Another angsty ask cause I like torturing your son lol >:3 (but you don't have to answer if it's too personal <3)
So, this was kinda an old post of his but he mentioned he had some kind of eating disorder?
Ah, yes, I think I remember him mentioning something about that.
I never noticed it, but I never payed too much attention to that sort of thing. But now, seeing how much it affects him sometimes I wish I did notice it when it first started.
I think it started with him overworking himself and then forgetting to eat? Again, I didn’t really notice much since I was more focused on the success of his missions rather than his own health. I think I remember being a bit concerned at a sudden loss of weight, but I think I blamed it on his extra training to make myself feel better about it.
Looking back, a lot of things I used to do made me realize that I was a really shitty caregiver to him. I wish I could have done better to give @blondebitch7k the good childhood he deserved, but I’m trying my best to do whatever I can for him now.
I’m so grateful for @goggles-varian helping Hugo through things and doing so many things for him that I could never do.
Hmmmm, you know what? Why not. I like the idea so let's go. I put some worldbuilding first, and as you didn't specify any character, I'll go with my usual ones.
SOULMATE AU - PART I
Summary: Just some headcanons and a bit of worldbuilding about a Soulmate AU. Here is part II.
Author's note: ... Eheheh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to develop this worldbuilding so much BUT REALLY, I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. It's long so I haven't reread it yet so please forgive any mistake I made! I will correct them later... eventually.
Characters: Ayaka, Ayato, Diluc, Kaeya, Zhongli
Warnings: Gender neutral reader, soulmates, mention of injuries in Diluc's (not described, Diluc is the one injured).
WORLDBUILDING
Everyone is born with a small mark somewhere on their body that will grow and take a specific shape as they grow older until reaching adulthood.
Each mark is unique. It can be of any size, shape, place, or even colour. It can represent something or nothing at all. However, it always has the same "dots" as the person's constellation even if it doesn't represent the same thing or animal. Example: your constellation might be a dog, each star will get a dot on your skin, but the soul mark could represent a flame, or nothing at all.
Your soulmate won't have the same mark, however upon meeting, his mark will appear next to yours on your body. Some parts can overlap or mix, and the size and colour might change a little bit, but it's unmistakable.
The feeling of receiving your soulmate's mark depends from people to people.
The place of a soulmate in society depends from region to region. In Mondstadt, it's both seen as a very romantic thing and as a unnecessary hindrance depending on who you ask. In Liyue it is seen as an "ultimate contract", one you can't break and is held in very high regard. In Inazuma, it is seen as a form of social recognition, so the higher in the social ladder your soulmate is, the better.
A soulmate is not necessarily romantic (though fair warning, it'll all be romantic partners in the following headcanons).
You need to be ready to get your soulmate. You could know someone for years, and suddenly one day they're your soulmate because one of you wasn't ready to fully commit, or wasn't mentally in a good place enough for that.
A soulmate is more than just a mark on your skin. Your souls get bonded together. It allows you some limited connection, like feeling the general direction your soulmate is, if they are in danger, in distress, or hurt, and also sharing very basic feelings.
When your soulmate dies, their mark will leave a scar on your skin. Some people die at the same time as their soulmate, some people become like an empty shell, some people survive but lose something deep inside them, some people lose a sense. It depends on the person.
Now that the worldbuilding is done, the characters are under the read more (Ayaka, Ayato, Diluc, Kaeya, Zhongli).
AYAKA absolutely loves the idea of getting her very own soulmate. She is loved by everyone, but she lacks any kind of meaningful connection with other people, except maybe for her brother and Thoma. So the idea that someday, sharing a bond so strong and so deep with someone else? Yes, that's the dream. However, she doesn't really delude herself and keep it to herself. She knows that depending on who her soulmate is, there might be some backlash against it.
And then one day, she meets you. It's a completely normal day for the both of you, Thoma is the one who introduces you as someone important for the next festival and suddenly, there's this cooling breeze sensation on where your soulmark is. You don't even need to check to know what happened, because Ayaka's expression is a mix of disbelief, excitement, and confusion. Thoma is looking back and forth between you two, completely confused, and Ayaka has to hide her blush behind her fan. "I'm... looking forward getting to know you better."
