sharing some older drawings i did cause i havent really had time to sit down and draw recently, but its scream and i know you guys love that funny movie (me too me too me too)
dunno if anyone could tell, but i kinda enjoy mouths.
This has been such a crap-tastic month. I try to keep my venting contained to personal journals, but I need more of an outlet today. I'll get into it a bit more below the cut but if you're so inclined, I wouldn't mind a virtual hug this morning.
No pressure, of course! I know we're all going through it, one way or another. 🫶🏻
TW: mentions of loss and general sad-sackery. Blurgh.
At the end of the day, I just don't understand people. I think one of my problems is I romanticize potential instead of accepting reality... which too often leads to getting burned. I don't do well with inconsistent behavior. It triggers old wounds. And I know this about me, so I keep my walls up and try to protect myself. But I broke my damn rules and now I'm paying the price. That's on me.
That's on me.
I can't seem to do anything right at work the past few weeks. I'm trying so hard to stay professional and not take criticism personally. But I hate being criticized. That is also triggering. Just gotta keep my head down and power through. Can't lose my job. I'm responsible for almost all the bills. That's on me.
That's more on me.
Our elderly dogs are falling apart in front of my eyes. It's only a matter of time before we have to make some tough decisions. We can't afford invasive procedures nor do I want to put my animals through that trauma. They deserve to die with dignity. I'm always the one who has to make the call. I'll need to counsel my kid through the grief while navigating my own. As great as my partner is, this is another thing I will need to shoulder. Pile it on.
More on me.
Anxiety is mounting for a gathering I'm about to attend. I want to be excited. I am excited... but I'm mostly scared. It's beyond frustrating to put so much time and money and effort into getting somewhere and then have my brain malfunction the whole time. Why can't I just turn it off? Why does my mind have to run like an overheated engine all the time? It's just the way I am. That's just me.
Genuinely interesting that the first thing we're told about Nepeta and Equius' moirailship is that, despite how formidable she is, Nepeta is actually kind of scared of Equius.
More than that, she seems to see their relationship as something of a duty or a service.
And what we've seen of Equius so far is definitely a bit grim and off-putting
But actually in their interactions she isn't hesitating to push back at him and needle him and just generally try to take him down a peg (which he needs. A lot.)
And yet after all that, she does as he says, no matter how frustrated that makes her.
All this to say I love that they get to spend time together in the game and on the meteor and that their relationship seems to develop into something a lot more balanced.
✨Miro has to write a fairly simple one page addendum to a contract and it absolutely has to get done today but there is no template and so her brain is refusing to law and she’s on tumblr instead of writing!!✨
