#bear payne

[spidermanpreviously]

It's been two months without his company. I miss watching your silly videos! I hope you're looking after Louis' mom and sister up there. Just know, Louis will take care of Bear. 🩵

[open-minded-sloth]

JUST REALLY MISSING LIAM LATELY

like a lot.

i can't be the only one...

[darkvioletthefirst]

Still missing him

As the 7 month mark of losing Liam comes up, I'm starting to think to myself more and more again. I can't bother to mention him to my friends or my family because I just can't get over him. I've lost a lot of people in my short life and I still cling onto the ones that meant the most to me. They've lost people too but they don't talk about them as much as I talk about Liam.

One Direction and, through them, Liam, helped me where my family and friends could not. They taught me so much about stuff where I would have been lost without them. Liam made me laugh, as did the others, and I got to witness some magic that I didn't know was possible because of my own life.

Liam had a ton of potential during his life and his life being cut short the way it was stabs me through the heart, because what if I end up like him? Of course, not the exact way, but by being hated by people because I don't want to blend in with the people who we shouldn't blend in with.

I am working on becoming a cop and right now, cops get a lot of hate, but someone needs to be a cop. While I don't know what exactly is going to happen to me as one, I'll still face some kind of hate, even probably by my best friend. The current media keeps showing me how much cops are being watched over so many minuscule details, and it just reminds me more of Liam. Cops can't breathe without the media blowing up, just like celebrities.

Last time I mentioned Liam to my mom, it was late at night and mentioning him pissed her off because she was having trouble with her phone. When I mentioned him, I had forgotten she was struggling with her phone as she didn't type like she was pissed off. My mom was the one who told me about Liam the day after her and I had a big fight. If I dare mention Liam now with what's happening with us right now, I'm sure it will end up like last time. I know I shouldn't keep mentioning him every month, but I'm still mourning him and the fact that Bear, the boys, and Liam's family don't have him anymore. I know myself what a death in the family so young does to you, so my heart hurts for Bear a lot.

I'm missing this smile, face, and dancing guy almost every single day:

GIF by therogueflame

[thesketchyellie]

This was stuck in my head for a long time. Like what if they were of the same age and were raised together? Wouldve been so cute and chaotic. 🥺❤️

Anyway, I just wanted to post something lighthearted today. :) Took me 3 weeks to work on this (2 hrs per day only cause of work). Please be kind to me. 🙏

Thank you all and I hope everyone's okay!

Audio from @/birianderson on TikTok.

[ignitedminds27]

Liam talking about fatherhood.

[multifandomfangirl93]

I feel like Liam wasn’t ready to go, but he also couldn’t take it anymore.

The drugs were meant to turn everything off and to stop feeling the pain he was feeling, but not to end it.

He was interacting with fans hours prior.

He kept coming down to the lobby, like he needed help, but they kept putting him back in his room.

He sat in the lobby, on his laptop, and they took him back to his room, WITH the balcony.

He was hurting. He felt broken.

Nobody saved him and that’s a tragedy.

He had more to do. A son to raise. A life to turn around.

Don’t be a bully. Don’t drag people down because they are famous and their faults are smeared across the internet. He was a PERSON. A mostly decent human being. He had faults, just like you and me, but they were constantly rubbed in his face.

He deserved better.

He deserved help.

He deserved to go out at an old age feeling loved and appreciated and secure, surrounded by family and friends.

Nobody deserves to go out like he did, feeling alone and hated.

He was so so loved by so so many.

The few that made him feel otherwise are part of the problem.

Bear, sweetie, I am so sorry you lost your daddy. I’m sorry the world was such a cruel place for him. I’m sorry we weren’t able to save him like he saved us. I pray that your aunts and uncles raise you well. I pray Louis tells you the best stories about your daddy, Zayn talks to you about how much your daddy took care of everyone, Niall gives you the best cuddles and comforts you, and Harry shows you all the things your daddy taught him and they all love you like their own.

[lizzylynch1]

Louis posted and I’m literally crying.

“…if Bear ever needs me I will be the uncle he needs…”

I’m gonna throw up this is not how I imagined my birthday to start

[thesadstoryofme]

I am absolutely devastated in hearing about the passing of Liam Payne. My heart lived and breathed One Direction for many, many years. The first band that I had ever loved and that introduced me to so many friends. I started this blog because of One Direction. It will never be the same! I hope Liam is resting well, and I hope his next life is kinder to him. We love you, Liam, and we will miss you for the rest of our lives. I'm thinking of his family, his son, his friends, and every single Directioner. I am so heartbroken.