#alcohlic

[you-got-me-fallin]

I don't wanna end up like my mother

[dripping-black-goo]

i want to update on my dad thing with the cat and the drinking that happened recently

i ended up texting my mom because she asked me if i was okay. i told her how i felt about the dad thing. with him and the cat and the drining and bad memories. i went to sleep soon after

when i woke up, still felt really off but i wanted to push past it. i wanted things to feel better. i didnt want to feel so scared that i didnt even want to leave my room. so i built up my courage and i left my room and i just tried to act normal. and then my dad was being super nice to me. i realized quickly that my mom told him about what i texted to her. and he said he would never drink the way he did before. he said he will never drink excessively or drink hard liqur again. just one glass of red wine occassionally. so that relieved me

my mom also said that he didnt actually mke contact with the cat. im not sure i believe it but id rather believe it. and i dont have proof that he did anyway. so its one of those things where i can choose to believe ir or not. im choosing to believe it

i ended up feeling better after that

[vampiremoprincess]

If i would be an alcoholic i would always have something to do

[vampiremoprincess]

Fuck me i have a hell hangover

[day-dreamers-reality]

My body hurts and my soul is tired. I’m constantly feeling fatigued. I’m tired of having to be emotionally accountable for others. I’m tired of loosing people I’m tired of having family turn their back on me. I’m exhausted my memory is slowly slipping and I hardly have the energy to get up and go to the bathroom. I’m having to live alongside an addict all over again and it kills me to watch someone actively destroy themselves. I’ve already lost someone to addiction. It’s hard to live with an addict because you never know what kind of mood they’re going to be in and their behavior can eradic and unpredictable so you’re constantly asking yourself am I going to piss them off if I try to approach them. You start to second guess yourself and question your own judgement. Living with an addict will make you feel small and trapped like a caged animal.

[darktriad1-blog]

[darktriad1-blog]

[jorgeguti35]

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