At first, you keep your relationship between the two of you, just so you have time to get to know each other and building your bond on a solid base. Only Thoma is aware of it, and he is forbidden to even tell Ayato (because she knows her brother and how ruthless he is going to be to make sure you're a good match for his baby sister). So for maybe the first weeks, it's only the two of you sharing sweet moments together, taking things slow. You have the rest of your lives after all.
AYATO... absolutely hates the whole thing. Not really the soulmate, but everything that comes around it: how much pressure he is under because he is a noble and how his worth will be partly determined by who his soulmate is, how he will be expected to have a "proper spouse" beside his soulmate if they don't fit high standards, how he had to meet so many people in his life because they were hoping to form that special connection with him. He hasn't met his soulmate and it has given his so many headaches already. And he is so busy anyway! And he would have to add his soulmate to his schedule? That's way too much of a hassle. Also, it's just another weakness he would have to protect, because of course they would target them instead of him.
But also, in a deep part of his heart, he longs to meet someone that would be his match, someone he could connect to such a deep level. He feels... lonely. And thinking about a soulmate just makes that hole in his chest a lot more present, so he just brushes all those thoughts off and focuses on all the negative instead. And then, one day, he meets you, and he feels like he is in the middle of a waterspout. He stays there, staring at you with eyes wide open, completely silent. His mark feels like rain drops on your skin, and when you call out gently to him, it feels like he finally found the eye of the storm. A genuine smile appears on his lips, and he introduces himself properly to his soulmate.
I won't lie, there will be many challenge in your new relationship, but Ayato will face them all gladly with you by his side. He feels... at peace, knowing you'll be there with him as he'll be there with you. He is not alone anymore. There won't be an official announcement at first, but Ayato won't try to hide either. He just wants to enjoy being with you, without caring much about anything else around him. Ayaka will be happy to welcome you in their family and to see her brother so happy. Maybe having a soulmate wasn't so bad after all.
DILUC's feelings on the subject changed during his life. He is a very romantic man at heart no matter how awkward he can be with actual romance. Growing up, he dreamt of meeting his soulmate and spending his life with them, knowing deep in his heart they would be perfect for each other and could only be happy, facing the world together. And then, his father died and it changed his life in so many ways, including this one. Now Diluc is more... reserved. Like Ayato, he is worried his position will put them in danger, but also... he knows he is not good with relationship and romance. What if he fucks it up? What if he somehow lacks something and can't provide his soulmate?
So yes, the man is kind of a ball of anxiety over the whole ordeal, and to be honest, as long as the Abyss Order is around, he would rather be free and not have to worry about an additional soulmate on top of everything. However, well, you just don't decide when or where you meet your soulmate. And, because apparently fate is a bitch, you are the one who saves his ass, just as he was injured after a skirmish with the Abyss Order. It wasn't a life-threatening injury, but still something that needed to be treated so you invited him to rest somewhere while you got some medical supplies to take care of them before they got infected.
The moment your hand touched his, there was a warmth, like a beating heart, on your soulmark. The heat lasted for a moment, and when you looked at Diluc, he was staring back at you with red cheeks. Of course. Of course the moment he would meet his soulmate was during a moment of weakness, oh no, what were you going to say, he was strong, he could promise you he was strong, this was but a flesh wound, he could protect you, he could be a good soulmate- And then, a gentle smile was on your lips, and his world felt complete. His wound needed treatment first of course, but then, how about a drink or two to talk about stuff? Diluc could only nod at that, trying to say "yes" but only a squeak escaped his lips and he swears he could die.
Oh, KAEYA is absolutely, completely, utterly TERRIFIED of that. He is scared shitless down to his very bones. Everything screams at him that this is a terrible idea. He comes from Khaenri'ah, a land cursed by the gods from Celestia themselves, his own father abandoned him, his adoptive brother rejected him when he learned the truth, and worse, he himself was unable to connect to his adoptive father's death no matter how devastated he felt inside. So really, he is so, so afraid. He doesn't know what is worse, no having a soulmate at all, or having one but they are what he sees in the mirror.
He'll joke and brush any comment of meeting his soulmate, saying he would break too many hearts if he did, or that nothing could be strong enough to make him settle down. Yes, the poor man is scared. So when he finally meets you, when he feels a curious sensation on his soulmark at the same time you feel a tickling cold on yours, he knows. He knows, and he actually runs away and pretends nothing happened, because you're the most gorgeous, perfect, sweetest being in all of creation in his eyes and if he stays with you, if he gets close to you, he is going to taint you and you don't deserve that. He leaves you alone, wondering what just happened and whose soulmark did you get and he doesn't look back.
