#and panicky

[autisti-queer]

I think my PTSD was exacerbated last year when our AC died and we had that heat wave that gave me actual heat exhaustion and killed my switch. guess I processed a lot of that as trauma. bc my anxiety keeps spilling when our AC kicks on.

I want to live in a small cave with my dwarf and forget weather exists.

[wanderingmind867]

Okay, this tumblr update is horrible. But the fact that I first saw posts discussing how this could be the end of tumblr has basically given me a severely pained stomach. I feel stressed and nervous and I feel unwell. I already have stress issues. Hearing a website where I basically have the most social interactions I've ever had might be going down...it makes me feel very bad. It doesn't make me feel good. I just feel stressed and nervous and I...I need someone to reassure me that it's fine. My dad might think I'm being weird for this, catastrophising something into nothing. I doubt he'd ever say that, but I feel like I'm being an idiot. I'm stressing about nothing.

But I genuinely don't feel great. My nerves are killing me, because I'm scared of losing all my notes here and losing the limited social engagement I do have. I have no other real online presence, and I have no friends in real life besides my dad. Losing this could set me back, I feel like. And that thought is scary, and I'm this close to giving myself a full blown panic attack and shutdown over this. So please...help? I don't care how, but I think I'd just like to be reassured that the website isn't going to die and I'm not going to lose all my socialization progress and that I won't be all alone should I lose this account and lose my dad decades from now. I need some kind of positive reinforcement, because I'm not feeling good today.

I know that I seem a fool, getting a panic attack over something so small in world scale. But this is a big thing for me. 30,000+ posts. Since 2021, this has become a safe space for all my thoughts and feelings. Losing that means it's just me and my dad again. And that puts more pressure on me, because it reminds me of my fear of being all alone someday. I don't like this, I don't like tbiez, I don't like this! The typos are bedausi I'm actively stesssijg out right now. I don't seel godo, I don't feel good and I just need either reasjteanfes that things will be okay or time to process my feelings and move on from what's basically a panic attack meltdown. sigh...

[eveundying]

i’m gonna pavlov myself into not liking this man anymore. what does that mean?? not a goddamn clue. but i’m not gonna like him anymore goddamnit

[o0wen]

It’s like a week into the semester, and I’m already struggling with perfectionism hardcore, like I almost tried to resubmit an introduction paragraph twice

[mrs-mikko-rantanen]

I just want to.

[scuzznishimuraenthusiast]

hey uh. hey mutuals. ily. with my whole heart. /p. but can you guys like. tag the q word with "grace don't look" or smth along the lines and lmk. because it's a major trigger of mine. and i get really shaky and panicky. thanks.

[first-ex-wife]

I am once again losing my mind....

[magicmartinelli]

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