the way I fought with myself for days and almost... ALMOOOST made lyonel a tech bro bc I had writer's block and couldn't come up with a non-tech related reason why he'd be filthy rich
BUT NAY, tech companies already take too much from us, NOT IN MY STUPID FAN FICTION S*M ALTM*N NOT ON MY WATCH!!
anyways hopefully I'll be done with CBTY p2 in the next few dayssss but you can find p1 here
Why be a cannibal, what are you, queer??? What are you hungering for the flesh of another man for, huh? Who are you to only be sated on another man’s body
okay so....been listening to this song a lot and 👀 wanted to share some thoughts abt it. cause like idk thats fun and ii can now??
trigger warnings: idk sort of vaguely what's in the song? mostly some descriptions of knife play
ii actually have a fair amount of Elita's songs in my billy/stu (selfship) playlist already, but hearing this song for the first time?? HOLY SHIT. it literally works so well with them <3 and no, not just because it's fucked up sex stuff.
the amount of trust you have to place in your partner(s) to do something like this ? and billy is notoriously known for having major trust issues. so like, him doing this to myself or stu? fine by him. either of us bringing him into danger? terrifying. no. (not that he isn't into the idea, but you'd have to be in a relationship for a LONG while before he lets you or Stu handle him like that).
but...just think of the closeness that the two of them would feel with this sorta thing like??? hnnng,,,, like putting your life in someone else's hands and still being treated with such love and gentleness despite the acts.
like god, having billy straddle you, running his hands against you, teasing your most sensitive spots- finding the perfect place. and taking his trusted buck 120 and dragging it along your skin. pressed so close he's drawing blood, marking you up with precision. running a tentative finger over it, smearing the blood as he looks at you with strange, adoring eyes. you're so pretty covered in your own blood, and you let him do that? he loves you so much <3
knowing at the end of it all, they'll kiss it to make it better, and wrap you up if they went a little too far. being held in the comfort of a killers embrace. (knowing Stu he'd probably lick ur wounds lmao)
okay ACTUALLY?? having them cut you deep enough to scar?? yes!! ii love that. just making sure you know who you belong to <3
of course, i'd be tempted to explore how this would go the other way around though... ;)
perhaps i'll try my hand at a little drabble or something in the near future !!
I think when the whole virus thing is over I'm going to make an appointment at this hospital near me to see about getting started on hormones. Dysphoria is a bitch and I'm ready to stop sounding like a 12 year old girl.
I've been wanting to start hrt for a while. But being poor sucks. I just can't take the dysphoria anymore.