#writer struggles

[t045tyk1tty14]

The process of making a show is really hard.

All I have are character reference sheets and a dream.

[Gestures to the most empty folder you've ever seen in you life.] This is all I got...

[angeltears404]

I fixed my personal laptop :D

now I can write angst without being reported by school admin :3

[a-cosmic-elf]

my oc, Emrys, watching me obsess over maul:

[flopcar827]

DUDE ITS SO HARD TO WRITE FANFICTION

Ive NEVER struggled THIS much

Its for some STUPID ship that is a JOKE, but for some reason its been the hardest thing ever for me to write. Its a mix of odd guilt and hesitation. AUGHH, my own mind is stopping me from reaching creative peak. I wish I could stop being such a perfectionist omfg.

[lenoraarchive]

Bit of a rant, don’t know where I’m going with this but eh

I feel like I put a lot of pressure on myself to start a new fic fresh because I already have preexisting ocs which I adore. But I was hesitant to post about them or start making character profiles because I care about them way more than I do about the character I did post about, Demitra Vane, and any opinions about them would go straight to my heart but with Demitra it wasn’t as big of a deal because she’s not as fleshed out and I don’t care about her as much. So it felt safer for a first post showing my writing? And now that I’ve started that I’ve lost all motivation to continue my sith assassin fic and it’s going nowhere tbh. Since I’m so new to tumblr it was kind of nerve wracking and I guess I didn’t want to start with anything complicated and now the story feels completely uninteresting to me and it sounds like garbage when I read it lol.

[chococornet-ao3]

the downside to writing at 2am and sleep deprived is when i type a word correctly but it looks and sounds wrong.

uglily is the word i’m stuck on right now. i can’t tell if it’s wrong because i’m tired or if it’s just simply not a word. (it’s a word, i googled it.)

[trashytracktales]

omg, i just finished achilles heel and i am totally speechless, tbh. i loved it—every single word, every sentence, just all of it. it brought out so many emotions i didn’t even think were possible for a fic to evoke.

the multi-pov format was amazing because we could see how deep the misunderstanding was between lando and her, especially since he really didn’t see what her problem was (such an idiot, but that is just typical for men!). and the way oscar really was the good guy... wow. this truly was a masterpiece.

(also, i would absolutely die for a part 2, but i completely understand if that’s not what you intended for this fic, so just sending all the love! but tbh, i wouldn’t be mad if you wrote another extremely angsty fic again—maybe you already have and i just need to stalk your masterlist now, because you are incredibly talented!)

Thank you so so much for taking the time to share your thoughts and for the love for this fic, it means the world, really 🥺🫶🏻

It honestly took everything out of me, but it’s the piece I’m currently most proud of in terms of story and how I structured it. Although... the amount of times I had to rewrite some scenes is actually stupid.

One thing I don’t usually like doing is explaining my writing because I firmly believe stories should become whatever you, the reader, need them to be in the moment you read them. Plus, once I press that POST button, it’s not entirely mine anymore.

But. Since you mentioned Oscar being the good guy (he is, without a doubt), I just wanted to touch on something that was really important to me while writing it: I never viewed Lando as the bad guy either. He was flawed, but not malicious.

By the time everything fell apart, he’d become so accustomed to having her beside him that he unconsciously began taking the relationship for granted. He didn’t love her less, but somewhere in that looong time they were together, he stopped realizing how much maintenance love actually requires sometimes. Especially with a life like his. So when everything imploded, his first reaction wasn’t to fight. He simply went numb because he couldn’t process the magnitude of what had happened yet. Also, walking away wasn’t indifference on his part, he was just in shock. He needed distance before he could understand the wreckage and the fact that he, just as she accused him, had a major role in bringing their relationship to that point.

I agree with this specific ask; Lando has a lot more to say. The tragedy is that he ultimately did understand where he failed her, but there was no battlefield left to return to. Well, not after what he heard on that balcony 👀 That’s why, I think, for so many people his story feels unfinished in a way that hers or Oscar’s doesn’t.

There are conversations that never happened and thoughts that he never got to voice and, as for a part 2, you’re not the only one asking for a continuation:

I see all of you, always. And I’m sorry for the hundreds of requests I’ll probably get to, sometime in the next decade if I’m lucky 😔🤞🏻

Now, I’m about 73% sure there will be a part 2. I’ve made some notes and I know exactly how I would like to go about it. At the moment, however, I have about... six, I think, fics that are waiting for me to either finish or edit or both. So it will take a second, okay :,)

Again, thank you Leah for reading it so thoughtfully and for loving it despite how much it hurts. I appreciate you lots 😙🤍

If you’re looking for more angsty stories, these are some of my personal favorites in my masterlist:

LN

If it’s meant to fall apart

Endings, beginnings

Final call

Not quite us

Delayed gratification

Furious Four

Let’s call it

OP

Cloud-kissed

MV

This time tomorrow

Same time yesterday