#achecore

[muskeww]

I keep telling myself I do not care anymore. I say it enough times that even I almost believe it. But the truth is, I notice everything. Every change in tone. Every delayed reply. Every little shift that everyone else would call insignificant.

I was never built for indifference. I just got tired of how much it hurt to care this deeply.

[crashvow]

i’m free i’m free i’m f r e e

all the things i could possibly ever be

[crashvow]

affliction

within

causes my skin, suffering

[crashvow]

nobody felt like home the way i thought you might have felt like home

that’s just my perception though

an error in my ways

a sad display of emotional dismay

dismay isn’t the right word it was expected

i’d rather be wrong than be rejected

again, the error of my ways

[crashvow]

the joy of being alive

the fear of being perceived

dual wielded

fuel leaded

coursing through

please surmise

the blood cells my body births only to know they will die

the cyclical nature of my life

[crashvow]

and you will go to church sunday morning

asking God to absolve you of your sins

never processing the mourning

that still hasn’t happened within

[crashvow]

the ache lets me know i am alive

[crashvow]

to be seen

how terrifying