#brainweird stuff

[medusasstory]

Okay, uh, fellow people with brains that like to make things difficult for you, has anyone else had a thing where you’re fine and then your brain is just like everything is bad and intolerable, but it’s not anxiety? No spike in my heart rate, I am not conciously having a bad/sad/anxious day, nothing set this off, my brain just spun a wheel and suddenly I am experiencing the emotion bad very intensely. Cause I would love to understand what is happening here. 

[lesbian-elrond]

I have three fic ideas that are like bubbling out of my head but 

1) I have many other things to do that I’ve been procrastinating because my brain won’t let me do them

2) As soon as I sit down to write it I know that I’ll immediately be hit with a wave of executive dysfunction

[natalunasans]

huh.

http://dollsahoy.tumblr.com/post/165329022620/gothiccharmschool-bleedthewineunholy

i always knew (was always told, which is different) that i was intelligent

but i was always slow, (not intellectually, but practically: which i now know was also part of my brain, so...) everything always took time and work to learn, even the things that were my favourites (foreign languages and art) and that i was ‘good at’.

so i guess this is some kind of advantage? because i was homeschooled for the beginning and end parts of elementary school and had to learn how to learn? i only survived a few months in the high school G&T class because of bullying; i don’t think i had a chance to notice we had different learning styles.

i think maybe i always thought everything took that much effort (and that their effort paid off equally) for everybody and that some people just put that kind of time into more things than i did... until i heard that it wasn’t like that for everybody.

[meeresbande]

:s this is not good *shivers*

i hope we find a solution tomorrow or anything to make it better. right now is very shaky, very very small and claustrophobic inside, and a NEED for depression because we couldn’t function if we had too much energy.

we can’t make a bubble with only two people… three is very few, but it worked, it was stable for decades! two is not enough.

oh fuck

[stunt-lads]

so like, a thing ive noticed when im unmedicated is i can listen to songs and they’ll be over in what feels like an instant (its probably me dissociating thru them tbqh)

but when im medicated songs go on forever and im like “WHEN WILL THIS END” 

[bleedingheaart-art]

outside in // inside out

found these gifs I made back in 2015 when I first realised I have visual snow, still like them a lot so thought I’d post ‘em

[queerbauten]

me: hey, brain, could you maybe please focus on one thing?

my brain: no. everything at once.

me: ... so, like, could that include the freelance piece I have to turn around this week?

my brain: no. only cute people and bands.

[vicehyena-blog]

3 days until I’m 18 and oh my god my brain is burning with the words “I just wanna be 18 I just wanna be 18 I just wanna be 18 I JUST WANNA BE 18″ and it’s FUCKING MISERABLE i HATE wating for things, especially smth this big!!!! WHY! --ALSO, why can’t I just enjoy the excitement w/o wanting to smash things and scream??? (((: