end

summary: it takes seeing you getting ready for a date with someone else to finally push chenle to confess.

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When Chenle’s phone screen lights up with a FaceTime from you, he’d already been thinking about you. He’s been thinking about you a lot lately, not that he’d ever tell you that. It’s not his fault that everything reminds him of you.

He accepts the call and sets his phone on the desk in front of him as you come into view.

“What do you think of this outfit?” you ask him, foregoing a greeting. You’re wearing a tight black top cut out in various places to show your skin paired with some dark green cargo pants. For a moment, he just stares, taking everything in. You look good. He’s never seen that shirt before. But of course he’ll never let you know what kind of effect you have on him.

“You look like Kim Possible,” he says nonchalantly. 

You let out a noise of distress and pick up your phone. 

Chenle laughs. “It’s not bad if you’re trying to look like a secret agent.”

“Yeah well, secret agent isn’t exactly what I’m going for right now.”

“What are you going for?” Chenle asks.

You sigh. “Dignified and collected, but still open and casual.”

Chenle snorts. “Good luck with that.”

You roll your eyes. “Fuck you. I should’ve called Jisung or something. At least he would be nice to me.”

“Like he’d be able to help,” Chenle scoffs. “Why are you so worried anyway?”

“Because I need an outfit that’s not too over the top. I don’t want to screw up my chances before the date has even started.”

For a second, it’s like time slows down. The word date grows to a crescendo in his mind. You hadn’t mentioned you were going on a date.

Before he can stop himself, Chenle asks, “What date?”

“When Jisung and I hung out the other day a guy at the coffee shop asked me for my number. I thought Jisung would’ve told you.” You shrug and set your phone down, beginning to search your closet for something else.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Chenle asks. Usually you two tell each other everything, it’s just a part of being friends. What’s worse is that you actually did text him after the day you spent with Jisung but you hadn’t mentioned anything about giving some guy your number.

You shrug. “We never talk about that kind of stuff.” You lay something else out on your bed before picking up your phone and turning the camera around to showcase a different outfit laid out on the sheets. “What about this?” 

This time, Chenle hardly looks at the outfit. “Are you sure you want to go?”

“Yes? Why wouldn’t I?” you ask. Then, you lay a skirt down next to the outfit. “Should I wear the skirt instead?”

Chenle clenches his jaw. You wore that skirt the first time you spent the day with just him, he loves that skirt and he can’t stomach the possibility of you wearing that skirt to go on a date with someone else. 

“I don’t want you to go.” He knows he can’t stop you, but he refuses to sit here and do nothing while you get ready to walk away from him.

You scoff. “Don’t worry. I can take care of myself.” You pull the skirt closer to the outfit and let out a content hum. “I’m going to wear it.”

“I don’t want you to go,” Chenle repeats, firmer this time. 

On the other end of the line, you’ve fallen silent, the camera still focused on the skirt and the blue butterflies that line the hem. When you speak again, your voice is soft and almost timid. “What are you saying?”

Chenle exhales and lets his eyes fall shut. “I don’t want to see you on a date with someone else. I don’t want to…” Chenle can feel the anger in his chest rising. “I can’t be silent while you bring your new boyfriend around and pretend like it’s not killing me to see someone else get everything I want.” He pauses, forcing his voice to steady out and return to a normal volume. “You’re supposed to be my girl.”

When he opens his eyes, you’ve turned the camera around again and he can see your face. His heart aches when he sees the tears welled up in your eyes, threatening to spill over. This wasn’t supposed to happen. He never meant to upset you.

Your lower lip quivers as you meet his eyes. “That’s not fair.”

Guilt fills him as you sniff and wipe your cheeks with the back of your hand. “You… you’re being mean.”

The ache in his chest turns sharp and his shame becomes almost overwhelming. “You never told me about your feelings, never gave any signs that you wanted me as more than just a friend. But you flirted with me left and right all the time and gave me hope but not enough and now that I’ve found someone who actually is up front with me about their feelings, who actually wants me and isn’t afraid to say it, you’re trying to stop me from being with them.”

More tears roll down your cheeks. “You never told me you wanted me but now that someone else does you’re trying to stop me. You understand how insensitive that is, right? How selfish?”

And you’re right. He knows you’re right. He is being selfish, he’s preventing you from reaching for happiness just because that happiness doesn’t make him happy too. But he still can’t bear to think of you dating someone else, of wearing the butterfly skirt for someone who isn’t him.

“I didn’t mean to…” he pinches his brow. “Please don’t go.”

He hears you make a sound somewhere between a scoff and a sob but by the time he looks back at his phone, you’ve already hung up the call. His lockscreen stays illuminated for a few seconds, a picture of you and him that Jisung had taken a while back. You’re sitting next to him on the subway, asleep on his shoulder while he holds your hand. He hadn’t realized Jisung was taking a picture until after you’d gone home and the second he saw the photo he knew it was a moment he wanted to keep forever. 

He swallows the lump in his throat and resists the urge to rip his hair out because he knows he just fucked up bad. Every single thing you’d said was true, he had been leading you on in a way and just because it was unintentional doesn’t make it any better. He’d been selfish and careless and now you were paying the price.

Chenle buries his face in his hands. He needs to apologize. He knows he needs to apologize. But after everything, the least he can do is give you some space while you go on your date so he doesn’t ruin your day any more than he has already. He’ll apologize later, once he’s sure your date is over. It’s still pretty early, you probably agreed to meet the guy for lunch, so Chenle figures he can head to your place around dinnertime and pick up some flowers on the way. 

Waiting around is much easier said than done. He feels restless all day and can only keep himself occupied by one thing for so long before he starts losing control of his thoughts and has to find something else to distract himself with. By 5 he’s gotten too impatient so he heads out to find a florist on the way to your place.

Once he’s gotten the bouquet of flowers, he walks the rest of the way to your apartment. He can’t help but wonder if you’ll still be wearing the butterfly skirt or if you’ll have already taken off your makeup and put on comfortable clothes. Usually that means wearing one of his shirts but he doesn’t dare to dream that big. 

When he arrives at your door, he hesitates to knock. What if you’re not home? Or worse, what if you are and you’ve invited the guy over? As much as he hates it, he decides that if that’s the case then he’ll leave and let you enjoy your night no matter how much it hurts him. 

He knocks on the door a few times, far less aggressive than he usually is when he comes over. He’s sure you’ve gotten used to him pounding on the door to announce his arrival. That, or he’ll just walk right in. It almost feels too formal to knock politely.

He only waits on the doorstep for a few moments before he hears the lock click and he takes a step back as you open the door. 

For a moment, he just looks at you. You aren’t wearing the butterfly skirt or the blue shirt you’d chosen to pair it with on the phone. You’re wearing your casual clothes and he registers that they’re the same clothes you’d been wearing this morning. To his immense relief, there doesn’t seem to be anyone else in your apartment.

You look conflicted, like you’re trying to choose between throwing yourself into his arms and slamming the door in his face. Chenle clears his throat and extends the flowers towards you. 

“I’m sorry,” he says, hoping he sounds as genuine as he feels. “I’ve been a terrible friend and I’m sorry it took getting yelled at to realize it. I didn’t mean to hurt you, but I know I did anyway so I came to try and make it right because I hate being the reason you’re upset.”

Your face softens a bit and you look between him and the bouquet of flowers between you. “I got them as an apology, not a romantic thing. I know you literally just went on a date. How did that go, by the way?” He knows he’s rambling a bit but for once his nerves are getting the better of him.

You take the flowers from his hand and he feels his heart skip. You admire them for a few moments, running your fingers over the colorful petals. “I didn’t go,” you say.

“What?” he asks. “Why?”

