#arthur.txt

[gunpowderraven]

is this anything

[bsd15-remade]

rhythm games are so fun like hell yeah tapping buttons

[arthur-adhd-hastings]

Nick Lightbearer ramble

A long, maybe a little self project-y ramble about Nick, and how he acts, and some thoughts on how he’s treated, and how he became to be

I'm 90% sure Nick has some form of anxiety... Also RSD. Half of what he does is because "that's how it should be done.". He gets with women because that's what he should do. Acts all cool and suave because it's what he should do. Looks the way he does because it's what Virgil said he would look good as (See: When they say Virgil shaped Nick into what he is). 

Hey, remember when Petunia says that Nick wanted to be a poet? I'm still stuck on that "soft boy poet thing", because i'm positive that's what Nick was. An anxious, panicky mess who didn't know what he was doing half of the time, but made poems to get it out and was probably a huge romantic. Then, he sees a way to numb the anxiety and panic, and grapples onto it, seeing no other alternatives. Especially after the band splits up. THINK ABOUT IT! I'm pretty sure it was either the drugs, Virgil's convincing, or the anxiety that made Nick kick Morrie out. We all know how anxiety can make decision making a fucking nightmare. Chances are, he just fucking shot in the dark with half of his mind in piece.

And honestly i think he probably also started taking it due to guilt. Started off as a little bit. Joy, a bit of liquor, coffee to keep him awake while he made songs. Then it continued. He got more and more stressed at the increase of security and rabid fans, and the pressure of making more and more songs, better lyrics, better songs, Speaking of. Y'know what? It's a definite that his and Petunia's relationship was horrid. Yea, he did a lot of shitty stuff and a lot of it is unacceptable, but chances are Petunia did a lot of shitty stuff too. Not supporting him in his music, not trying to help him with his addictions, the list goes on. (I’m not excusing how Nick acted here) 

Oh yea. Going back to Nick doing everything because it's "what he should do". That whole schtick definitely drove people away. It drove Petunia away, it drove all the band members away, made people think that's all he was, and it probably (eventually) even drove Virgil away! (Though that’s mainly due to his drug taking and irresponsibly, isn’t it?) Honestly, i'm positive he somehow got himself to believe that the moment anyone ever found out the "real nick lightbearer" they'd immediately start insulting him (Past trauma that his brain has repressed (Joy), but still has the fears hanging there?)

Definitely has a lot of identity issues. He's Nick lightbearer. But who is Nick Lightbearer? The lil ol’ bad boy rockstar, what the public wants, or someone else entirely? Oh let's not forget the HUGE amount of self hatred and self destructive tendencies in there. The drugs, alcohol, the amount of scratched out paintings he has in the hotel of SPECIFICALLY his face and name, the "USELESS" on the mirror. Anyways. tdlr nick needs therapy and also genuine care and love. give him better coping mechanisms

[queermoths]

June 18: Autistic Pride Day

Happy autistic pride day to autistic poc!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to autistic lgbt people!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to professionally diagnosed autistic people!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to self-diagnosed autistic people!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to autistic survivors!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to mentally ill autistic people!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to physically disabled autistic people!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to chronically ill autistic people!!!!

Happy autistic pride day to ALL autistic people!!!! We are all deserving of pride, love, and acceptance. I hope today your day isn’t too full of bad sensory input, that people treat you with respect, and that you are loved, always and forever. Keep being your amazing autistic self!!!! :)

[bi-bladesmith]

highkey,,, might make my way through HU's discography now that I'm getting back into them

[pockettprince]

Hello my commissions are open again!! I’ll be taking three at a time just so that I don’t overwhelm myself with school going on. Thank you!!

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[goldnglory]

y cant i find any good icons tumblr i have an aesthetic i’m trying to uphold

[grailedsovereign]

knights of the round table: arthur is such a good king. reliable person and such a moral booster. he’s a man i will follow to the ends of the earth. i will be loyal to him forever

arthur: self-depreciating personality, selfless, avoids confrontation, worries about others too much, what is self-care