I think someone already said this, but it's worth saying again: you don't get to decide how you made your kids feel. If your child says, "You made me feel stupid," you don't get to decide that you didn't. It may have been unintentional, yes, but it still happened. Instead of getting defensive, it is far better to calmly determine with your child what caused them to feel stupid so that you can learn from your mistakes and not make your child feel stupid again.
I see this a lot with parent-child relationships, but it applies to all relationships. You may not have meant to make someone feel a certain way, but you did. Often, that doesn't even mean that you did anything objectively wrong; there was simply a miscommunication. Whatever it was, it still hurt someone else, and whether or not you are willing to discuss what happened says much more about you than the discussed feeling itself.
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I stuck to my meal plan pretty well today. I just switched out my original chicken to a meatless chicken and added a small slice of cake. I also stayed pretty well within my macros and fueled well enough for the workout I did at the gym.
I’m restarting my weight loss journey I guess since my goals have changed a bit and am putting my new starting weight at 139lbs. (I’ve been eating like an asshole last week and this weekend and need to get that in check real quick). I’ll do my next weigh in on Friday morning. First goal is to be back down 5lbs and we’ll go from there.
I’m really tired now but I’ll try to do more personal posts to update you guys and when I finally find my measuring tape I’ll do body measurements.
I first heard keto rolling off the tongues of bodybuilding bros, who had previously preached of intermittent fasting, and paleo before that. Then I saw reformed Weight Watchers moms and Beach Body stans posting keto recipes on Pinterest. “Oh, hell, it’s taken over.”
- As a side note, I have taken my swing at just about every diet out there, so I’m not judging anyone, or brushing off anyone’s lifestyle choices. I’m not bashing keto, and I wish it was something I could have done successfully. I had a lot of hope for it. -
I didn’t try keto until I read some articles on a PCOS blog that I came across while anxiously google searching some weird symptoms that I had been dealing with for a while. Hypochondriac eyes wide open, I read some comments that keto, being low carb, could be beneficial for PCOS symptoms as sugar is a little devil that wreaks havoc on hormones. Now, I don’t have a diagnosis of PCOS, but I have documented issues with hormones, as well as with blood sugar, and I figured this was it. The golden ticket. Keto was the freeway entrance onto my fitness journey. I wasn’t going to struggle with chronic yeast infections. I wasn’t going to binge anymore, the internet told me, because my blood sugar wasn’t going to spike and cause binge urges. My sugar cravings were going to go away entirely.
I was googling furiously. I love rules, and I wanted to find every rule that I could possibly adhere to.
I headed to the grocery store and picked up meat, cheese, heavy cream, natural peanut butter. I mean, you know already.
I was ready.
Now I’m sure you all know that Florida was hit by a hurricane a few months ago. Conveniently just a few weeks after I had begun my keto dabbling. In preparation for the hurricane, I went to Sedano’s and bought every fatty item I could get my hands on. Chicharrones and cheeses and canned meats. I left thinking I was heavily prepared.... Then the lights went out in the house and opening the refrigerator wasn’t a good idea because the word around town was the lights would be out for a while. They were. Nearly a week at my house. To make this long story short, I had to eat carbs. It was all there was to eat.
I kept trying for a while after, but struggled. Carbs came back like the nasty BEASTS they are and sabotaged me at the end of each day, despite all of my work. And then, I just gave up. I didn’t have any energy to work out. And the less I worked out, the more sluggish I felt, until I looked at my boyfriend one evening and said, “forget it. I’m not meant to be fit because if I was it wouldn’t have been this much of a struggle.” And struggle it has been. For years.
Keto was a major struggle for me, too, because my stomach reacts horribly to dairy, and to some extent, meat. Maybe there was another rule I should have been following, but dairy and meat sink in my stomach like swallowing rocks and my belly puffs out so far it presses into the counter when I’m standing against it.
So I quit keto. And now I’m just eating. Last night I told myself I wanted to avoid dairy, because I know for certain that it affects me. All day today I prepared dairy-free meals and snacks and then, out of habit or otherwise, squeezed tzatziki on my chicken pita without even giving it a second thought. Immediately upon the realization I sucked my teeth in frustration, but thought ‘what can I do now? It’s already sinking down onto the lettuce.’ and ate it anyway. In case you're wondering, I do regret it.
To be fully honest, I just completely fell off, but I kept thinking of my Tumblr, like, ‘they’re probably so disappointed in me. I’m mad phony for reblogging fitness photos and then going to eat Christmas cookies and sit on my ass.” Today I decided I wanted to get it together. I worked out hard, ate healthy and now.... I just ate more Christmas cookies. I’m posting this because I want to feel like something’s keeping me accountable and posting here feels like the best I can do.
Wod 12/17 Biceps and core Ran 1 mile on the treadmill at 5mph with a 5 min warmup and 5 min cool down. This was also what I ate for dinner. I didn’t eat all of it, just about half since I wasn’t that hungry today. It was romaine lettuce and spinach with sweet potato and a lentil and rice mixture I made the other day. It was okay. Still trying to get over this cold or whatever it is I have. @gerinurse
So I’ll probably have gained weight this week but I think I’ve realized that what I’ve been doing is some major stress eating without realizing it because it didn’t feel like stress eating. But I’m going to try to work on reducing that stress.
However to temporarily add to that stress I decided today to trade in my 2012 VW Beetle for a 2017 Honda Civic 6 speed manual transmission. I loved my beetle very much but I could no longer support VW and I really really missed driving a stick and I wanted a backup camera and I got those things with this Honda. I’ll have pictures tomorrow hopefully.
So right now I’m having a mild panic attack hoping that I’ve made the right choice and hopefully everything will calm down. But I do love the new car.