You look up from the flowers and meet his eyes. “Let’s talk inside.”

While you go to the kitchen to fill a vase for the flowers, Chenle sits on your couch waiting. He’s never felt so out of place in your apartment. Over the length of your friendship, your place has become like a second home to him, but now he’s almost overwhelmed with a feeling that he shouldn’t be here. 

Chenle looks up when you walk over, but you don’t join him on the couch, instead sitting in an armchair against the wall. Struck with another twinge of guilt, Chenle mumbles another apology. You won’t even sit next to him and he’s entirely to blame.

“Why didn’t you go?” he asks. “I bet the guy could’ve cheered you up. He’s probably nicer than I am.”

“Being upset wasn’t the reason,” you say. For a moment, you collect your thoughts before looking at Chenle. “I didn’t go because I don’t like him. I thought if I went and got to know him then maybe I could, but right now… I mean, I don’t even know his last name. And I didn’t see a point in going on a date with someone I don’t like when I already have feelings for someone else. And they have feelings for me too.”

Chenle’s eyes widen as he processes what you’ve just said. “Does that mean…” His mouth feels dry. He almost can’t believe it. Sure, the two of you flirted playfully sometimes but you laughed it off afterwards and in all the time he knew you you’d never dated anyone. He thought you weren’t interested in a relationship with anyone, much less one with him.

“You… you’ve always been special to me. You were always doing everything you could just to make me smile. You would listen to my stories and share your own too. I always felt a connection with you. But we never talked about relationships together, not even our pasts. And you’re such a playful person with everyone, I had no reason to believe you actually meant anything you said when you flirted with me,” you say, a slight frown on your lips as you look at him.

“I meant it,” Chenle says instantly. “All of it.” He hates that you thought he wasn’t sincere. He should’ve been braver, more straightforward. “I…” he sighs. “I really like you. I’ve liked you for a long time. I’m so sorry I made you think I wasn’t serious. But I swear to you, every time I called you beautiful I meant it. And I mean it when I say that you are one of the most interesting people I know. You’re so smart and you’re kind and you make me laugh and I love being with you all the time. And I should’ve told you all of this sooner. But I’m telling you now and I promise you I mean it, okay? I really really like you.”

When you smile he feels like the room has brightened a bit. It’s not even a full smile, just a slight curve of your lips, but it’s enough to have his heart racing as his chest fills with relief. 

“I like you too,” you say, making sure to meet his eyes. “And I accept your apology. But I am upset that you didn’t tell me. And… if you can’t communicate with me then I don’t think I could be in a relationship with you. If we’re going to date, I need to trust that you’ll talk to me.”

“You really want that? With me?” Chenle still feels a bit stunned. Throughout your whole friendship he’d always had moments where he wondered why you chose him and if someday you’d stop. And even once he realized he liked you as more than a friend he hadn’t dared to hope you would feel the same. You already seemed out of his league as a friend.

“Yeah,” you say. “I want you to be mine. And I want to be yours too, but I need to know that you’ll be open with me.”

“I will.” Chenle sits up a little straighter. “I promise. I’ll be open and honest with you. And you can do the same with me. Always.”

You smile softly and Chenle notices that your shoulders look more relaxed than they had when you first sat down. “Okay,” you say, your smile widening.

“Does this mean we’re dating now?” he asks and his heart swells when you laugh. He loves the sparkle in your eye when you look at him and in this moment he decides he’ll do anything he has to if it means you’ll always look at him the way you are now.

“You do realize you have to actually take me on a date first, right?” you say, somewhat teasingly. “And before you ask, no, we are not going anywhere right now. I’m not going out until tomorrow at the absolute earliest.”

But Chenle has never been one to back down from a challenge (and he doesn’t feel like going out either) so he just shrugs. “Fine. We’ll have our first date here then. I’ll make dinner.”

You laugh a little at his enthusiasm. “As long as it isn’t eggs.”

“What if it has eggs in it?” he teases and grins when you roll your eyes.

“Maybe I should do the cooking,” you suggest but Chenle shakes his head immediately.

“It’ll be great. I promise.” You still look skeptical but he just grins at you. “Can I have a kiss for good luck?” he asks, adoring the way your cheeks flush red. Cute.

“What do you need good luck for?” you ask.

“Cooking is serious business,” he says. “Did you know that the kitchen is one of the most dangerous rooms in a house?”

“Maybe you should stay out of it then.”

Chenle sighs exasperatedly and you fight to contain a smile.

“Besides,” you add, “we’re not even dating yet.”

“Fine,” Chenle huffs, standing up. “But if there’s a kitchen fire I’m blaming you.”

You roll your eyes. “If there’s a kitchen fire I’m never speaking to you again.”

Chenle pretends not to hear you and heads for the kitchen to start the meal. He’s pretty sure he’s used your kitchen more than his own considering how often he’s here. 

You put on some music and sit on the edge of the counter to watch him as he works. “Is the kitchen actually one of the most dangerous rooms in the house?” you ask him.

He shrugs as he fills a pot with water. “I don’t know, maybe. I made that up.” As the sound of your bubbly laughter fills the room he smiles to himself.

You continue talking to him as he cooks and he realizes that this doesn’t feel all that different from when he’s normally here, but there’s a certain weight that has been lifted. His chest no longer feels tight every time he looks at you. He doesn’t have to hold himself back from admiring you anymore.

After dinner (which you complimented heavily and made him very proud of himself), you insist on helping him wash the dishes. He washes the larger pots as you handle the smaller plates and bowl. He hardly takes his eyes off you the whole time, fighting back a smile as you sing quietly to the music you put on. 

He ends up finishing his task first and he can’t resist wrapping his arms around you from behind and pulling you close to his chest. You stiffen a little at first, but it’s only for a second before you relax and go back to the plate you were working on. 

“This is nice,” you say, setting down the finished plate and drying your hands with the dish towel. 

Chenle feels a smile creep onto his face. He loves having you close to him but before it was a rare occurrence. Now he has an excuse to hold you whenever he wants.

“Are we dating now?” he asks.

You turn in his arms to face him and he smiles at you. “I made you dinner and you said that it was good. And I didn’t even start a kitchen fire or—” You cut him off, leaning in and connecting your lips.

As soon as he registers that you’re kissing him, he pulls you closer and moves one hand from your waist to cup your cheek. He’s not sure how long he’s been waiting for this moment, but he knows it’s better than anything he imagined. 

You pull away too soon for his liking, but he lets you. He keeps one arm around you and uses the other hand to tuck some of your hair behind your ear, smiling at the pink blush dusting your cheeks.

“Now we’re dating,” you say with a grin.

“So can I kiss you again?” he asks eagerly and you laugh.

“You can kiss me whenever you want.”

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clare's library!

127!

dream!

wayv!

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wayv masterlist!

ot6!

nothing yet...

kun!

nothing yet...

ten!

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winwin!

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xiaojun!

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hendery!

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yangyang!

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ot7!

nothing yet...

mark!

drabble 1

renjun!

all the scars, they're leaving

jeno!

drabble 1

late nights together (ft. bestfriends!dreamies)

so i don't have to keep imagining

haechan!

nothing yet...

jaemin!

nothing yet...

chenle!

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saying goodbye before they go on tour

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“and when you come home, i’ll be waiting with open arms”

pairing: chenle x fem!reader

genre: fluff

word count: 4.2k

contains: cursing, kissing, cuddling, lots of caring for daegal, so many ‘i love you’s’

summary: you watch daegal while chenle is on tour

i wrote this after writing saying goodbye to txt before they go on tour because the concept was too good to pass up, though i did get a little carried away (it was not supposed to be this long lol) but i really hope you enjoy!

~

You couldn’t lie, you were nervous.

