#247: task4

[sehun247]

✉ letter to the past

you dumb fuck,

don’t be a fucking idiot. life isn’t that bad, but you know you do some dumb shit. you’re a well-known model instead of half-assed, just don’t expect to get there without a little help. financially.

you’re going to be a fucking slut, so just embrace it. but maybe stop sleeping with people’s dads. it just gets weird after a while.

you’re going to get some ‘mandatory help,’ so maybe you shouldn’t have been so dumb and obvious. stop puking in the school bathrooms. stop getting high in the middle of class. people notice that shit.

love is still a joke. you used to want to fall in love but don’t be a fucking pussy and get over that - there’s no one worthy of you anyway. remember don’t talk to your therapist. just fuck him.

jongin is still cool despite you sleeping around with his family. yang isn’t worth getting mad about. don’t be so hard on june, he’s cute. minho is still hot. jinwoon is still complicated. you’re gonna stay mad at certain fucks but you should be glad it happened just because you learned not to trust people.

in general everyone is the same even if they’re trying not to be. including you. you have an image now but nothing has changed. you’re still always high and you still don’t eat.

- your future loser self

[247jiyong]

Dear boy who I used to be,

Firstly, a tiny encouragement — you still won’t know how to start letters.

Although now you seem someone completely different, do not fear those changes. You will become a bit more wiser and less reckless, however, you will have a weakness for making bad choices nevertheless. Parents will be there for you to cover them up and save their own reputation. Life isn’t always sweet and careless but that’s something you’ve seen for yourself, haven’t you?

I remember that you weren’t so sociable before high school. In fact, you were afraid of making friends, since you thought that every single person in this world was attracted solely to the prestige your name was associated with. Your money will work like magnet on many, yet don’t distance yourself so much. Jinwoon will stay by your side no matter what and loyalty will unite you two for years. Look, there’s already a person you can’t rely on!

High school will be tough for you, I’m not going to sugarcoat. But you will go through joyous moments as well. Honestly, you will be more busy with partying than schoolwork. Thanks to that you won’t be getting enough sleep but what are classes for if not naps? At some point there will be a circle of friends you will find yourself in. The Empire. It might sound fancy to you but unfortunately it’s only the first impression. Eventually you will fall for one of the girls you’ll be hanging out with.

You and your girlfriend will look like a true idol-like couple what will overwhelm you later on. It shouldn’t be a surprise but you will break up with her. A little too late, though. Have I mentioned that you won’t be so faithful to her? And it won’t be one of her female friends to whose arms you’ll escape but a guy’s. Oh, the thought of him will haunt you until this very day.

Every empire suffers a downfall in the end and I think you can’t be fully prepared for that.

Only after graduating you and Seunghyun will be almost inseparable. It can be said that your humble dream will come true. You’ve always wanted to have a friend like him instead of those who would just care about your family background. You will regret ignoring him earlier but better late than never, right?

If your life becomes a disaster, say fuck it and go on.

Good luck, Ji.

The present you, who still has no damn clue how not to get in trouble.

[kookie247-blog]

from, the future.

dear me.

where do i start? you did a good job at avoiding people on cheongnam, only because you were afraid of getting judged. so i guess my first advice is that you need to try. not try for people to like you for who you are not, but try to grow. you’ve only grown out of your shell after what you’ve gotten yourself into. or what the devil had gotten you to do.

try to do things the safe way. i know without mom and dad and hyung around was hard, but you need to survive with means that will not threaten your life or your sanity. trust me, you have to stay safe for your own sake.

seek for help. immediately. because honestly, growing up sucked for you. you had to work hard, multiple jobs here and there. you have to admit that it’s not easy being on your own. it’s really not. so don’t be afraid to ask for help. tell your friends that you’re struggling, and don’t hide everything with a smile.

learn to know who you are. don’t lose sight of the things that you want and the things that you don’t want to lose. cherish them while you can.

you weren’t that problematic, honestly. you goofed up badly with your ex-girlfriend, and goofed up way more after mom and dad were gone. so i guess my last piece of advice is to learn how to deal with sadness.

because you’re going to deal with that a lot, in the future.

best of luck,

jeonggukie.

[247xbora]

Little star.

