#bastard brain

[madrewrites]

me: time to write

brain: no

me: please?

brain: No.

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me: *in a situation where i cannot possibly write*

brain: time to write

me: give me one good reason why i shouldn’t crack you like the egg you are

[ace-crowbar]

I would like to be a tree please

[asymmetrical-palindrome]

Intrusive thought: I want to apologise profusely to everyone I ever open up to because on one hand while I'm very happy that my favourite people are getting to know me better, I feel bad because that's time spent where I'm not learning about you

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

I was standing in front of my mirror in the dark with my iPad lighting up my face as I turned to crawl into bed but the SECOND I made eye contact with myself in the mirror my brain went Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary- before I slammed my eyes shut and dived for the bed hOW FUCKING DARE YOU TRY THAT BULL IN MY OWN ROOM

this is what I mean when I say my brain wants me dead

[madrewrites]

my brain, fervently vibrating my body to wake me up: get up get up get upppp

me: what the shit do you want it’s 3am i’m sleeping

my brain: i figured it out

me: figured what out

my brain: The Scene.

me: *slowly looks around to where my laptop is sitting, on which resides the forsaken document that has come to a standstill due to The Scene*

my brain: please. i’m begging you. just this once.

me, knowing that this is not the first time, nor will it be the last time that my brain will choose to unveil its dark and mysterious secrets to me in the middle of the night, thus assuming its continued dominance over me: *opens laptop* okay so where do we

[ace-crowbar]

My bastard brain: I would very much like a chemical burn

Gob brain: fire? Shiny fire? Hot good mmm

Dark academic brain: ... it would be interesting

Rational brain: WHAT THE FUK YOU GUYS unless.... No WHAT TBE FUK

[buginabog]

Bastard brain: ok so you cant do your homework as SOON as you get home bc you need an r&r moment to focus fully

Me: great! So we'll sit down and play around on our phone for like... an hour right?

BB: ahaha... no. Because time blindness is also a thing! And before you know it it is time to eat

Me: so let's set a timer!

BB: that you won't pay attention to and will stop and lie to yourself with "five more minutes"? Ha!

Me: so we'll do it after dinner!

BB: ooooh but you seem to have forgot... we dont do Stuff after dinner

Me: ...why not

BB: oh it just feels Weird

[the-mysterious-human]

I want to write ‘map’ in French how do I—

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