Nervous for a number of reasons. Your boyfriend was going away on tour for almost two months, which would be the longest time you’ve ever been apart. It’s also the furthest physical distance you’ve been away from each other. And while he’s away he’s tasked you with taking care of Daegal, who sometimes you swear he loves more than you.

Daegal was a sweetheart but even after the significant amount of time you’ve spent at Chenle’s apartment, she has yet to really warm up to you. And now you're going to be the one taking care of her for two months. So no, it’s not really your fault that you’re nervous.

You show up at Chenle’s apartment an hour before he’s supposed to leave for the airport. Unfortunately for the two of you, your work and all the preparations for his departure prevented you from being able to come any earlier, which meant you hadn’t gotten to sleep next to him the night before he leaves for two months. Still, you put on a brave face. You know how excited he is about going on tour.

He opens the door and lets you into the apartment, his two suitcases already by the door. Daegal trots over to you and you kneel down to let her sniff your hand for a few seconds before she seems satisfied and nuzzles against your hand. 

“Hello Darling,” you say softly, feeling her soft fur under your hand.

“Do I get a hello?” Chenle asks, crossing his arms. You playfully roll your eyes and stand up.

“Hello,” you say to him, a cheeky smile on your face.

“Just ‘hello?’”

You roll your eyes again. “Hello baby, honey, light of my life. Is that better?”

“It’s acceptable,” Chenle hums before pulling you into his arms, giving you a quick kiss before folding you into a hug. You smile to yourself, slipping your arms around his waist and holding him close, breathing in the scent of his shampoo and enjoying the warmth of being pressed against his chest.

When he lets you go he leads you to the kitchen where there’s a small breakfast laid out for the two of you. You can’t help but smile and kiss his cheek before taking a seat.

“Are you excited?” you ask, filling your plate.

“Yeah, it’s been so long since our last concert in the US. And after the show here in Seoul… I’m just really excited to get back on stage.”

You smile. You were at the Seoul show, you’d actually gotten tickets with a friend for somewhere in the lower bowl so you could experience what the concert would be like as a fan and the whole time you couldn’t take your eyes off Chenle. He was such a captivating performer and with the rest of the boys they made the show unforgettable. You knew they’d bring the same incredible performance to America.

“I’m sure the fans are just as excited. You’re so captivating on stage.”

Chenle just smiles at you and continues to eat. 

“You know,” you say. “Nctzens are great, but at the end of the day I’m your biggest fan. No one is cheering for you harder than me.”

Chenle sets down his fork and looks up at you. 

“You are so incredibly talented, but you’re a good person too,” you tell him, taking his hand. “And I am so so lucky to be yours.”

Chenle swallows and then squeezes your hand before he starts to speak. 

“You are… you’re everything to me, you know that?” he asks. “You’re so smart and you always know how to make me laugh. You’re unbelievably kind to everyone around you, even when they don’t deserve it. And you’re beautiful. Breathtaking.”

“Please keep going.”

On any other day, Chenle would narrow his eyes at you and tease you about wanting his attention, but today is different. This is his last chance to say all these things to you in person before he’s whisked halfway across the world for two months, so he takes it.

“You’re so special. You’re different from anyone I’ve ever met. You’re so attentive and understanding. You care so deeply that sometimes it hurts you, but that doesn’t stop you from caring anyway. Your heart is the biggest I’ve ever seen and the fact that you gave that heart to me… I feel so lucky every day to be yours. I’m glad you’re happy to be mine too.”

The confession catches you off guard but in the best way and you can’t keep the smile off your face. You want to tease him with something along the lines of you’re so obsessed with me but you hold it back because he’s just poured his heart out to you. 

“I love you,” you say, squeezing his hand. “So much. And I’m really going to miss you.”

“I’m going to miss you too,” he says. “More than I can tell you.”

“But it’s only two months. And it’ll be over before we know it. And the whole time you’re going to have such an amazing experience and I’m so proud of you.”

You’re pretty sure that Chenle is holding back tears now but you don’t acknowledge it. You’re not much better off. 

“I love you,” Chenle says softly. “So so so much.”

You blink the tears out of your eyes and get up to walk around the table and sit down in Chenle’s lap. Before he has a chance to protest, you kiss him. You can feel his shoulders relax under your hands and he kisses you tenderly. It’s not rushed or messy, it’s gentle and sweet. It says I love you without words. His lips are soft and warm and you can’t help but selfishly wish that this moment could last forever. But that’s the thing about time, it always keeps moving. 

It feels like mere seconds have passed instead of the remaining hour until his departure, which is filled with cleaning the kitchen, last minute packing, and plenty of stolen kisses. But it’s all over far too soon and you’re standing back at his door, bidding him a final farewell. 

He pulls you into a hug. “You’re gonna have fun without me,” he says and you can hear the pout in his voice. 

You laugh. “You’ll have fun too. And then when you come back we can talk all about it.”

Chenle hugs you closer. “Deal.”

He lingers a bit after that, holding you in his arms and kissing you every so often until finally his phone rings and he’s finally forced to leave. 

When the door closes behind him you let the brave face drop, taking a shaky breath. 

Everything is going to be alright, you tell yourself soothingly and take a few deep breaths. You’ll be able to call him often and see plenty of videos of him performing. It’s only two months, that’s not so bad. But you can’t deny that you miss him already.

At your feet, Daegal slumps onto the floor and you smile sympathetically, sitting down next to her. “Do you miss your dad?” you ask, scratching her ears. “Me too,” you tell her. For a few minutes you sit in silence, letting a few tears fall, but in the end, you calm yourself down. You know Chenle wouldn’t want you to be upset and there’s no point in wallowing in your longing. 

So you push yourself off the floor and search for the pet carrier that Chenle uses whenever he has to take Daegal to the vet. After taking it from the closet (the third closet you searched) you find Daegal curled up on the carpet in the living room.

“You ready for an adventure sweet girl?” you ask, gently lifting her off the floor and leading her into the cage. As soon as the door closes she’s whining and you try to shush her in a way that would be comforting. “You’re alright honey,” you say, but when she’s still whimpering after five minutes you take pity on her and instead clip on a collar and leash before leading her out of the apartment.

She follows you, somewhat reluctantly, to your car and you can’t help but feel the nerves creeping back in. What if you couldn’t make Daegal happy? Yes, she was important to Chenle, but she was important to you too and all you wanted was to make these two months feel less lonely for her. 

You put Daegal in the back seat of your car, but by the time you’ve gotten into the car, she’s climbed her way into the passenger seat next to you. She sits down and stares at you, panting slightly. You sigh and let yourself break into a grin.

“Alright passenger princess,” you say, petting her head before turning on the car.

The drive back to the house you’re renting feels longer than usual, probably because of the added stress of having Daegal in the car with you. Every time you slow down or speed up you had to be extra careful so she wouldn’t fall off the seat. But you both make it home in one piece and you let out a sigh of relief once you pull into your driveway.

You carry Daegal inside and hang up the leash by the door, letting her explore the house while you set up food and water for her. At this point it’s almost six a.m and you still haven’t slept so you drag yourself upstairs, forcing yourself to take off your makeup before throwing on one of Chenle’s old t-shirts and heading to bed.

In your room, Daegal is curled up on your blankets toward the end of your mattress. Once you slip under the covers, she gets up and makes her way over to you, curling up next to your side. It surprises you a little, but you smile softly and stroke her soft fur for a good five minutes before finally turning out the light.

You force yourself to get up at noon in an attempt to not fuck your sleep schedule up too badly. After breakfast (the second one today) you change out of your pajamas and clip on Daegal’s collar.

“Let’s go on a walk,” you say as you attach the leash. “I promise I’ll keep it short.”

