#2am rambles

[katheyn]

If Damian is "Little D" and Dick is "Big D",

Is Duke like...."Medium D"? "Mid-D"?

Is he the "Perfect D" ala Goldilocks rules?

[str4wberri-mochi]

Drowning yourself in alcohol is not the healthiest way to deal with shit, it does not solve one’s problem at all but rather serves as a distraction with a price.

As a man who had seen the world change and grow right in front of his eyes, he knew emotions were a fleeting aspect of life and took quite pride at the fact of how well he managed his emotions.

But he felt a small void in his heart as he read your text 'Will stay at HOL 2night'.

It was humorous really, how the both of you managed to go three thousand years back in time, lived under the same roof and somehow- just somehow, the brothers still occupy the most of your time.

That just shows your bond with the brothers, doesn't it? And that's nice, he tries to convince himself.

Well since you're not coming tonight, might as well hit a bar right?

And now he's down under six shots, unable to walk straight, and probably red (though he can't tell). He feels a bit guilty, for coming to alcohol as a solution. But not because it crosses his morals- hah, as if he has those- it's because you scold him like a child whenever he drinks too much.

but it's alright, he'd take your scoldings as long as you're looking at him. How cute you look with that sternness in your eyes. He walked out of the bar, unsure why, but he did.

hm?

that's you.

cue a frown.

with satan.

"Hey MC!"

He exclaimed to his full ability while ignoring the demon you held hands with. It's fine he's not jealous.

Solomon isn't a jealous man.

~

[thatghostinyourbog]

THIS SCENE

THIS FUCKING SCENE

I always thought this scene SAID everything it needed to say

And I just never looked too deeply into it until now

Atsushi and his tiger are separate

They are portrayed as 2 separate beings throughout the entire show

And his ability might be like that

But if we're thinking of this from a storyteller point of view

Atsushi is the tiger

The tiger is Atsushi

In that scene atsushi admits how much he hates himself

And later Akutagawa reveals that Atsushi thinks he doesn't deserve to live unless he's helping others

But that doesn't change, atsushi just doesn't think he deserves to live. He is trying to earn to live but helping people is just keeping him alive

I think the tiger came out to help him (he helped himself) only because he finally thought he deserved to live, he was helping so many people and in that moment he realised this gives him a right to live

So why was that not the end of the season and his character development??

WELL I'M GLAD YOU ASKED

After all that happened SECONDS after the ENTIRE CITY was saved Atsushis main focus was still on making sure as many people lived as possible. After all that it still wasn't enough.

Then we move onto his quality bonding time with the little Victorian boy

I've already talked about Atsushi and Akus relationship so I won't say much more

But the interactions at the end of season 2

Aku not only figured out Atsushi was trying to make it so he deserved to live he also told him how stupid it was

Atsushi and Aku need to hear things like this

Natural behaviours and beliefs they have from their trauma are stupid, but they have so much weight to them neither of them can help but live by those things and sometimes it takes your rival to go up to you, stab you in the shoulders, and say you're stupid for you to think somewhat rationally

Aku tells Atsushi he doesn't have to live his life by other people's morals

He does actually have a choice

With Atsushis past at the orphanage hearing this must've felt like being hit by a truck

Atsushi realised he can have his own morals and he's free to help or kill whoever he pleases

Aku shows Atsushi that he is free

Now there isn't a set way to overcome trauma or improve your mental wellbeing

God everyone wishes there were but that's just life

And I think that's what bsd is

It's people trying to overcome their trauma

People trying to get better

People who seem to be worse at just living than others

Imo bsd is about getting better

Some characters won't

Some will

Some people won't get better

Some will

Bsd is so special because of that fact

It's the only show I've seen that is aimed towards people who simply find living more difficult than others

This is the show you watch when you feel completely alone

The characters are written so well and they're so different from eachother but they all are still suffering

It covers topics that the viewers probably thought they were entirely alone in even thinking about

(My thoughts were all over the place I can't figure out a better way to put all this together so just suffer through the edited thoughts of my brain)((Yea imagine how I feel I have to suffer through the completely unedited ones))

