being fat while growing up convinced my mind that i am fundamentally unlovable and that my existence is gross, unwanted, and hated

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being fat while growing up convinced my mind that i am fundamentally unlovable and that my existence is gross, unwanted, and hated
This may be a feedist hot take but I really wish small fat feedees would stop tagging themselves with o**se, ESPECIALLY with *extremely* as a modifier. Like, *I* think that word should be classified as a slur but I get other people in the community like it…however if you’re gonna use it can you at least be ACTUALLY in that category???? Or tag it something else if you aren’t?????
Like, not trying to shit on smaller feedees that are gaining or just doing the role play but there are ACTUALLY FAT PEOPLE HERE and you sound like that time Disco Elysium said it would be “nearly impossible” for a 440 pound person to be alive and ambulatory. It really bakes in the anti fatness into feedism in a non play way for some of us.
NO I DON'T WANT FASHION TIPS ON HOW TO HIDE MY BIG BELLY. MY BELLY IS NOT HIDE-ABLE, AND I AM NOT COSPLAYING AS A SKINNY PERSON.
I AM NOT INTERESTED IN FASHION ADVICE THAT TELLS ME HOW TO HIDE WHEN FASHION IS ALL ABOUT BEING SEEN.
I NEED A BLUEPRINT FOR HOW TO STYLE WITH MY BIG BELLY, NOT IN SPITE OF IT, YOU COWARDS.
I CAN'T HELP BUT NOTICE THIN PEOPLE DON'T GET FASHION ADVICE THAT STARTS WITH "well first of all let's completely disguise what you look like because it's disgusting, obviously" (well, old people of all body types do, but that's a post for another time). FUCK YOU. I WANT TO EMPHASIZE MY BELLY IF ANYTHING. I WILL COVER IT IN GLITTERING FISHNET AND STRIP DOWN ONSTAGE FOR THIS BURLESQUE ACT WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT.
I AM NOT AN AMATEUR. I AM A PROFESSIONAL HOT FAT BITCH. I AM NOT A HALF-MEASURE. I AM A CUP OVERFLOWING TIMES 6. I AM A MEAL THAT CALLS FOR SECONDS, THIRDS, AND SHARING. I AM BOUNTY, I AM SOFTNESS CARING, AND I AM NOT SEEKING AN AUDIENCE FOR ONLY THE FIRST 115 POUNDS OF ME.
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Nobody talks about how hard it is being fat but not obese. Like sure, I don’t usually worry about fitting on public transportation or in seats, but I’m still very aware that I take up more space than the average person and am self conscious about that. I’m not “huge” but I still am noticeably larger than all of my other friends.
I refuse to wear anything tight or bodycon because those clothes are built for people skinnier than I am and they don’t look good on me. Every dress I wear has to be cinched at the waist and have a puffy skirt or my stomach sticks out and makes me look ugly.
I was in denial for years, not only because I was a skinny kid, but I’m also at that specific level of fat person where I’m still kinda built like a wider skinny person, and I couldn’t accept that
but the worst part about that is people will deny that I am fat to make me feel better about myself. Like I said, I’m built like a wider, curvier skinny person, and the way I dress most people don’t see that as fat. But I am, I’m not muscular at all and still the number on the scale is way higher than it should be.
I’ll talk about losing weight and people will look at me like I have an ed or something, while people larger than me are encouraged to if they bring it up. I’m at that specific point where people dont encourage me to lose weight because I’m “not that fat” but they don’t see how I really look under all the layers.
I’m objectively fat, but not obese. That means I’m at the point where it kills me to see myself in the mirror but people don’t encourage me to fix it and lose weight and work out and I’m the kind of stupid person who needs approval from others to do anything
Obese people of course have their own problems and I’m not saying mine are worse than theirs, but they are always at the forefront of the body positivity movement. People like me are overlooked for “not being fat enough” but we sure as hell aren’t skinny, and we suffer too from the beauty standards and the shitty stuff that comes with being fat.
Fat people aren’t always 400 pounds, sometimes theyre under 200, and they still suffer from being fat. It’s a shame how often we’re overlooked in our own community because we’re “too skinny” for the fat people but “too fat” for everyone else. It makes us feel invisible. We still struggle, and I just never hear anyone talking about it, I feel like the only person in the world struggling with this, and I’m 15. That’s not fair, I shouldn’t be worried about this and feeling as alone as I do
did any other fat people dream about being Enduring something bad n becoming skinny then coming back to school as the coolest kid ever. or was that just Me
I unintentionally lost 20 lbs this summer after I started taking a medication and hooowee did that trigger the last desiccated shred of internalized fatphobia from deep within my brain.
I was a proud fatty. I liked my appearance, I did not avoid mirrors, I ate whatever I wanted, and I was and am active in local fat liberation groups. I have not even considered losing weight for at least 10 years.
2 days after I found out I had lost weight on accident I bought a scale and now I’m weighing myself every day and watching myself shrink with satisfaction.