You know that Daegal doesn’t leave the apartment super often, so she doesn’t have a lot of opportunities to go on walks. You expected her to get tired quickly, but a mile out from your house she’s still happily trotting along the sidewalk, so you let her lead the way, not caring if you’ll have to carry her back.

She actually makes it halfway back home before getting tired and you don’t complain as you pick her up and hold her to your chest so she can rest her head on your shoulder as you carry her the rest of the way home.

This becomes a daily routine. After waking up you’d take Daegal outside, whether it be a walk around the neighborhood or to a nearby park to let her run around, you devoted time every day to take her somewhere and you can see how much more comfortable she is around you as the days pass. 

When you come home from work she’ll be waiting by the door and every night she curls up by your side. Whenever you’re at home, she’s always nearby, which is especially nice whenever you’re on FaceTime with Chenle and he asks to see her.

Today, he calls a little later than usual and after asking about your day and telling you about his own he (as always) asks to see Daegal, so you turn your phone so the camera is pointing at the sleeping dog, pressed against your side.

“How are you guys getting along?” Chenle asks. “She seems awfully comfy.”

You smile. “I’ve been taking her outside a lot. She likes going to the park and chasing birds,” you share, which makes Chenle laugh. 

“She’s going to love you more than me at this rate.”

You grin. “I think she already does,” you tell him, gently petting Daegal’s head. “How’s tour going?” you ask.

“It’s been amazing so far. A little busy, especially since we have a show tomorrow but being on stage… it makes it all worth it.”

You can’t help but smile. “Good. I’m glad you’re having a good time.”

Chenle hums. “Yeah, well it sounds like you and Daegal have been having a pretty good time without me.”

You laugh. “She really loves me now. I think she was hesitant at first.”

“Well, I’m glad you two are getting along. And I’m happy you’re doing well. I…” he sighs. “I miss you a lot.”

You smile. “I miss you too,” you say. “But hey, we’re almost halfway done already. Then you’ll come home and both Daegal and I will be waiting.”

Chenle smiles at that. “I’ll be counting down the days.”

As the days pass you’re able to stay relatively busy, filling any time that you’re not at work with Daegal or your friends. Once, while at the park you run into your best friend with her own dog next to her.

“Hey Mina!” you greet and then wave to her dog, a spaniel whose exact breed you don’t remember. “Hi Luna.”

Mina gives you a hug and smiles down at Daegal. “Who’s this?” she asks, leaning down to pet her.

“This is Daegal,” you say. “She’s my boyfriend’s dog.”

“Ah yes,” Mina says. “The mysterious boyfriend that you legally can’t tell me anything about.”

You laugh. “That’s the one.”

Mina smiles at you, a twinkle in her eye, because despite your inability to actually talk about your relationship, you still go to Mina whenever you need advice and she always listens. 

Luna and Daegal sniff at each other before deeming the other as friendly and you both let them run around in the field as you sit and talk.

“How are things going with mystery boy?” she asks.

“He’s away right now,” you tell her. “A work trip.”

She nods. “For how long?”

“Two months, but it’s already been almost five weeks, so we’ve made it through the first half. He calls almost every day so it hasn’t been so bad without him.”

“Good, I’m glad you’re doing well. And I mean, taking care of his dog… that sounds pretty serious.”

You smile at Daegal who’s currently chasing Luna across the grass. “I was kind of surprised he trusted me to do it. She’s like his baby.”

Mina nods. “I get it. I wouldn’t leave Luna with just anybody. But you seem to be doing a pretty good job.”

You grin. “I’m having a better time than I thought I would. I was just so nervous she didn’t like me, or at least, not enough to keep her from feeling lonely. But she’s been happy and it’s nice having her around.”

Mina smiles at you and leans over to rest her head on your shoulder. “I love seeing you happy, you know that?”

You smile and let your cheek rest against her. “I do know that. I feel the same with you.”

“I’m always here for you,” she says happily. “And if mystery boy ever hurts you I’ll make sure he regrets it, I don’t care who he is.”

You laugh at that.

“But, in my humble opinion, I don’t think he will. He seems like he’s in this for the long run, and if he makes you happy then he has my approval.”

“Your approval?” you tease.

“Of course,” she says. “All boyfriends must be approved by the best friend. It’s just… girl code.”

You grin. “Well then, I’m glad you approve.”

“Do you think I’ll ever get to meet him?” she asks.

You honestly have wondered the same thing. He’s already met your family, though that still required some paperwork and negotiations with SM, but you didn’t see why your best friend should be any different. Ever since you first arrived in Korea, she’d been by your side. She was like a sister to you and you hoped that maybe you could talk to someone at the company and figure out a way to introduce her to Chenle. 

“I hope so,” you say. “I really hope so.”

After the day at the park you reach out to a member of SM’s legal team about letting Mina meet Chenle and while the discussion was an ongoing one, it seemed like the odds were in your favor. You told Chenle about it as soon as you could and he assured you he would do everything he could to convince them to let Mina meet him.

“So… is she nice?” Chenle asks, even though you’ve talked about Mina to him countless times.

“Yes? You’ve already heard like… everything about her.”

Chenle sighs. “I know, but I want her to like me. What if she doesn’t think I’m good enough and sends like… the mafia after me or something.”

You laugh. “I don’t think she has any connection with the mafia. Besides, she already gave you her Best Friend Seal of Approval so I don’t think you have anything to worry about.”

“Really?” he asks.

“She sees how happy you make me and that’s all she cares about.”

Chenle smiles. “Well, I’m glad I make you happy.”

“Yeah, though she did also say that if you ever hurt me she’ll make you regret it. She didn’t say how but I don’t think that’s something you want to find out.”

Chenle groans. “Why would you tell me that? Now I’m going to be scared of her.”

You laugh. “Hey, as long as you don’t fuck this up, you don’t have to be.”

“Good,” he says. “Because I’m never going to let you go. I’m never going to hurt you or deliberately make you sad. I’m here to make you happy because you do the same for me.”

You smile. “See? Nothing to worry about.”

“You make my life so much better, you know that?”

You swallow the lump in your throat. “You make mine better too. Brighter.”

“I can’t wait to see you,” he says. 

“Four days,” you reply, butterflies in your stomach. Four days until he’s in your arms again. 

“I don’t know if I’ll survive.”

You roll your eyes. “You’re so dramatic.”

“Whatever,” he says. “You love me anyway.”

“Yeah yeah, I love you.”

He smiles contently. “Goodnight baby,” he says.

“Aren’t you going to say it back?” you ask and he just gives you a cheeky smile and ends the call. Immediately, you text him.

chenle

chenle

ZHONG CHENLE

SAY IT BACK

But I’m the dramatic one?

say it back :(

I love you

:)

Goodnight love

night lele

The final days pass by in a blur and suddenly it’s the night before he’s supposed to be back. You crawl in bed and Daegal huddles up next to you like always. Before you go to sleep, you send Chenle a text. He’ll have already boarded his flight by now, but he’ll receive it once he lands.

lele, my love! i just wanted to tell you how proud i am of you. you did so well this tour and i can tell you gave every single performance all your effort. i admire you so much (i’m sure you know that). i’ve missed you so much. so so so so so much. but i know that in a few hours you’ll be back so i feel okay. before you left you told me i was everything to you, and i wanted to tell you that you’re my everything too. you make me laugh even when it’s hard and you’re a good listener when i need it. you’re hardworking and trustworthy and incredibly loyal. and you’re so loving, even if it’s not in the “traditional” way. you show your love differently, and to me that makes it even more special. it really is a privilege to be loved by you. and i can’t wait to see you. i love you and i’ll (finally!!) see you soon.