Atsushi views the tiger way higher than himself

The tiger represents the part of Atsushi who no matter what will help others

Atsushi himself does not believe he is such a good person

He doesnt believe he is as good as he is, he believes he can harm to people when in reality he would never be able to bring himself to hurt others

The tiger represents Atsushis natural good nature

And Atsushi himself represents all his doubts and worries and feelings of worthlessness

He thinks he is such a bad person he has separated the natural good things about himself and put them into his ability

Which is why in dead apple he seemed so lost and helpless

For half the movie he was following Aku and Kyouka around unsure of what to do

And once he faced his trauma and got his ability back he realised he doesn't HAVE to be such a good person

He doesn't have to be this perfect being who saves everyone and doesn't let anyone suffer

He learns he has to fight

He learns he has to kill some people and there's no way around it

That doesn't make him a bad person

It just makes him human

And this is what he realises at the end of the movie

It's also what he shows Dazai right at the start and the end with those little interactions they have

Atsushi never doubted Dazais humanity

They're all just human

And they're all trying to live to be better people

[windmilltothestars]

The Hadestown versions of Hades and Persephone are like the dark, toxic shadow archetype of Aulë and Yavanna. Where instead of the generosity and humility that Aulë has with regard to his creations, he's consumed by the great Tolkienian sins of 'pride and possessiveness' and his creations are only a means of increasing his power. And rather than Yavanna being one of the most active and insistent Valar who's constantly doing damage control in Middle-earth and on everyone's case to do something about the problem, Persephone detaches and sedates herself into oblivion to cope. And instead of respecting each other's needs and separate skills, balancing each other out, and being supportive of the lives and purposes they have outside each other, they have a battle of wills and build up distance and resentment and mistrust, scorning and trying to overpower each other's creations and influence on the world. I know in many ways Hades maps more naturally onto Melkor and Yavanna onto Demeter, but the Mining, Earth and Technology Guy x Mother Nature and Plant Gal marriage allure was too strong, and it's a fun take to overthink <3

[pleasestopnamesaredifficult]

"Rebellions are built on Hope". The message Andor is bringing to everyone he meets.

Cassian may attribute his mission successes to luck and not discounting the badass decisive infiltration & saboteur skills but a bigger part is being who he is in connecting with people and placing them or inspiring them on the Rebellion is what makes him special especially in earning trust with all the secrecy compartmentalization maze going on.

Diego Luna's expressions of earnest desperation to win just have this intensity that makes that message come across too especially when telling Mon Mothma to make it worth it. That they have to win which has been layers of resolve "gathering" of many sacrifices of others which gives this basis of hope for the better days because it has to mean something or it would just be more senseless death.

The Yavin force healer probably sees clarity from Cassian because he carries others' hope to fight back and win for all their sacrifices to mean something.

The thing that stood out to me most was the fact he is able to connect with the people easily in general but specifically in meeting people where they are at and inspiring or quelling a doubt to help move them along to find the resolve to rebel if not already doing so. He is also "gathering" others resolve to share that message of hope to make it worth it in the end because it's a snowball from Aldhani being the catalyst to the avalanche of a rebellion alliance.

[polytriocanon]

Thinking about how all three of the trio are really jealous (and also a little insane).

Thinking about them finally realizing they like one another and being hopelessly confused and jealous and afraid of ruining their friendship or being abandoned if the other two got together.

Thinking about them actually getting together and feeling like they’re inevitably going to break up or someone is going to feel left out.

Thinking about how they grow into the relationship and their feelings and learn how to communicate.

Thinking about how the dynamic is rough and tense at first because they’re insecure teens learning how to express themselves, and how it gets healthier over time.

Thinking about how they become so comfortable that they stop needing to communicate as much with words because they trust one another and feel safe and secure. And they just GET one another

Thinking about how nothing including death can separate them because platonic or romantic or whatever they’re soulmates

[whyarewecalledtheshipname]

okay but how did kh2 sora fuckin /survive/ his reunion with riku, howd he survive having fuckin KH2 RIKU fuckin smiling at him all the damn time??? physically. how. god

[chrissy-kaos]

Losing yourself

Feeling too powerless to change

Stuck and unable to escape

Incapable to see another way

I need someone to shake me, to wake me

I don't even need full clarity

Just to start the shift from blind to blurry