#borderline blogging

[robbiechaseblogs]

do any other yume/selfshippers sometimes just randomly get very sensitive or upset about some doubles/yumeing? like usually doubles dont bother me but sometimes i feel like crying anytime i even see someone barely compliment him/get really jealous and sad about it (not any moots tho/its not that bad i guess), or i get really angry about it. obviously i know i love chase but it still sometimes makes me feel like im a poser or something? or that people are gonna think im less valid or something idk maybe im just upset rn but even thinking about it makes me cry honestly 🫩🫩😓 or like sometimes wonder if my f/o would even love me/knowing that canonically maybe hed hate me. i dunno/like sometimes i feel so insecure about it tbh

[ayliffe]

quetiapine thoughts:

i’m a lot less tired this morning than i would ordinarily be

no mood swings yet, but maybe that’s because i’m still taking some, just a lower amount

avoiding insomnia so far, i think?

[diary-of-a-borderline-demon]

I'm still alive but very busy living life and fighting my demons in the process of living my life.

Diary of a Borderline Demon (work in progress)

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Men in Black

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New Chapter

Next month I’m starting a new chapter in my life. I’m changing jobs but I’m also changing countries. I’m moving from Belgium to Germany to live with my girlfriend and work there. And for the first time I feel like a change will do me good.

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Absence

I’ve been absent not because I had nothing to say or share but more because I didn’t feel like sharing my pain or depressions with the rest of the world. It took me a while before deciding to create this blog and even then I still was hesitant and have never really used the blog a 100% as I could have used it. Somehow I still prefer to suffer in Silence without showing the rest of world my struggle. But for those who worried or wondered I’m still around but I just got a lot going on like looking for a job abroad so I can leave the country where I live currently. Meanwhile I’m taking care of myself and trying not submit to my demons.