Don't worry though, it won't last. The man is going to get drunk a couple of times and several days will pass, letting you think that maybe your soulmate was one that rejected the very idea of a soulmate, or maybe it was because it was you, and all those horrible things. And Kaeya just can't let you think that, you deserve the truth. So he'll come and find you with a bunch of flowers, ready to explain everything to you, how he is sorry but he can't do this... but only after a few minutes he is at your feet grovelling and begging you to forgive him and to give him a chance. Poor man is a mess but now he is your mess. He'll apologize over and over for what he did, and for a long time, but once he gets over it, he is the most loyal and caring soulmate you could hope for. He has this one chance, and he is NOT going to fuck it up, and that's a promise he makes to both you and himself.
ZHONGLI has waited for you for a very, very long time. He is a patient man, but he wasn't really expecting he would have to wait that long and had kind of... accepted it wasn't meant to be. Maybe his purpose was Liyue and nothing else. He tried to tell himself it was for the best, after all he was too busy with wars and protecting his people to give his soulmate the proper attention they deserve but deep down, he longed to have someone by his side. He had a huge part in how important soulbonds were in Liyue's culture. It was, in a way, the ultimate contract, one he was so ready to cherish above everything else.
So he waited, and waited, and waited. He never directly sought you out, but rather kept living his life, century after century, simply telling himself that if it was meant to be, then it would eventually happen. And then, one day, he met you. He knew, even before the soulmark appeared on his skin, he knew at the sound of your laugh in the street. He turned around, looking for the source of such beautiful song, his heart suddenly beating faster. It feels as if time itself stayed still for this moment, and it feels forever until Zhongli joins you.
You're very confused at first about this man walking to you? Then he politely salutes you and introduces himself, but you don't hear his exact word because a very strong yet gentle pulse appears on your soulmark, and you instinctively know what's happening. You smile back at him, and he tells you with the softest voice that he has waited for you a long time. After that, he'll take you with him somewhere you can talk in private (unless you have prior obligation, but you're not escaping him). He'll tell you everything then, and if you allow it, he'll always keep you close, basking in your presence. Your relationship will evolve at your own pace, but in his eyes, there's no doubt, you're the one for him and he'll love you for the rest of eternity.
Hello hello dear egg /// blue has chosen a prompt angst 💛 :D
So so! : ROs reaction visiting the MC’s grave each month, leaving them flowers and their favorite food. (or something else, that was what the prompt generator generated)
:3
M: They usually come with Dawn but today was…just one of those days they decided to go alone. M stood over your grave now, clutching a few flowers that reminded them of you along with a small animal pelt. They gently get to their knees and place the items on the ground besides them.
Taking a moment to just stare at the stone. M lightly brushed a small amount of brush off the stone and kept their hand there. M…swears they can feel warmth, that their is something fond and comforting in the air. It made them shudder.
They hunched forward as their breathing shook, resting their mask against the stone s they caught their breath. A whisper, barely even a touch; they feel a palm touch the back of their neck. It makes their body tense as they whip around, searching for nothing but a few flowers.
They glance down at them before they look away, eyes burning as they place the small flowers down with the pelt. Saying something in a language not known by humans for a moment, then they stand up, turn and walk away. Squishing the flowers that where next to them under their foot as they went.
They where forget-me-nots.
S: They hate this time of the month. It made them feel cold and numb, a feeling they didn’t enjoy. They sat next to your grave now, cuddling against the stone as if it where a person. They had nothing but a bottle in their hand, it was one of your favorite drinks.
They just sat in silence for a long moment. S stares at the ground in front of them, eyes going blank. Sometimes they swear they feel a glimpse of warmth brush past them. It makes S shiver and get closer to the stone.
S closes their eyes and clenches their jaw when they hide closer to the grave. They know you aren’t here, yet…here they are. Cuddling against some empty stone with a body six feet below it. S heart stops when they feel a soft, ghost of a touch; or soft lips over their eyes.
Immediately their eyes snap open and the sound of a blade being drawn fills the silence of the graveyard. S sits up, head searching for a target but gets nothing. Nothing but a few flowers in front of them. When they see the flowers their hands go limp at eyes go heavy again.