You’re pretty tired as you type it all out, unsure if it makes sense or not, but in the end, you press send and plug in your phone before turning out the light. You pet Daegal for a few minutes until your eyes finally close.

“Baby?”

You blink the sleep out of your eyes. Your bedroom is still dark, the only light is from the streetlamp outside but the sky is still pitch black. You sit up and let your eyes adjust. Standing in the doorway is Chenle, his hair sticking up in a few places and his t-shirt wrinkled. When your eyes meet, he breaks into a grin.

“Lele,” you breathe, your eyes welling up with tears as you open your arms. In a second, he’s there, climbing into bed next to you so he can hug you properly. He smells like home and even wearing his clothes isn’t anything like this. His hold is strong and he’s warm and real and you don’t bother to try and stop yourself from crying.

Next to you, Daegal is yapping excitedly, clambering onto Chenle’s lap and he laughs, the sound sending you into another round of sobs because it’s different hearing it in person.

“Hello,” he says to Daegal, scratching her ears. “I hope you didn’t miss me too much.”

He turns his attention back to you and cups your face in his hands, brushing away your tears. “Alright crybaby, it’s okay.” You can’t help but smile at that because he’s right, everything is okay. He’s here, he’s home with you again. So yeah, you’re more than okay.

“I thought you weren’t coming back until tomorrow?” you ask.

“We managed to catch an earlier flight. And I got your text and I just had to see you but you weren’t at the apartment so I came here. Sorry for barging in,” he says sheepishly. “I didn’t realize you’d be sleeping.”

You smile and shake your head. “I’m glad you came.”

“Me too,” he says, leaning in to kiss you and you smile against his lips.

 

The two of you end up going back to bed for a few more hours before you wake up at nine and drag him out of bed with you to make him breakfast. 

“I’ll probably have to take Daegal out after this, we usually go for a walk every morning,” you say, flipping a pancake on the stove. “You know, maybe tomorrow morning we can get up early and take Daegal to the park. That way there won’t be a ton of people and we can just go on a walk together. I even taught her to play fetch but it only works with tennis balls. I tried throwing her a stick the other day and she just kinda looked at me like, ‘what the fuck was that?’ But I figure if we go early enough we can spend an hour or so there and we won’t have to worry so much about someone recognizing you,” you ramble. When you receive no response, you turn to look at Chenle, wondering if maybe he’s fallen asleep at the table.

Instead, you find him staring at you, an unreadable expression on his face. “What?” you ask, slightly nervous. Had you said something wrong? Maybe it wasn’t a good idea to suggest going out together.

“I’m going to marry you someday,” he says, which was not at all what you were expecting to hear. 

“What?” you repeat, still shocked.

“You already know that you’re the love of my life. Plus you take care of me, like forcing me to get up so I can eat something. And you’re a great cook. And you love Daegal like she’s yours, taking her on walks and going to the park. Even I haven’t done some of those things. So, naturally, I want to marry you.”

“Alright lover boy, let’s slow down a bit there,” you say with a smile, pretending that your heart isn’t about to beat out of your chest.

“Is that a no?” he asks.

“It’s a… ask me again later. And by later I mean in a year at least.”

Chenle shrugs. “Fine by me,” he says. “I’ll put it in my calendar.”

You roll your eyes and return to your cooking, transferring the finished pancake onto a plate before taking the bacon out of the pan and letting it cool on a tray. You break of a tiny piece and lean down to hold it out to Daegal, who happily accepts. 

When you look back at the table Chenle is lounging in the chair with a smile on his face.

“What?” you ask.

“I’m just happy,” he says. “I’m here with my two favorite girls. I feel like I’m in heaven.”

You smile. “I’m happy too. I’m really glad you’re here. Home.”

His smile widens. “Home.”

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txt - saying goodbye before they go on tour

yes, i know tour is basically over but i got this idea and i HAD to write it for txt. it's 3.1k words for all five members (i got carried away). pls enjoy :)

yeonjun:

Your phone ringing is what wakes you up and you squint at the screen in front of you noticing it’s nearly four in the morning, but the contact name reads junnie so you pick up immediately.

“Jun?” you ask groggily. He was supposed to be leaving for the airport soon for his flight to America as part of their world tour. You had said goodbye to him last night over dinner so his call is unexpected.

“I’m outside,” he says. “It’s kinda cold, can you come let me in?”

“What?” you ask, shivering as you climb out of bed. “Why are you here? Don’t you have to be at the airport soon?”

“I wanted to see you,” Yeonjun answers. “And it’s really fucking cold can you please hurry up.”

You roll your eyes. “Maybe I should go back to bed.”

“No baby please!”

You laugh. “I’ll be right there, okay? Be patient.”

“Patient? I’m about to freeze to—” his voice cuts off as you hang up the call and drop your phone on the couch as you pass by, grabbing the blanket draped over the back and wrapping it around yourself before opening the door.

Yeonjun is standing there with his arms crossed and tucked into his sides as he tries to keep himself warm, but the way he shivers shows that he’s been unsuccessful. His eyes light up when he sees you and you can’t help but smile and open the door wider to let him in.

“Come inside baby,” you say, closing the door behind him. “I thought your flight was today?” you ask but instead of responding Yeonjun pulls you into a hug. His embrace is warm and inviting even though he’s been standing in the cold. You can hear his steady heartbeat when you press your ear to his chest. You always listen to his heart every time he hugs you and, like always, he mumbles into your hair, “My heart beats for you.”

His hands move to your back and slip under your shirt, his fingers ice cold and startling enough the you push him away from you.

“Choi Yeonjun!” you scold, a shiver running down your spine after the chill of his fingertips.

“You’re warm!” he defends and you just sigh.

“I am not your personal heater,” you deadpan.

“Please?” he asks, pouting in a way he knows you can never resist. 

“I’ll hold your hands for now, okay?” you compromise and that seems to please him.

You wrap your hands around his, taking one hand at a time in between your two slightly warmer ones.

“I can’t stay long,” Yeonjun says quietly. “We have to get to the airport, but I just wanted to see you. I had to see you.”

You look up at him and squeeze his hand. “I love you, you know that?” you ask. Yeonjun smiles.

“I love you too sweetheart.”

soobin:

It was two in the morning, but you were busy making waffles for you and your boyfriend. He had to leave for the airport in an hour before setting off on a six week tour in the US so you wanted to spend the last bit of time until his departure with him.

You take another cooked waffle out of the waffle maker and onto a plate. Soobin takes the responsibility of decorating both of your waffles and on yours he even makes a heart out of whipped cream. You both sit at your kitchen table to eat together. 

“You better have someone on staff livestream the concert for me on my birthday. I want to be able to see you, even if it’s just through a screen.”

Soobin reaches across the table to take your hand. “I will. And I’m sorry I can’t be here to celebrate your birthday with you.”

“We can always celebrate it another time. Besides, you’ll be back in time for our anniversary and that’s what I really care about.”

Soobin smiles. “I already have ideas.”

“I’m not sure I like the sound of that,” you tease and Soobin pouts, letting go of your hand and crossing his arms. “I was kidding,” you laugh.

“Well I was going to give you an early birthday gift but now I might just make you wait until after tour—”

You gasp. “No, I'm sorry!” You give him your best puppy dog eyes and he playfully rolls his eyes and grins. 

“Fine,” he says. “Let me go get it.”

He returns with a box and gently slides it across the table. “Happy birthday,” he says and you smile.

Slowly, you lift the lid off the box and reveal two silver charm bracelets. There’s only one charm on each one and the prospect of collecting charms is fun and exciting. You can’t keep the smile off your face.

