Sep 5, 2025
the thing nobody tells you about wanting to start working out is how deeply ashamed you feel about it like is it possible to just do my blogilates daily workouts in secret please i am So Very Embarrassed
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the thing nobody tells you about wanting to start working out is how deeply ashamed you feel about it like is it possible to just do my blogilates daily workouts in secret please i am So Very Embarrassed
April 24, 2025: Ian and Anthony on @neal_mohan’s Instagram post, featuring Tori Kelly and Cassey Ho.
But, I don't feel like Carrie Bradshaw?
Things that I think
How crazy it is that I am here
How i feel like i shouldn’t be feeling this way when I have it all
When will I know what the plan is long term?
Am i meant to be in one place at all times?
Do I actually love my life?
Song: Evermore - Taylor Swift
Weather - Sunny 10 Degrees
Date - Early April 2024
Screaming coming from the window outside. It’s normal, like an everyday thing but while I no longer sleep at what would be considered normal it’s not welcomed by me. It’s the crazy thing about living down here, you never know if the screams are from a homeless person,sorry unhoused. Or if it’s coming from again, what people would consider a normal person. It’s very diverse, down here and sometimes the people you least expect who are causing the ruckus around the neighborhood.
It’s finally a sunny day after a week long of rain and fog. Thing I have realized in the past 2 weeks, is that I am greatly affected emotionally by the weather (which is why I think I need to leave at all times), and also that I have no idea who I am. I wonder if the two are correlated. I wonder if I should stop smoking weed because my Mother would tell me it’s the drugs talking.
I guess I was hoping that if I gave myself the time to slow down and actually breathe it would calm me down enough that I would see this is all a big misunderstanding and I am completely insane so therefore in other people’s eyes I am “normal”. Which, now thinking about it makes me wonder if that is what this is all about. Me and my adventure to try to be perceived as “normal”.
As I type into this laptop and I wonder how or why I am even feeling the need to journal my thoughts, I wanted to type I was excited, but that’s not the emotion. I am so numb that I do smile but only because I wonder what will be coming from my fingertips in the next little bit as I navigate this. 2 Things we need to clear up. 1. I do type what I think and I don’t look back. AKA you’re going to see mistyped words and grammar and I DON”T CARE. 2. I can promise you this will be real, and is real. I am real.
♡ Pirouette Tiered Skort by POPFLEX ♡
My aunt always is very aware of when I work out with my best friend (who's on the phone with me while we do it), every day because at some point when it burns good I will start chanting expletives at my TV. But eh it keeps me going. (read: reason why I cannot workout in a studio bc then I would need to be polite and shut the fuck up and that don't work for me)
It's SUPER CREEPY that fast fashion is not only stealing designs (including Blogilates) but also now stealing people's identities with AI!!! 😬😬😬 Be careful not to buy counterfeit products!
Blogilates out here doing her own fashion line like damnnnn
I ran my first mile today! I’m so proud of myself! Got one more workout and I’m done!