#bigmack2poet

[bigmack2go]

Yes my name is spelled with a j at the end. I know i have many typos but that is not one if them. Its pronounced the same way (almost. but most people just pronounce it like mack)

Its hungarian.

Its rly important to me because the letters have meanings!

Edit:

On that note! I just realised i never made an intro post so i guess here u go!

Short version

I am mackj

They/them

27th Aug.

🇭🇺🇩🇪

I speak german and english (Hungarian and a little Swedish)

Christian

AuDHD asf and weirdly gatekeep-y about it.

dyscalculia fucked my career

Writer, musician, dancer, ACTOR

I love turles w my life

Multi fandom

Pjo (main atm)

Voltron (main atm)

Newsies

Atwow

Three???

Aftg

Dsmp (only canon for several, obvious reasons)

Marauders

Starlight express

Descendants

SoC

In that order

The reason that i talk funny isn’t that english isnt my first language but simply because i want to, okay. Fuck u.

PLEASE

...use my headcannon!

...use my OC's

... post or talk about my book

...make headcannons for my book

... make OC's for my book

...come up with faceclaims for my characters

... ask me stuff

... request shit

WITH CREDITS AND/OR IF U ASK U CAN DEFINITELY ...

... use my promts

...use my ideas

...use my fic's

... repost my art on other platforms

CHECK THE TAGS FOR THESE^

DONT...

... be unconstructive w criticism bc i WILL cry

… use my writing without credit

… ise my art without credits

Everyone is welcome on this blog, even homophobes but only if they wanna fight

Idk what else to say…

My tags:

[bigmack2go]

TW

I see them everyday

I see them all the time because they’re permanent

I did this to myself i knew it‘s non-refundable and i still did and i don’t remember why.

I see them every day

Ill see them for the rest of my life and they’re imprinted on my skin and they won’t just disappear they’re not gonna go away.

I see them everyday

I see them everywhere on my body

And i know i cant remove them and i know they’re gonna stay

I should have known

In fact i did

I knew it every day

I knew it every time

And now they’re here forever like they’re burned into my soul

Somedays i walk proud with them

Look at me: i‘m human

But somedays i‘m embarrassed, or confused, or even guilty

What if i worry anyone?

But the worst thing is that somedays when i look at them i wonder why i stopped

And i wanna go back to doing these things that i know that can never be undone

Knowing that they will never fade

They’re the one thing i can be sure of

I will know every day

And i will know every time

They’re special, one of a kind

They are not gonna leave me

They are loyal, they are mine.

[bigmack2go]

Sometimes i wonder whether if my bullys actually thought abbot and realised what they were doing to me and how i was suffering if they would still do it. Was it just their teenage naivety that made them just actually not think about their actions? Or were they very well aware about how they hurt me and the effects they had on me? Did they hate me so much they actually wanted me to go through all if this and wached and laughed as i did? Whatever could i have done to them to cause such hatred?