“One for me and one for you,” Soobin says, moving his chair so he’s sitting next to you. He picks up both bracelets and brings the two charms together. “They connect with a magnet.” The two charms stick together and form a beautiful butterfly. “I didn’t want to get a heart, I thought that might be too cheesy.”

You laugh. “I wouldn’t have minded. But this is perfect. Seriously, thank you.” You lean over and wrap your arms around Soobin’s waist and he instantly pulls you closer.

“I’m really going to miss you,” Soobin admits softly. “But I know we’re always connected.”

“I’ll miss you too. But I’ll be right here when you come back, patiently waiting for those not-at-all-suspicious anniversary celebrations.”

Soobin laughs and you can feel the vibration in his chest. You’re going to miss getting to feel him so close to you, but this is his dream and you love watching him get to perform and live the life he’s worked so hard for. You’ll always be there to support him, whether you’re a thousand miles away or right there in his arms, you’ll always be there. 

“You know I’m your biggest fan, right?” you ask. He smiles at you, tucking a bit of hair behind your ear.

“Of course I do,” he says softly. 

When you kiss him, he holds your face in his hands and keeps you as close to him as possible, knowing he has to give this up for six weeks, but he knows he’ll have a good time on tour and you’ll call him often. And when he comes back, you’ll be waiting.

beomgyu:

“I shall dream of you every night,” Beomgyu says dramatically and you roll your eyes.

“I’m about to kick you out of my house,” you deadpan and he only laughs.

“Let me finish proclaiming my love to you first.”

You sigh. “Fine.”

“I’ll miss your cooking and your cuddles. You’re so warm when you lie on my chest it’s like a heated blanket—”

“Says the human space heater,” you argue.

“You love cuddling me, don’t lie.”

You shrug your shoulders and feign indifference because you know Beomgyu will see right through it. And he does. “I can see the edge of your lip pointing up. You’re trying not to smile.”

You huff in fake annoyance but accept defeat. You love cuddling him. You love being around him, even when he spends most of the time teasing you. You’re really going to miss him.

“I love you,” you say, watching as surprise fills his features. It’s something that the two of you don’t say often. You always show your love for each other in other ways, but those three words were usually reserved for special occasions. Right now was definitely one of those times.

“I love you too,” he says, wrapping his arms around you. You stand like that for a few minutes until the other boys come into the room and start gathering all their belongings, passing suitcases off to staff members. You follow Beomgyu to his room and help him carry his backpack while he wheels his suitcase to the door.

After a staff member takes his suitcase, you hand him his backpack and once he’s gotten the straps on, he’s pulling you into another hug. “I’ll see you soon okay?” he says. “I know six weeks is a long time to be without me,” he jokes.

“Oh no,” you say sarcastically. “What will I do?”

He only laughs and leans down to kiss you. It’s loving and tender but over far too soon. 

“Don’t have too much fun without me,” he says as he follows the rest of the boys out the door.

“No promises,” you say with a grin, blowing him a kiss. He pretends to catch it and stick it into his pocket.

Once the door shuts you head into Beomgyu’s room, now half empty, to grab a sweatshirt before you go. Then you grab your own jacket from the hook next to the front door and pull it on, zipping it up all the way to try and keep out as much of the cold as possible. 

The walk back to your place is a short one, especially since you manage to catch a bus nearby. At your door, you reach into your pocket to pull out your keys and feel a piece of paper inside. You unlock your door and once you’re inside you grab the paper again.

Puzzled, you pull it out of your pocket and realize it’s an envelope and you can see your name on it in handwriting that is undeniably Beomgyu’s. He must’ve stuck it in there when you hung up your jacket by the door. 

You aren’t exactly sure why you’re nervous, but your fingers tremble as you open the letter. It’s just one piece of paper and gently you unfold it.

Sweetheart

Baby

Darling

My Love,

I wanted to say all of this to you, but if I’m being honest, I’ve been trying to tell you about how I feel ever since we started dating and I’ve never managed to do it. I can’t find the words, and if I can then I always end up forgetting them the second I see you. It’s not my fault really, you make it hard to think sometimes. Most of the time. When I’m with you it’s like time stops or something, and for a while it’s just us. I don’t have to be anyone or anything else. I’m just yours.

I’m always yours.

And now that I’m going on tour and I’m going to be away from you for a while I figured now is as good of a time as ever to finally try and say the things I never can when I’m around you. Because when I’m with you I can’t think straight. You fill my mind and I’ll do anything to make you happy. I just want to see you happy, because you make me happy.

You make me so fucking happy. You make me laugh and feel safe and appreciated. You play games with me and put up with all my teasing. You support me always and inspire me every day to do better and to be better. And I always thought soulmate stuff was cheesy, but if you are my soulmate as my soulmate, you are all of the best parts of myself and more. And every day I want to be more like you.

But at the same time you make me feel like I’m worthy of being loved exactly as I am, and that’s more valuable than anything else. It feels like a privilege to be loved by you, and I hope it’s one I can continue to enjoy, because I’m with you for the long run. Six weeks away? It seems like a lot right now, but I want to spend my life by your side, so I know that in the grand scheme of things, six weeks isn’t a big deal at all. And we have all the time in the world to make up for it.

I’m so grateful for you and I hope I can make you feel as loved as I do. You are everything to me and I hope I can continue to make you happy. I’ll give my best on this tour because I know you’ll be watching me, encouraging me, the whole time. And I’m so glad that you chose me.

I love you. So so so much.

Yours (forever and ever)

Gyu

taehyun: 

Since their flight to America was leaving early in the morning, Taehyun decides to take you out for lunch the day before instead of making you wait up for him or wake up at four a.m to say goodbye. 

He insists on paying for everything and tells you to order as much as you want (he ends up eating some of your food though). 

“Let’s go back to the dorms after this,” he suggests. “I still need to pack a few things, plus, I have a surprise.”

Your eyes widen. “You don’t have to get me anything. You know I’ll survive while you’re away.”

Taehyun smiles. “I know, but I wanted to get you something anyway.”

You take his hand from across the table and give it a squeeze. “Thank you.”

Once the two of you have finished eating, Taehyun takes your hand and leads you out of the cafe to the car waiting outside. You both settle into the back seat and the car sets off in the direction of the dorms.

“What stop are you most excited for?” you ask. It’s been forever since you’ve been in America and there are still so many places you want to visit.

“Probably the Newark show,” he says. “I really love New York City.”

You sigh dreamily at the thought of NYC. You’ve always wanted to go, even if the city isn’t actually as magical as it seems in movies. “I’m sure you’ll have a wonderful time. Make sure you take plenty of pictures,” you tell him.

“I will, don’t you worry.”

When you two make it back to the dorms you follow Taehyun to his room where his suitcase is still open on his bed. He pats the empty space at the end. “Sit,” he says, “I’ll be right back.”

You sit down and wait for Taehyun to return. He only takes a minute and he comes back with an envelope, handing it to you.

“If you wrote me a love letter I will cry and you will be responsible,” you warn. He laughs.

“Open it.”

Gently you lift the flap of the envelope and pull out a folded piece of paper. As you unfold it you find that the paper is blank, but in the middle is a ticket, a plane ticket from Seoul to Seattle and then another from Seattle to… New York.

“You didn’t…” you say, blinking back tears.

“You said you wanted to go to one of our shows. And you’re always talking about going to New York, so I just thought it would be nice.”

“It’s fantastic,” you say, teary eyed. Setting the papers down on the bed, you get up and hug Taehyun, who immediately pulls you closer to him. “Thank you so much.”

“Of course,” he says. “This means I get to see you sooner.”

