#actuallyalcoholic

[ix-c-999]

[Minors DNI. Otherwise free to use with or without credit.]

[bpdrug-addict]

and maybe i wanna be drunk forever. and maybe i was meant to be like this since my drunk mother made me pour her wine after my dad left. maybe the drug abuse in front of me led me to be like this. getting drunk and high on anything i can get my hands on. I wanna lose control so bad within myself. I don't wanna have to know everything to be approved by others. I wanna lose my mind with others and feel insane and out of it.

[bpdfox]

Brain has been drifting down into the deep sads during the afternoon/evening when I'm alone. Been napping a lot and yet I'm still just so exhausted all of the time.

I've always heard "you'll feel so much better when you're sober! You'll be so much happier when you're sober! You'll have so much more energy when you're sober!" and I can't stop wondering if that will ever happen to me.

Why hasn't it happened to me? Can it happen to me? Am I even capable of feeling anything other than this discomfort and dissatisfaction with everything? Am I even capable of feeling happy at all?

Lord I wish I was still drinking, the evenings are a quiet kind of hell.

[xxangeldustanalogx]

ada accomadation that i can drink at work due to social anxiety

[redkidblues]

[cryghst]

I wish my city had more than one liquor store so the employees there wouldn’t know I have alcoholism lmaoo it’s so embarrassing but i have to go once or twice a week and just hope I don’t have the same cashier every time

[symbrock]

feeling panicked at the thought of staying sober and feeling panicked at the thought of going back to drinking i guess i'll just never know peace again

[holycores]

why did my life turn out like this? (it’s transparent)