Day 60/61: Your mind, your prison. Yesterday, I found myself in the company of old and new friends and the topic of Ayahuasca come up. Let’s call her Anja said she would love to do it but she can’t. I asked her why? She said, it’s not for me, I don’t like throwing up, I don’t like feeling sick, etc. I responded no one does, it’s not necessarily a pleasant journey but that’s where its power lies on. We don’t learn when things are good, we learn when things are difficult, the same applies to this medicine. Then she went on to explain what’s wrong with Ayahuasca, how it is dangerous, etc. I asked her how she knows all these things and she said that she has been told and read a lot about it. I said how can you talk about something you have not experienced, how do you know? She said I know. I responded you believe you know but you really don’t. Then she said, I’m on your side, I want to do it but I really can’t. As I was listening to this contradiction that Anja was expressing in the very same sentence - even once literally saying that she wants to and the next second she doesn’t want to - I started getting tense. I have no gain whether she would be doing Ayahuasca or not yet I could not help it pointing out that she’s standing in her own way. This was not about Ayahuasca or not this was about saying I really want to and then coming up with excuses why you can’t. It felt important to point this out to her. Yet she did not want to hear it so the tension in the room increased. We were triggering each other as we likely also spoke about different things. For me it was a frustrating that a) I was misunderstood in what I tried to show her and b) that she could not see how she is holding competing beliefs that are holding her back to do the very same thing she wanted to do. (Earlier in the evening I had noticed the same competing beliefs around relationships). As things were escalating with both sides getting more frustrated and tense, … Continued in comments 2/3 . . . . #400daysofsurrender #mind #beliefs #limitingbeliefs #competingbeliefs #prison #thoughts #consciousness #wakingup #fighting #peace #compassion #energy #contradiction #freedom #thought (at Prison) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHkwhTsHKxr/?igshid=14qim36xxm1gf