You smile despite the tears rolling down your cheeks. Taehyun has always been so attentive and kind and you couldn’t be more grateful to have him as a part of your life.

huening kai:

You’re lying in Kai’s bed, your head resting just below the crook of his neck. He’s playing with your hair gently and you almost feel like you could fall asleep, but your stomach is weighed down by a sense of dread because in two hours Kai will be leaving and this trip will be the longest the two of you have ever gone without seeing each other.

You hadn’t said anything about it to him, not when he was so excited to be going on tour, but you can’t hold it in anymore.

“Kai?” you say softly. He hums in response and you can feel the sound in his chest where your cheek is lying. “Are you afraid?”

“Of what?” he asks, his voice laced with concern.

“Us. Our future.” You sigh. “We’ve never been apart for this long before, not even when we were friends.”

That friendship had lasted a while before he’d finally had the courage to say something, and even then, you were the one who confessed your feelings first. But that had only been three months ago. Your relationship was still relatively new and that meant it was fragile. You weren’t sure how the separation ws going to affect it.

“Are you… have you been having doubts about us?” Kai asks gently, still stroking your hair, an action that brings comfort and calm to a nerve wracking conversation.

“I’m just worried. Our whole friendship started because we were seeing each other so often and now we’re together nearly every day. What’s going to happen when we don’t have that anymore?”

“We can still call. I know it's not the same, but it’s something. And this isn’t going to last forever. I’ll be back before you know it,” he says and you can hear his smile. He sounds completely confident and it’s soothing your worries. If he believes in you, then you believe in him and your relationship. 

“Until then, I guess you’ll have to survive without me,” you tease and Kai laughs breathily.

“How will I ever manage?”

You smile and settle back into his side, his body warm and his presence inviting. For a few minutes, you just draw shapes on his chest and enjoy this moment, trying to make it last as long as possible. Kai is the one who breaks the silence.

“You know, if it ever gets too much I can always fly you out to see me.”

“I don’t think you’re allowed to do that bubs,” you say with a soft smile.

“I’m the maknae, I get special privileges,” he says and you laugh.

“Whatever you say love.”

Two hours later, you’re standing with Kai by the door. His suitcase has already been wheeled off by a staff member and Taehyun took his backpack. He’s the last one left in the dorm, but he can’t seem to let you go. 

“Kai,” you say, your arms around his waist as he holds you close to his chest. “Everyone’s waiting.”

“They can wait a little longer,” he says, kissing the top of your head. So the two of you stand together, holding each other and even after Kai finally steps away, you feel content. You know he’s yours, the same way you’re his. Time and distance can’t change that. You’ll always find your way home to each other.

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ateez first "i love you" moments

hongjoong:

realizes he loves you when you bring him breakfast after he spent the whole night in his studio

you stay to watch him work but end up falling asleep on his couch

he thinks you look adorable and can’t stop smiling at you and thinking that you’re the best partner in the world

he realizes he loves you after he turns away from his work to watch you for the fourth time in the past five minutes

he knows that what the two of you have is precious and he wants to keep you by his side for as long as you’ll have him

seonghwa:

he’s never afraid to tell you how he’s feeling, your whole relationship is built on sharing your thoughts and emotions free of judgment

so when he realizes he loves you he doesn’t shy away from his feelings

he wants to tell you as soon as possible, but he also wants it to be a special moment

he’d probably plan a night in with just the two of you, cooking dinner together and a movie after

he’d barely make it through dinner before blurting it out

once you say it back his whole mood brightens and he’d be especially affectionate after

insists on doing the dishes while you pick the movie and when you two finally settle down on the couch he’ll want you in his arms for the rest of the night

yunho:

the moment he knows is when he first introduces you to the rest of the boys

he’d love seeing you get along so well with his friends and is more than content with just sitting next to you and observing the conversation

he’d get really happy when he sees how your eyes light up whenever you make one of the boys laugh and he notices how you visibly relax the longer you’re with them

he just loves watching you get along with people he loves and that’s when he realizes that the joy he feels from seeing you interact with his loved ones comes from the fact that he loves you

yeosang:

now he’s one of the members who isn’t as open about his feelings so you’d probably have to say it first

but the second you tell him he immediately responds with a “i love you too”

it would sound so casual because to him, he’s loved you the whole time so it doesn’t fully register that you just said you love him

but after you repeat yourself, his eyes would go all wide as he realizes what you mean

he’d definitely be in high spirits the rest of the day and occasionally he’d pull you into his arms and ask “can you say it again?”

he loves hearing the words come from you, a verbal confirmation that your feelings are just as strong as his

san:

from the start of your relationship san has always been head over heels for you, but as your relationship progresses his feelings change into something much more meaningful the longer the two of you are together

because of you he realizes that love isn’t about the moments that give you butterflies or make your heart race, it's about finding comfort and trust in someone else

so he’d realize he loves you in a mundane moment

he’d just come from dance practice to surprise you and when he gets to your place you’re in the kitchen washing dishes and listening to music, singing to yourself

he’d stop in his tracks, full on freezing up as he realizes how deeply he cares about you

he’d say “i love you” right then and there (it would scare you out of your skin because you didn’t even hear him come in)

once you recover from the initial shock, you’d realize what he said and he’d just smile at you and tell you that you don’t have to say it back if you don’t want to, he just wanted to tell you

but you say it back easily and he’d spend the rest of the night glued to your side

mingi:

this man would be completely devoted to you from the very beginning of your relationship

he feels everything very strongly so when he first realizes he loves you it might overwhelm him, wondering if maybe he’s “in too deep”

but he wouldn’t hide these worries from you and instead would bring it up immediately

with reassurance that there’s no such thing as feeling “too much” and that you love him too his insecurity would fade

reminds you how much he loves you CONSTANTLY

so much that you start Han Soloing him and saying “i know” when he tells you he loves you because you know how much he loves you 

he’ll never let you forget how much you mean to him

wooyoung:

he’d realize he loves you when he decides he wants you to meet his family

it’s an intimate step in any relationship and wooyoung’s family is so important to him so the fact that he wants you to meet them is a show of trust

when he realizes it, he’d keep it to himself at first, wanting to wait for the perfect moment

just for it to slip out when his little brother runs to hug you before him and he sees the smile on your face

you wouldn’t realize what he said at first, and you’d only process it once you’ve already entered the house and can’t talk to him about it

you’d wait until the two of you leave before bringing it up in the car asking him if he really meant it

he’d immediately tell you he did and then he’d say it again

gets flustered when you say it back but pretends he’s fine (his ears are red which gives him away)

jongho:

i mentioned this in my ateez as boyfriends post but he seems like the kind of person who needs to know someone really well before starting a relationship with them

because of this, he’d love you from the very beginning

but he’d prefer to show you his love rather than say it

but the second you say it to him he’ll say it back

and it’ll probably be paired with a confession that he’s loved you for a long time

not much would change once you’ve said it to each other, he’d continue treating you like a princess

but the more time that passes the more he realizes he’s going to love you for a long time

[taey0ngsvape]

ateez as boyfriends

hongjoong

He’s very busy, constantly at the studio producing something new or at dance practice perfecting something for a new stage. He has very little free time, and I think he’d show his love for you by devoting every spare minute to being with you.

Shows you that you are just as important to him as being an idol and that he wants to spend as much time together as he possibly can.

I think he’d like your hands a lot, playing with your fingers, tracing shapes on the back of your hand or on your palm. Probably his favorite type of skinship tbh, it’s something subtle but gentle and lovely.

seonghwa

Dotes on you a lot, is always asking if you’ve eaten or slept enough.

But he also trusts you and totally believes you’re capable of handling things without his help. He just likes to offer it, a small reminder of how much he cares about you.

Will want to build legos with you.

He likes sharing his hobbies. Doing something he loves with the person he loves? Nothing makes him happier.

yunho

LOVES your laugh and is always trying to make you smile.

