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What is your favourite food to cook or prepare? Probably any bread!

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ig: actuarystudies
What is your favourite food to cook or prepare? Probably any bread!
9.8.20 { click for hq }
the other day it snowed where I live for the first time in 40 years! honestly one of the most magical moments of my life, at recess at school everyone went outside and had snowfights, on the bus ride to school I saw a snowman on the side of the road and I almost cried because everything was so beautiful :’D
currently listening: blood bank - bon iver
23/03/2020
I am going to try and post more, and this is probably the first original photo I've posted in over a year (yikes). I am very loosely following @myhoneststudyblr ‘s Quarantine Challenge because I feel like it will give me some ideas as to what to post now that I have the time. This is my study schedule for today and all week. I don’t have a lot written in because between my anxiety still recovering from a concussion, I have no idea how I will feel day today. I am trying to continue waking up/eating/going to bed consistently to keep a routine, and making sure to schedule at least one break every day in the afternoon after lunch, but aside from that, I am leaving what I study pretty unstructured.
To make up for the fact that I no longer have lectures, many of my professors are assigning extra reading/writing assignments. These are small but have quickly piled on as professors try to sort out how classes will proceed online. I still have to work them into my plan, but for today I am focusing on catching up with the first batch of extra assignments and continuing with my longer research projects.
july 30, 2019 | 65/100 days of productivity
outtakes from the past few weeks ☁️
🎵 // supercut - lorde 📖 // atonement - ian mcewan
school and anxiety
just a disclaimer first, this is an incomplete list and it's just based on my personal experience! everyone's level of anxiety and experiences with it is different so some of those might not be helpful. feel free to add your own!
PLANNING. We know planning is important. But it's also exhausting and maintaining a planner in which you write every day seemed very hard for me. I was already stressed out about it in mid-September! If you find yourself in a similar situation, my advice is: homework calendar. Take a little calendar to class every day (little ones don't weigh a lot) and whenever you get homework or a test date, write it down! It isn't as stressful as a whole planner and you still remember about homework!
HOMEWORK. In the perfect scenario, students do all of it. But it's not easy, especially when you have anxiety or go through depressive episodes. Figure out who actually checks homework and who doesn't. My math teacher gives us tons of homework and never checks it, so I save those for test prep.
TEACHERS. If it's possible, talk to them (or have a trusted adult do it) about what's going on. I know it varies from teacher to teacher but some of them are really understanding. A school's counselor opinion could also be helpful.
SCHOOL COUNSELORS. Again, experience varies here. If your counselor is okay, make a deal with them (like "is it okay for me to come over when I feel a panic attack coming?"). It feels a little safer, knowing there's a place where you can go and calm down.
THERAPY. If it's possible, go to a therapist! Try to set the meeting hours directly after school so you don't have the time to sit at home - once you do, you will not feel like leaving.
TIME MANAGEMENT. Sometimes it feels like leaving things for later is a brilliant idea. It usually is not. Try doing little things, like bits of research or reading: on the bus, during breaks...
AVAILABLE SPACE. If school breaks get too loud for you, go to the library. You can just sit there in peace and quiet! The advice also refers to your home. Change rooms where you study. Or change places in one room. Even sitting on the other side of the table makes it more interesting to my brain.
A PLAN JUST IN CASE. Having a panic attack at school is definitely not something enjoyable and I sincerely hope it never happens to you. But have a plan in case it does! Knowing the exact steps calms me down a bit and I don't have to worry about that thing adding to my anxiety.
NO ALL-NIGHTERS. It's actually important for everyone. But I learned it the hard way, all-nighters and anxiety don't mix well. Sleep before a test because even low quality sleep is better than the jittery feeling of anxiety and sleep deprivation.
STUDY METHODS. Anxiety really takes a lot from your energy. Study smart, not for long. My recent method is reading my notes outloud while gesturing with something (I'm using a plastic pitchfork, and I have used a sword in the past).
SELF-CHECK. Yes, anxiety sucks. And it makes you feel bad. Whenever you feel it hit, ask yourself some questions. The basics are: did I eat? Did I drink water? Am I getting enough fresh air? Have I done anything nice today? (I created a special printable table for myself with questions like that, I could upload it if anyone wants to use it!)
That's it from me! Again, experiences vary but I hope someone finds those helpful! Feel free to add your own tips. This is also your reminded to pour yourself some water and drink it 💖
the way you speak to yourself matters
july presses into the soft skin at my wrist and tells me, sleep. it’s a race to midsummer now and i have given up hope of being the winner. this fever-sweet drowse, summer molting over me like hands swollen with light. there’s a boy on the blacktop and i’m forgetting his name. there’s a boy on the blacktop and i don’t know what to do with the sun in his hands. the act of personhood settles heavy into the back of my mouth, cotton-thick and choking.
— lilac wine, soft like my love | e.k.
03/100 days of productivity 09.19.2019
studying in bed today feat. oliver’s little paws. he loves being photographed, so maybe i’ll post more of my little bear.