“Did you met kids who will be grumpy if they do not get attention?”
I found this kind of the kids, anywhere and anytime. Hi, Kids, hope you grow-up soon. Let me introduce to you, these kids are Mai, Fara, and Ana. When I’m open my eyes and then this world tries to tull me. Even though they are my best friends who have been together for 22 years, sometimes I feel disturbed with their‘ tradition’ when I try to fall asleep. Every night, they arguing who will be the one that can make up one’s mind. I will give you a piece of the discussion,
Mai, she will be crying, yelling, and screaming every night. She always asking
“why you can’t just leave this annoying man? I don’t wanna you to be a neglect. You can’t be like that. If he not interest to you just go out from your life, you must be the one who can take revenge and make him suffer”
“No, even you feel he is annoying and neglect to you. Maybe he just hectic with him real life. Perhaps he never intended to do that. ”
also Mai talking while crying,
“You know, i just wanna be happy. I wanna be with someone who can make me laugh every day. No tears, no arguing, and also the man who won’t me busy with wonder every day like why he clam up to me.”
Fara just smiling and she makes a speech,
“Wake up girl. This is the real world. You’re not a part of a Disney Princess who will be with a prince charming, wealthy, handsome, and emotionless man.”
“Is it wrong if I just want to be happy?”
and finally Ana taking a part of this discussion,
“I know you have a falling love and one second later you just fall apart. You’re not the center of the world. Do you really never feel happy when you with him? sure? even once time? I feel like you don’t get what you need: attention. And then you feel your existence is not considered and this is your ‘selfish’ side. You feel defeated just because you’re not the number one. And you feel guilty about your decision.”
And my bad, I can’t take apart with their discussion. Maybe they are will be by my side until I’m dying. Sometimes these kids can make me laughing and then crying with helplessness. Perhaps, these kids to remain me that I have childishness. Especially Mai, when someone neglects me, she will yelling “You’re not worthy of everything in the world.” As a “grown-up” I have to be careful with them. Even though they need attention.
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