May 16, 2025
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imagining waiting until a boy falls asleep, listening to music, and then changing it so that hypno files start playing through his headphones. watching him whine and rub his legs together as he absorbs all the suggestions and triggers while he's unconscious. waking him up when he's all drooling and compliant. he's molded into a perfect little doll for me and he doesn't even know how.
Specifically for the chronically ill and disabled, if neither please answer in notes how you aid your sleep.
what do you do to help fall asleep?
meds (pills, herbal substance of some kind, pain cream etc)
asmr/music/background noise of some kind
beverage (warm milk, water etc)
hot bath/shower
heated or weighted blanket
other or multiple
not I'll/disabled, answering in notes
D'arcy Bloom in Resident Alien (2021-)
nothing is sexier than your boyfriend slaying your enemy while still making eye contact with you
“ ‘Were you in love with him?’ ‘Yes,’ I say, simply. ‘Yes, I was.’ It’s not the whole truth.
The whole truth is, I’m in love with him still. ”
my merlin band au
okay so i need to put this somewhere before it eats my brain alive. i've been thinking and talking about this ever since last year and it's finally time i do something. or at least i take the first step. here we go:
the band is called The Knights of the Round Table because of course it is. it starts as a joke and then stops being a joke at some point and that’s when it gets dangerous. they’ve been a band for years. they have history. they have albums people fight about online. they are huge.
the lineup:
arthur — lead vocals. frontman in every sense. intense, emotional, born for the stage even when he hates it. started the band with his childhood friends leon and elyan despite his father wanting him to become a lawyer like all the other men in his family. their relationship was always strained, uther never really supported the band and died around their fourth album. arthur sings like he’s arguing with his ghost. big daddy issues here. it makes him an ass most of the time, but he is a good friend and band leader.
gwaine — vocals + lead guitar. the worst person alive about his feelings. on stage he’s all confidence and heat and grin, but in the writing room he’s raw and honest and terrified of being seen too clearly. he writes the kind of songs that feel like they were pulled out of someone’s chest. he’s one of the main composers with lancelot and at some point the lyrics start getting… specific...
lancelot — bass. quiet backbone of the band. co-composer with gwaine. emotionally restrained, technically precise, always thinking about structure and balance. he builds structure around gwaine’s emotional chaos. he’s the one who makes sure the songs don’t collapse under their own weight. he notices everything. he just doesn’t always say it.
elyan — guitar. warm presence, steady energy. keeps things human. the kind of musician who makes everyone else sound better just by being there.
percival — drums. solid, powerful, unshakeable. the heartbeat. doesn’t talk much but when he does everyone listens.
leon — keyboard. childhood friend of arthur’s. atmospheric, thoughtful, often underestimated. adds texture and emotion where others add volume.
they’re a band that works because everyone knows their place and protects each other’s.
extended round table members:
gwen — graphic designer. elyan’s sister, arthur’s girlfriend, creative soul of the band’s visual identity. met merlin at university and became best friends with him. she’s the reason the band looks the way it does. symbolism, motifs, eras, she builds the myth visually with her art.
morgana — manager (from the third album onward). arthur’s sister. sharp, strategic, protective in a way that sometimes borders on ruthless. she believes in the band as a legacy and isn’t afraid to make hard calls to preserve it.
and then there’s merlin....
merlin isn’t a band member, he’s not on stage, but he’s everywhere.
he graduated in literature with a focus on medieval and myth narratives. gwen introduces him to the band early on, back when they’re still figuring things out. he starts helping gwaine and lancelot with lyrics, not rewriting them, just sharpening them. suggesting imagery, connecting themes, turning feelings into myth. he also helps gwen a lot with her designs.
he becomes gwaine’s muse in the most dangerous way possible:
because he understands exactly what gwaine is trying to say.
fans never know merlin’s name until he and gwaine become public, but they know the songs feel different.
i can come with a whole new post just focusing on merlin and gwaine and how their love and relationship develops. ask me about it later, please.
their aesthetic:
heavy metal/metal/power metal/rock with a hint of gothic if that makes sense, but heavily inspired by the medieval aesthetic, medieval songs, myths, legends and everything.
it shows in their outfits as well, mixing medieval armour, chainmails with their modern clothes. gwaine's guitar is probably shaped like an ax, lancelot's bass and elyan's guitar have a sword as the handle. everything about them screams medieval and fashion.
discography (for my own sanity):
Camelot, Baby!
Take Me Back to Avalon
Even In Albion
A Day at the Tournament
A Night at the Feast
A Kind of Magic
anyway, there could be some changes on the names or the order and some additions later on too. this is mostly so i don’t forget who they are when i start drawing them.
okay. bye.
sorry pantone, but I'd rather have merwaine dictating my colours of the year