#cale angst

[mikellissane]

If you see me write angsty fics don't blame me

blame my immaculate, odd, questionable, no more discussions love life

If you see me projecting my own problems on my fics SHHHHHH

[galaxygirl8880]

Cale writes a will a few days before the final battle (just in case he dies) and someone finds it

Whether he actually dies after or not is up to you sksjhs-

(actually now I'm wondering if Cale could have stabbed himself beforehand- did the blood need to be wet-? Does the vitality wear off after a certain amount of time? Could he have theoretically taken the root into a random empty room, asking everyone to leave him alone for a few hours to make sure he has enough time to heal? What if he falls asleep and someone just finds him there Would it eventually get out after the final battle because Cale doesn't think it's important anymore? what if GoD is worried and ends up telling cage? What if he's really vague and forces Cale to tell them himself? What about family and especially Ron /Choi han drowning in self hatred for not questioning why the sword used to defeat the radish was covered in blood- what if they hate themselves even more when Cale comforts them saying it wasn't their fault? What if- )

BACK TO WHAT THIS POST WAS ORIGINALLY ABOUT-

Cale writing a will

Yes

The world tree said he wouldn't die but just in case, he writes a will anyways.

Everyone notices him lost in his thoughts more often, nervous and contemplating. They brush it off and assume it's nerves.

What if Cale slips it in Alberu's office just before everything goes down? In a place he thinks Alberu doesn't check often a day or two before Cale-bab?

Maybe Raon notices when he teleports Cale into the office (when the crown prince isn't there) and assumes it's something important that Cale wants to show Alberu but can't because he's busy?

So like a good son, he leaves a note (it's readable but not perfect-) telling cookie prince about the super important paper that human left in his bottom drawer-

Later, Alberu walks in with Choi han, sees the cute note that's obviously from Raon, checks his drawer, notices the letter sealed with black wax, and opens it.

And Choi han witnesses his face slowly morph into one of anxiety and pure horror.

When they confront cale there are a lot of angry tears and they do it in the middle of everyone having dinner because there are more important matters at hand because of ONE suicidal bastard-

OR

Someone finds it (probably Hans or Ron idk- OR MAYBE THE KIDS-) when he's not quite done writing it and confront him

Actually what about a tea break and Ron is helping clear out Cale's desk and finds the will while Cale is drinking tea literally ten feet In front of him-

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I like angst.

I keep forgetting to post, ngl-

Did I ever tell you guys I got covid last month?

Anyways, have a good day!

[alien-slushie]

Litterally Everyone: I could never chose to love another~

Cale: Maybe one day I could learn to love...me...too

[cale-need-self-love]

Here’s a Cale angst idea!!!

Bc i love Cale and making him suffer want to see more about Cale <3

[stingywiththeirusername]

I fear a life where I am alone, I fear the me who has tasted of happiness in small families, who has people waiting a house that became mine, finally have it taken away from me. I fear for a life where the me who holds people by arms length finally holds them close to my chest. I fear for the day when god finally finds me and uses me as its toy. I fear for a life where I outlive them and I see nothing but empty reminders that haunt me. I fear for that.

Cale as he softly whispers to three empty piggy banks

[galaxygirl8880]

I literally have no background for this I just want angst.

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Cale becomes the caretaker of the super rock villa. He's extremely overprotective of the villa and if anyone gets near it he scares them away.

Why?

Because his family is asleep. They've been asleep for years and haven't shown any signs of waking up.

They remain unaging and so does he.

Even the crown prince resides in the villa.

Every so often, he has to check to remind himself that they haven't died, just asleep.

Still asleep.

He's trying to keep his promise to team leader by continuing to take care of the farm as well..

The bastard that is the god of death has been his only chance of waking them up. He's tried many cures for poisons, remedies for sleep potions, traveled places for even the slightest hint for waking them up..

At one point, he did the paperwork Alberu was behind in for said crown prince. Once it became apparent that he wasn't waking up..