Forget-me-nots…fuck their life.
B: It’s a surprise when they come to your grave alone. Some little ones or their mothers usually attend, but B….B just needed a moment. Now they stand above your grave, a large cluster of flowers and some of your fav route pastries in hand. They ever so gently place the flowers next to your grave stone and the place the sweets down in the same place.
They stand there for a moment, before their shoulders shake and their legs give out.
B sobs as they hunch in on themselves, fists grasping at the dirt below them. As if they reach enough, they can grab your hands. Get some sort of comfort to this pain.
B cries until they can’t anymore, until it’s painful. Then, they just sit back on their knee and clutches the fabric of their pants as they look down at their slightly bloodied hands. B freezes when they barely feel, an ever so soft; caress of the back of their head.
B is quick to snap their head around and search for anyone. But they find no one. Nothing but a few flowers tickling their face in the breeze. They catch a few in their hand, staring at them for a long moment before they crush them in their hand.
There have been a few versions of fics where a happily married Ethan/MC learn that Ethan has a long-lost child that he was unaware of. To make matters worse, before they were wed, he told MC he didn't want children, so she agreed to this (begrudgingly).
Let's flip...
What would happen if your Ethan learned that your MC had a child which was put up for adoption before they met, and she never told him? Given his own abandonment issues, how would this impact his feelings toward MC and their relationship going forward?
(Don't blame me; someone hoisted this on me last night, and now I need to know other writers' answers! lol)
Ok so by the time that Ethan and Casey are at the altar, he has worked through his issues of abandonment. In saying that though he would be hurt because he did not tell her and more importantly think to tell him as it is a pretty big deal.
I imagine this happening whilst she was in college and even though she went to NY where abortion access was easier she was coerced to keep it by her partner at the time. This shocked Casey as he seemed fine with her choices about not wanting kids. She found out that he has been tampering with her birth control tablets among other things. This caused a schism in the relationship and Casey got out but by that time it was too late so adoption was her only option at that juncture.
When she explained the situation to Ethan and he was given some time to process it he was understanding. He was sad that she was put in such a position but was able to make another couple happy with a child they could not have. He was still hurt but understood why she did not tell him as it was a form of abuse.
Hello! Yes. Either way the MC is by default a little self-destructive or at least fighting with some strong negative emotions and you can choose to make your MC just...give up and give in. Although it will end pretty bad😌
I had asked about the T variable b/c I wanted to try for a Mc used to be in love with T but was almost over it when t dropped marriage proposal and when T confessed their love Mc didn’t want to hurt T’s feelings by refusing so they said they returned them. Enter Ilzrus who Mc feels drawn to but feels guilty because they’re putting T’s happiness over theirs…. I’m trying to go angsty if I made it too complicated, I always try to go in depth 😅😅
Ooh the angst, yes🤭😌 I get it🧡🧡
Don't worry, you'll get the chance to create the angst😁
Yeah that was me, sorry! I was just wondering if you could write about the reader having a loved one in a hospital or passing away and how Spinel would helped them deal with that? Sorry, its just a rough patch in life im going through.
Thank you! Sorry, I was working on it and trying to figure out how to save it so I could come back to it, but I guess I pressed something I shouldn't have 😅 I'm so sorry, buddy. That really sucks. It'll get better, I promise ❤
When you first get the news, you shut down completely. You enter a sort of shock, becoming distant and unresponsive.
Spinel, being the attentive and observant girlfriend she is, immediately notices something is wrong
She tries to ask you about it, but you give her either a jumbled and unintelligible answer, or no answer at all
She decides not to push the issue, knowing you may get angry and snap at her
You won't leave you room for a few days afterwards, barely making an effort to get up for food and the bathroom
Spinel's finally had enough when she catches you sobbing to yourself one day, and she begs you to tell her what's going on
Immediately Spinel is holding you while you try to talk between sobs, spilling everything to her
Of course she understands how you feel and is sympathetic (she lost Pink after all)
After you're done getting it all out, she asks you if you'd like to go visit them in the hospital/attend the funeral, and you nod silently
You have to go by yourself because it's an important family thing and she doesn't know your family yet, so you give her something of yours to keep close while you're gone and you promise to video call every night you're away
When you get back, she makes sure to shower you with love (respecting your mourning, of course) and you're so glad to have such a loving and supportive girlfriend ❤
