#angel ashes

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Naria and Grawlfang take their winter sports seriously.

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[tw for the topic of Shane Dawson]

I was aware of Shane Dawson when he first started on YouTube, when I was at the age of enjoying just exploring channels on YouTube but I never really liked his stuff back then and so didn’t end up watching a lot of it. I didn’t really become a fan of his until around the “spooky boys” series, when he started making more conspiracy theory themed, and documentary style videos.

He was, at that point, someone I almost felt like an old friend watching. Like Jenna Marbles he had been on YouTube since I’d first picked it up, they’d always been there, I considered them constants to the YouTube platform for a long time. So I fell in love with the spooky, relatable and seemingly thoughtful content I was seeing at that point, but I never watched anything outside of that. I wasn’t involved in the community, I didn’t see most of the drama that wasn’t acknowledged on his YouTube channel at that point, I never watched or listened to the podcast. In all this, I ended up missing many of the red flags and innapropriate behavior he exhibited, and so up until recently I genuinely hadn’t seen anything I considered a harsh offense worthy of unsubscribing to someone I felt was so important to me.

And now having seen the evidence, clips, and having watched a few analyses, yeah, I’m glad they demonetized his channel.

I don’t genuinely feel any anger toward him myself, and it is hard to get yourself to actually hate or be mad at a person who did something bad, but maybe it was questionable, maybe it wasn’t directed at me, I didn’t feel the pain of that bad joke, ya know? I only cringed at it, it didn’t hurt me. And in that way I’m grateful he was demonetized, because that means I can keep rewatching the videos that comforted me and made me feel less lonely in hard times, without continuing to pay this man for it.

I guess my point is, because lots of people forget this on tumblr, is that the most logical and factual answer isn’t always the one that feels right, that’s not how your heart works. He did some really messed up things, and he deserves to lose his following, ive unfollowed him on all platforms but youtube. But that doesn’t mean you have to feel anger at him yourself.

You can recognize someone is a bad person and still appreciate the things they created that felt special to you.

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The cashier at lunch signed to me and I feel so happy and welcomed💛💛💛💛

She really went out of her way to learn “good afternoon” and “what would you like?” That was so sweet of her omg

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Remember kids, extending a kind hand is always worth the attempt because even though some people can be really mean, everyone has their reasons for believing and saying what they do

Reaching out and being kind will do much more good than returning their unkindness ever will.

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“The baby on the nanny’s cold lap, for example, might become a ‘good baby’ who rarely fusses–not a sign of contentment, as some might assume, but a sign that the infant recognizes his caregiver’s indifference and has begun to withdraw.”

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Love being a system bc we have funny conversations and I get to be my most honest and weird so we say some pretty funny stuff sometimes but also sometimes they’re jerks and it really sucks. Would be great if I could have the built in family without the trauma and other symptoms

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“I don’t mean to be rude but.. are you an actual mute?”

No I’m doing this for fun. To slow down my communication. And have people look down on me.