Would play video games with you. On days when you don’t want to, you guys will compromise. You’ll watch him play for a little while and then he’ll let you pick the activity for the rest of the day. But he does like when you watch him play (he wants to impress you, no matter how long the two of you have been together).

Idk why but I feel like you’d bake together, that just seems like something he’d love. 

yeosang

A lot more mellow with his feelings.

Teases you a lot for how “obsessed with him you are,” especially in front of the members. But when you’re alone? He’s all over you.

Even during times when you're together but aren’t talking and you’re both doing your own thing, he wants you as close to him as possible, usually in his lap or curled up by his side. He just likes having you near.

I feel like you’d be his comfort person and he’d go to you with his problems or worries. He doesn’t expect you to fix everything, he just likes that you listen to him and are always ready to shower him in affection until he’s feeling better.

san

OBSESSED with you fr.

Is always talking about you with the other guys and bragging about something you did. Is a lil annoying about it, but you love him anyway. And all the other members love you too because you make San so happy.

Would always be so sweet to you. Greets you with a kiss, holds doors open for you, rubs his thumb on the back of your hand when he can tell you’re stressed or uncomfortable, and when it’s time to leave he never lets you go without reminding you he loves you and a quick goodbye kiss.

Literally just prime boyfriend material.

mingi

Whipped as hell.

Even after you get together he still can’t believe you’re actually his.

Stares at you a lot, but entranced by how pretty you are and how much he loves you.

Which by the way, he definitely says “I love you” first and when you said it back he looked so happy you thought he might cry.

You definitely would tease him about being head over heels for you and he’d own up to it every time, completely turning it on you and telling you how “you’re so perfect how could I not fall for you?” until you’re the one blushing. 

wooyoung

Genuinely is like a best friend to you.

You trust him so much and you feel so carefree around him. He brings you a sense of comfort.

Very touchy, likes having you in his arms at all times. Likes it when you sleep over just so he can fall asleep next to you.

Is constantly making you laugh.

The two of you together encourage each other’s behavior, meaning you’re everyone else’s worst nightmare, but at the end of the day, the other boys love you because of how much joy you bring. You and Wooyoung together are bright enough to put the sun to shame.

jongho

Very domestic.

I feel like he would want to know you very well before ever making things official, and because of that you have a very deep and understanding relationship from the very beginning.

Likes playing with your hair, whether you’re cuddled up with him watching a movie or you’re in his lap rambling about something.

Sings you to sleep for sure and gets all blushy when you compliment his voice.

I feel like he’d get flustered pretty easily whenever you compliment him in front of the members. It’s harder to get the same reaction when it’s just the two of you, but there are certain things that you know can make him melt, like telling him you love his voice.

[taey0ngsvape]

hi! how are you? :))

could you erite something about sleeping (like cuddling, sleepover) with riki for the first time?

only if you're okay with that!

thank you and take care!!

goodbye<33

i'm doing well! thank you so much for the request :)

you can find it here !

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and i like you

“we move in the tree streets, i like it if you stay”

requested by anon pairing: riki x reader genre: fluff word count: 987 contains: sleepovers, humor except i’m not funny, cursing, food, cuddling

The whole reason you and the rest of the boys were out was because they were supposed to be taking you home. However, instead you ended up down by the river surrounded by all the guys, Riki’s hands wrapped securely around your own. He wasn’t big on holding hands, especially not in front of the others, but there was something special about tonight. You couldn’t quite figure out what it was, but you were glad to see that he felt it too. 

You feel safe and comfortable with all of them here. Even though you had been with Riki for less than a year, you’d grown close with all the guys and they all treated you like a best friend.

You laugh as Jake dares Sunghoon to jump in the river for the fourth time in the last ten minutes alone.

“Ignoring the fact that it’s cold as fuck, there are probably like… undiscovered diseases in that water,” Sunghoon says, playfully shoving Jake.

“If you survived you’d be a scientific miracle.”

Sunghoon glares at him.

“Speaking of being cold, can we please go back?” Jungwon asks, his arms wrapped tightly around himself. He was the only one who hadn’t brought a coat and instead was only wearing a sweatshirt. 

Now that Jungwon had mentioned it, you were cold. Your cheeks and ears were probably red and you were beginning to lose feeling in your toes. Unfortunately, after your walk, you all were now much closer to the dorms than to your own place.

“Let’s go back,” Jake agrees. 

Next to you, Sunoo says, “What about getting her home?” he jerks his thumb at you.

“I can catch a bus,” you offer, but instantly the idea is shot down.

“Not this late you’re not,” Heeseung says.

You didn’t want to force the rest of them to walk you home, especially when Jungwon looked ready to freeze to death. But you knew it was probably unsafe to go home by yourself. 

“Do you want to stay?” Riki asks. He’s trying to sound casual, and for a second you’re convinced, but when you look at him he’s chewing his lip nervously.

“Is that alright?” you ask. He nods.

“That’s definitely a better idea than you going home this late at night,” Jay says. 

So the group of you all head back to the dorms together, Riki still holding your hand.

“Do you want to take my bed?” he asks as you arrive.

“Depends,” you hum. “Will you be in it? I wanna cuddle.”

Riki pretends to roll his eyes. “You’re so obsessed with me.”

“Actually, I would just like someone to keep me warm. Sunghoon was right. It’s cold as fuck.”

“Fine,” he huffs, but the tips of his ears are red, though you know if you point it out he’ll just blame it on the cold.

You borrow one of his shirts to sleep in along with a pair of sweatpants. In the bathroom you brush your teeth with a spare toothbrush. You didn’t expect it, but you’re nervous. You’d taken naps with Riki on the couch before, but this was different. You’d never spent the night. What if you were intruding?

Before you can spiral into your thoughts, there’s a soft knock at the door. 

“I’ll be in my room,” Riki says, sounding normal as ever. You can’t help but smile to yourself, the sound of his voice comforting you. 

“Alright,” you call out. You shake any negative thoughts out of your head. This was just Riki. Your dumb, adorable boyfriend who loves you. 

The first time he said it you hadn’t even heard him he’d been so quiet. His nerves got the better of him and he hadn’t tried again until three days later. It wasn’t until after you had assured him you loved him too that he told you about the first failed attempt. You’d both laughed about it and moved on. You’re sure that in the future you’ll laugh at yourself for being so nervous.

When you open his door, he’s already in bed scrolling through his phone. His eyes light up when he sees you and immediately he puts his phone down, smiling at you. He pulls back the blankets so you can crawl underneath. You lie down, facing him as he turns out the light and rolls over to look at you.

“Sorry we couldn’t get you home,” he says sheepishly.

“It’s okay. I had more fun with you guys anyway.”

He smiles, reaching out to tuck your hair behind your ear. “Even though it was cold?”

“You kept my hand warm at least,” you say.

“You’re welcome,” he says, moving a little closer to pull you against his chest. All his movements are steady and sure but his pounding heart gives him away. You can’t help but smile and nuzzle into his chest.

“Is this okay?” he asks, his voice hardly above a whisper.

You smile, leaving back to look him in the eye. “Perfect,” you say and his lips pull into a smile. You cup his cheek with your hand and pull him into you.

His kisses are always comforting and he holds you close. He doesn’t treat you like you’ll break, which you’re grateful for. He isn’t timid, he’ll always let you know he loves you.

His lips are slow and tender and he runs his hands through your hair. When you break apart, he holds you close for a second, your noses brushing before kissing you once more, just a quick peck, before settling into the pillows and smiling at you.

“Still okay?” he asks.

You cuddle against him, his arms instinctively wrapping around your waist. 

“Still perfect.”