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ok, be honest... how many of you CDD systems actually consistently track your switches?
We track every single switch
We track most switches, but we miss sometimes
it's 50/50 if we track or don't
We miss most switches, but we still try to track when we remember
We don't even try to track switches
Bald
CDD = Complex Dissociative Disorder. An umbrella term for systems with DID, OSDD-1, P-DID, DDNOS, and UDD
an hour into this, but it's so good! i really related to some of the things brought up in this presentation as a dissociative person (DID). highly recommend giving it a watch if you have the time
it is focused on how to treat dissociative patients, so the target audience is therapists and psychiatrists, but i also got something out of it as a patient
How does it feel to other systems when they switch? Here's some of our switching sensations:
Feeling like being thrown around inside our body like riding a roller coaster
Feeling like one of us dissolves into nothing and another person takes over the body (possession)
Suddenly feeling like having stepped into a foreign body
Forgetting "who we are" and feeling like we are an imposter trying to act like someone we aren't
Feeling like we are still a child trapped in our traumatic environment (flashback)
Not noticing for awhile until something/someone makes us think about it (like individual quirks, likes/dislikes, dysphoria, ect.)
Just some I thought of of the top of my head. We are still discovering more about ourselves and realising that what we are dealing with isn't normal and that we are indeed severely mentally ill. Awkward lol
Any advice for a front-stuck host?
I, the host, am fronting 95% of the time. I am more or less “permanently” front-stuck. I’ve only recently discovered that we’re a system, and as a result I’m still trying to find a way to communicate with my alters. However, I do know a few things about them that leads to me to believe that one of my alters is a particularly strict gatekeeper.
Analogue almost exclusively fronts during times of severe emotional distress and he is the the only one to do so. The switch is almost instant, especially when we’ve been triggered to have a flashback or otherwise recall a traumatic memory. But as soon as the distress has been dealt with, I’m back at the front. The emotions I felt only moments ago feel dull and the memory of what I just went through is hazy at best, if I recall it at all.
I have been able to communicate with Analogue internally more so than my other alters. He is deeply cynical and it seems like he only sees things in terms of practicality. It seems to believe that because we formed from trauma, that rationally speaking, its only purpose is to deal with emotional distress and that’s it. He’s confined to his existence as a coping mechanism, and the idea that his only purpose is to suffer so that I can survive.
And because it sees himself that way, he views the others that way as well. His purpose is to deal with emotional distress, Majora’s is to deal with our manic episodes, and Branch’s purpose is to deal with age regression. And I’m the “real” one. Because of that, I’m certain that he’s the one preventing the others from fronting outside of their role. He’s confined himself to its role, and thinks the others should be as well. I haven’t been able to properly communicate with Majora and Branch very much, so I have no idea how they feel about that.
While I understand why Analogue feels the way it does, I want my alters to be able to have lives outside of their roles. Just because my brain may have formed them as a response to trauma, that doesn’t mean they should be forced to exist solely as coping mechanisms. I don’t think I’m more “real” than them nor am I more deserving of living a happy and fulfilling life. Analogue thinks that by letting them front more often, that we would become less functional and that it would be damaging to my social life. I don’t really know what to say to that. While we do unfortunately live in an ableist society, that still doesn’t mean that my alters should be suppressed and treated unequally just so we can continue pretending to be a singlet. I know for a fact that my friends will be accepting of our existence as a system, and if not I wouldn’t wanna keep them around anyway.
I know this is all very long and rambling. But, does anyone have any advice for front-stuck hosts, and how to communicate with a gatekeeper? Any responses are appreciated
Question for pwCDD: do you personally consider your system to be covert or overt?
very covert
mostly covert
something in the middle
mostly overt
very overt
a secret other thing
not a CDD system - see results
Please only vote if you have a Complex Dissociative Disorder (DID/PDID/OSDD/DDNOS/UDD)!
This is a poll about your own experience and feelings about the terms. You don't have to base it on input from people other than yourself! Maybe this is about how you are around people you trust or when you're alone or around your pets. If you wanna base it on what reactions you've seen from people around you, that's also cool. I think we are basing our personal label on a mix of all of these
