#aeshamunaf

[stonerjelly]

I don’t think I was ever taught to feel safe in love. Always feeling like I was crossing lines, venturing into ‘forbidden’ territory, I was forced to stumble on, entirely on my own. Now I find strength in the wholeness with which I throw myself headfirst into romantic or sexual situations. Nothing scares me. I have taught myself to feel safe in chaos

‘Musings on a boat’ by Aesha Munaf

[stonerjelly]

Its the If that keeps me hanging, Two words on a thread. Its the If that keeps me hanging, Two souls on a bed.

‘If’ by Aesha Munaf

[stonerjelly]

Fall

It only takes a slight prod to spine to realise how deep the abyss really is, and how absolutely enchanting

[stonerjelly]

Translucent

As he begins to raise his voice, you lower yours. Its only natural. He will either walk away, or ignore you. Or scream.

You have lost a friend. Staying up all night will not help.

The only moment you can ever cling to would be ‘stockings?’ Stockings. Sexy. Stockings. Biryani. Blocked doors. Wooden eyebrows.

A genuine smile, genuine concern, genuine confusion.

I wish i hadnt chased you in my head.

I’m mentally exhausted and you havent even reached the starting line.

Its over before it started. Why are you my clarity?

It cuts so deep that i roll up my tongue and paper and slip into silence to feel sane.

[stonerjelly]

I wonder how many silver moons will bear witness to the scene that unfolds - The premature massacre of fancies

‘Agape’ by Aesha Munaf

[stonerjelly]

I wonder if you’re a text message, a phone call, Or one of those scratchy goodbye songs.

‘Thought number 87’ by Aesha Munaf

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With how heavy a heart will you leave this time? She asked

'Question' by Aesha Munaf

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A fine line

There was so much I didn’t want to know as droplets of oil shone on marshmallows. There was so much I could have not known, as glasses clinked together. I longed to be alone and to not be I longed to be loved and to not be I longed for anything to make me feel like this is it, this is it.