Dear Bora,

Hi. It’s me. You from many years from now. I just want to tell you that I’m sorry. You don’t need to be so hard on yourself. You don’t have to try so hard on making everything perfect. Falling and failing doesn’t mean you can’t do great things in the future, so dry your tears, little one. You’ve only just begun. Don’t blame yourself that your friends are fighting, things happen and people have their own reasons as to why things have to end and why certain things were started.

Stay stubborn. Your dad will always baby you. He will have his people follow you because he thinks you’re still a little girl who needs to be protected. Annoying, isn’t it? Your mom is a beautiful and lovely woman. Good thing you never tell her about the boys you meet. And you never should tell her unless it’s really serious. You know how your parents are literally best friends and once your mother accidentally tells your father about it, expect that within a day or two, you’ll know about this guy’s family background and criminal records, if he has some. 

Also, you little brat. Stay calm. Don’t panic easily and don’t let your anger reach your head. You’ll bring people a lot of trouble with that. Tsk. Don’t let people get in your veins either. You know more than anyone how dangerous it will get for them more than you. So behave!

I know, you just wanted to be loved for who you are but honey, you deserve better so don’t settle for anything less. You’ll meet people who will leave you easily and won’t regret it. Don’t hold on them. You’ll only hurt yourself with false hope they will give you. Sooner or later, you’ll achieve your dream too. Don’t worry so much.

I’m still looking for the true love we’ve been dreaming of since that very first Disney movie we’ve watched. He may not be as dashing or as perfect like every leading man in all kdramas you’ve watched or as dazzling as the models you’ll be working with in the future ( TRUST ME, THERE WILL BE A LOT! LOOK FORWARD TO IT! ), but he’s probably out there. Somewhere. I’ll write to you again when I meet him and stay happy little star. You will be able to shine brightly on your own someday. Someday, indeed.

Yours truly, The Bora you will come to be in the future. ✩

[x247sumin]

caught in a lie // solo

i’m still the same me the me from before is still h e r e but the lie that’s gotten too big is trying to s w a l l o w me up

dear the younger me who lives in the past, 

high school is where you will begin a new phase in your life—you would probably be surprised but fear not, that’s only because you’ve been quiet for so long. your father still hasn’t changed, he’s still the abusive man he was years ago and your mother will always be there for you, don’t worry. those kids won’t stop bullying you though, but somehow you’ve grown a bit braver than you were in middle school and so you will stand up for yourself. it’s a very huge risk to take because you know they can do anything to bring you down again and again while you got nothing to use against them, but at least you realize this isn’t right, you don’t deserve to be treated badly just because you came from a poor family.  

life will get tough here and then so endure it. people will come and go in your life, you’ll lose friends in the meantime but believe me, not everyone will leave you. try not to get pissed off so easily at everything, will you? it’ll make keeping out of trouble a lot easier and your mother won’t have to show up in the principal’s office ever so often too. you’ll do just fine… until it’s your final year in high school. something bad will happen and you can’t run from it. 

it might be hard for you to deal with it, you can blame this on your so-called father for the rest of your life you’ll have sleepless nights and tears to accompany you, sometimes it can be suffocating but you’ve grown even stronger and you have your mother by your side, nothing else could matter more. you’ll lost more people in your life, but this time you’re the one leaving instead of them, breaking their hearts first before they could break yours. there will be pain and scars but they couldn’t bring you down even the slightest, not anymore.

things would get a tad bit better after a while once you graduate… but that won’t last for long. you’ll lose the only person you can fully depend on, it’ll be harder to live, you’ll think that you have nobody else but that’s not true. you just have to stop being so fucking selfish and let those people in. don’t be afraid to open up, nobody could help you if you don’t say a thing. 

shit does happen sometimes but that’s just how life is. you’ll suffer a bit, more like a lot but you’ll have good things coming for you. you’ll meet amazing people, you’ll get a job that you like, you’ll probably find something, or even someone, great that will change your life. be strong and don’t worry about a thing, life is too short for you to be sad. trust me, you’ll make it out alive. you always do anyways. if not you wouldn’t have heard this from me now, right?  

love, the future you whom you will hopefully become. 

[jaebum247]

Okay, here’s a bullshit letter to teenage me.

