#14.07.20

[internalizas]

eu só não quero que as coisas dêem errado como da última vez

mas assim como antes não depende só de mim

não depende só de nós

por favor, não estraguem tudo

[verso-abstracto]

— "Me desagradan tanto las personas que creen saber lo que es «mejor para mí»".

_mjavy_

[sleepsucks]

[leeminholinoing]

14.07.20: recap

harry is MIA

louis is MIA

[bekindtoyou4007]

Good day today. Got my devices set up for paperless working, edited, mopped the floors, made lunches for me and C tomorrow and did the dishes. I spent the evening having a shower and applying a cooling coconut mask to my eye area. Watched a few episodes of Unbreakable and read a chapter of my book this evening to unwind. Tomorrow leaving the house for biggest work journey since mid March but keeping myself calm where possible. It'll be nice to try something new after so much home working.

[transparentvisionglitters]

I still don't know whether I'm nonbinary or a trans boy, and it's getting on my nerves.

I know I want top surgery, I just fucking want to yeet the teets.

I know I want to go on T.

I'm much more happy when people see me as male and call me he/him than when they see me as a girl.

However, I also like confusing people. I have no desire to appear hypermasculine, I'm also completely fine with androgyny. I like they/them as well. If I could, I'd just delete the concept of gender from the world.

I say I'm trans. I say I want to be called by he/him pronouns. I desperately want to appear more masculine than I do now. However, I fail to see myself as a man/boy. I just can't. It feels like something's wrong with me.

[thewalking-blog]

beni yalnız yalnızlığım çoğaltır.

[ellasgedankenkarussell]

Nicht genug

Alles, was ich mache, reicht nicht.

Ich kann nicht mehr.

- Ella