#bipolar i

[wheelie-sick]

"I was having a manic episode" "oh yeah I've had those too!"

what I mean: I ruined my entire life in a month

what they mean: I feel silly goofy sometimes

[bipolarsun]

[remyxavierr]

Aahhhhhhhh! I got accepted for the disability tax credit! Now I can apply for disability! 🥹🥹🥹

[lucilleerebus]

magpie: this was another part of the series representing moods and states. the magpie illustration was my personal favorite from the series, maybe because it was bright and fun to make, but it also represents euphoria. I was creating my personal representation of a state that I love in the present and sometimes hate in the past. this state can lead to delusions and sometimes even hallucinations for me, but it feels great. It feels like I'm doing everything right, like everyone loves me, like I'm the kindest and most empathetic and knowledgeable person in the world. I feel like I can do anything in this state. It's addicting and it makes it more challenging to take care of my mental health and do the things that I should do (sleeping, eating, regulating) because I know that the "healthy" things take away my euphoria. And often, the alternative to these states where I feel good is depression. Taking care of myself gets challenging when I know that it will not feel better. I feel my best in this state, but it has its consequences and risks and this art piece was helping me keep that in mind. The states do not exist separately from each other. I do not get to pick the euphoria that comes with mania, but leave the irritability behind. If I choose to encourage the euphoria, I am making a selfish choice. I am choosing to be a more irritated and dysregulated mother, partner, and friend. 

owl: I painted this owl in a series of four animals representing different emotional and mood states. the animals represented euphoria, irritability, depression, and motivation/productivity. the owl represented the motivated mood. I guess the inspiration was because i forget to sleep when i am in my productive mindset, but i still always feel alert and excited. this is the one piece of my manic states that i find the hardest to let go of. i create most of my art in the middle of the night and the joy I get from the creativity can make it hard to remember the negative impacts of sleeplessness and the other harmful aspects of the elevated state.

[bipolarsun]

Mom is onto something here

[mogai-headcanons]

icon id: 6 icons in 3 pairs. in each pair, both icons have the listed flags in order in the background and the left icon has an image of the listed character with a white outline and a black shadow. end id.

banner id: a 1500x150 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting’ in large white text in the center. end id.

Eris is an ambiamorous pansexual person with ASPD, HPD, and NPD!

Khione and Selene are Eris's chosen people and wives!

Khione is an ambiamorous aromantic asexual person with ADHD, ASPD, bipolar II, and NPD!

Selene is an ambiamorous lesbian with ASPD, AVPD, bipolar I, PPD, NPD, and OCPD!

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[lucilleerebus]

i drew this fish when i was sort of coming out of a mental health episode. at the time, i had been experiencing a lot of irritability and resentment and desperation. i blamed myself for a lot of it because i have bipolar disorder and assumed i was just having a manic/hypomanic episode. i spent a lot of time in the yard, i was taking my anger out on the garden because much of the anger was being felt about the people around me and i was using the garden as sort of a safe outlet. i dug a huge hole in the yard and put cardboard down to kill the weeds, stacked bricks to make a path, moved dirt from the hole to the gardens. i didn't do much of it by the book, and actually a lot of it has been destroyed or moved around since then, but the purpose was not to create the garden. i wanted to turn my anger into beauty to show gratitude to the people around me. in retrospect, there were emotional needs that were not being met and i was feeling some hopelessness that was turning into the resentment and i had to actually address those issues before getting better. the garden was beautiful but it wasn't the only answer. at the time, though, i was proud of myself for showing love to people even when my body was trying to feel anger at them. after building the garden, i still had a huge hole in the backyard, so we turned it into a small backyard pool. we had a few gold fish and mosquito fish/minnows to eat the mosquito larva and we planted some moss and plants. frogs moved in and we got to hear them and see them in our yard. my toddler loved going out with me to see the goldfish and that is what inspired this drawing. 

[bipolarsun]

"How loud do you have to scream, in order to be heard?"