Yes, you may be struggling with all the jobs and helping your parents out.. but it’s worth it. You still get all the girls so dont worry. You end up building your own company called AOMG Records, you have a very close friend, Kim Hyuna, she’s amazing so don’t ruin shit.

But, back to the highschool life. Yes, you may get slapped around because of the girls and you may have no time or sleep. But, you were always dedicated and hard working.

With family.. you tried your best. You always stuck by their side no matter what. You loved them with everything and supported them with everything. Yes, they do die but it’s only of old age. Your parents... The most important people in your life.. if it wasn’t for them, you would never be who you are now.

They helped you rise up to the top with your company AOMG Records. It was their idea when no one would accept your troublemaker self in their agencies.  You meet so many people and they help you produce your music. You finally start becoming popular making enough money for both yourself and your parents. When meeting people you meet Kim Hyuna, she’s the only person that will really accept you for who you are.

Don’t give up even though it’s tough.. you have people who are there for you. They will help you get through it.

[247junhoe-blog]

Little boy with big dreams,

In a few years more people will call you June more often than Junhoe and there will be several reasons for that. It will be one of the many major changes you will undergo. But you will be proud of those, I promise.

You have the world on your fingertips — don’t be afraid to grab it. You’ll find out that the universe is also yours. You have so much to offer but you don’t know it yet. You are greater than you think.

Patience is the key, it’s been your motto for a long time and you should stick with it. Right now you’re busy with reading manifold books and you get lost in them when the reality is way too much for a young man like you to deal with but one day you will publish your own. Sometimes you hurriedly scribble fleeting thoughts and ideas in your notebook, you happen to write poems and then hide them in a drawer, don’t you? I have satisfying news for you. Those will find their place in your very first volume of poems. Wait for that.

Your name won’t be echoing in the hallways as remarkably as others’ but it certainly isn’t a is tragedy for you. High school won’t start too well for you. Taehyung, your closest friend with whom you share every secret you keep, you will ditch him for the sake of hanging out with the marauders. You will hope that their company will help you forget about how rough Cheongnam is and you will wish they will successfully fill the hole after the loss — they won’t.

Among them all, you will find a good friend in Yoori. Though, you will blindly look up to the rest, especially Jongin and Sehun who won’t have the best effect on you. You will want to be their replica, so you won’t be seen as a stray puppy that follows them everywhere. Yet it’s not who you are, Junhoe. You weren’t born a marauder.

Once you graduate, you’ll think you can finally cut those ties and start with a carte blanche. The past will keep on coming back at you. Again and again. Sooner or later, you’ll get accustomed to that.

Stay strong.

Sincerely, Your future self (someone you hopefully won’t be ashamed of).

[seunghyun247-blog]

to the younger me,

i know things are really hard for you at this time... i remember how long the days were, how irritating school was. i remember how it never seemed to end and no one else ever seemed to care, except when it benefited themselves, except when they could use things to their own advantages... i know things seem impossible right now, but (and as cliche as this is) it does get better.

sure, you won't get the girl you like, she actually really is sort of a bitch, and you will always end up making more enemies than friends, more people who look down on you than praise you, but... there will be some surprising outcomes as well! you'll befriend people you didn't ever think you could-- like park sooyoung! she's the number one girl in the plastics, right? guess what, she actually ends up helping you loose all that weight and starts acting in films with you! you two become good friends.

and that guy who always asleep in math class yet still manages to ace those tests-- the one you begrudgingly admire, yeah-- he becomes your best friend. you and jiyong end up doing almost everything together, he's pretty great.

and that's not even the best part. being an actor means you get into award shows, open art galas, stand on your own two feet and enjoy life. hold onto that. there's nothing better than smiling back at fans who are just so excited to see you, for no reason at all. they are all so adorable, your fans, and they really like you... they really do.

life takes all sorts of twists and turns... you fall in love and get broken, yes, by actual real people who love you back at least for a while. and hardly anybody remembers that video that circulated around in junior year.

they say that high school never ends, but really just the lessons you learn in high school never end. keep your chin up okay?

p.s. ...... try to stay out of trouble maybe take some anger management classes or see a therapist or something... js yknow