Still asleep.

Rarely, a group of travelers or bandits will come and attempt to break into the villa..

The shield has become a permanent addition.

Cale suddenly became aware that his family's resting place won't stay hidden forever.

Kingdoms and Countries are expanding and exploring places they weren't able to before.

He can't protect the villa like this forever.

Cale has quite literally become a legend of the past. His stories actually being a popular bedtime story-

He chooses to ignore this.

Cale occasionally visits the descendants of his siblings, them being aware of his apperant immortality, but stopped doing so at one time.

He feels very alone.

Sometimes he goes out on short trips to collect any ingredients needed for whatever potion he decides to try. When he gets back, he checks on everyone multiple times.

He can't bring himself to use Eruhaben or Rosalyn's rooms, so he modified his study into a temporary potions workplace.

Temporary. He won't need to do this anymore when they wake up.

Hm.. maybe he should start a separate garden for potion ingredients?

Cale still waits.

(He's lost count of how many times he's cried by his children's bedside, pleading at them to wake up.)

He decides to hire builders to build him a greenhouse in an area far away from the villa.

After paying them, he quite literally picks up the greenhouse at night to take it back home.

It looks nice with the garden.

...

They're still asleep.

When Choi han stirs slightly when he is changing the bedsheets, he stops what he's doing and watches.

He doesn't stir again..

This, surprisingly, gives Cale hope. There's a slight chance that Choi han may be close to waking..

So, he takes to monitoring him a lot more closely.

He does this for two years.

Nothing happens.

The greenhouse has surprisingly started attracting butterflies. They're very pretty.

On one of his trips to the nearby county, he spots two children from the slums. A girl and a boy.

He hands them a gold coin and some bread. That's enough shopping for today.

...

Ron is awake.

He's awake. He's standing (albeit a bit shakily), he's breathing, he's alive.

Cale realizes just how lonely he's felt all of this time when the first thing he does is sink into Ron's arms and let out a sob.

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Ngl I got a little sad writing this-

I hope you like! :D

(I feel like I'm posting too much-)

Part 2 :>

Hi hi I literally have no background for this I just want angst. --- Cale becomes the caretaker of the super rock villa. He's extremely o

[galaxygirl8880]

Hi hi

I literally have no background for this I just want angst. --- Cale becomes the caretaker of the super rock villa. He's extremely overprot

Remember this post??

I like- really want to write the fic

And I'm thinking of naming it something along the lines of "Alone and Asleep"

Actually maybe a series

Idk I suck at naming things

But anyways I have an alternate idea about how this au could go-

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Cale's memory goes *blip* after two thousand years.

He only remembers his past life, really blurry memories of the people living in the villa, and the fact that he's supposed to take care of it. (and figure out a way to wake up the sleeping residents)

So he just sticks to a routine, ignoring the intense feelings of sorrow when he goes to each room to dust or change their sheets.

Especially the kids rooms.

He makes little to no attempts at gaining his memory back, figuring that he's content with his life as it is. What if it's like his time as Kim Rok Soo? He wouldn't want to remember that.

Although possibly he may have to find another place to live once they wake up. His job will be done after all. His current bank account status should be more than enough to buy himself several castles-

The grocery runs to the nearby village aren't really too eventful. Sometimes the villagers look at him with sadness, which he doesn't particularly like.

There is a kitchen in the villa that he tends to avoid, unless it's for cleaning. Then he leaves that place spotless. Perhaps one of the residents asked him to clean it? Either way, he uses a kitchen right next to it to cook his meals, (sometimes finding it hard to even make himself eat once per day) even thinking about using the other kitchen makes him shiver.

Cale tends to gravitate towards lemon tea.

He hates bitter things.

He makes periodic checks on the current king or queen of Roan. They've become familiar with his presence as he makes sure the children aren't learning anything bad or being neglected. (They're quite fond of him for some reason-)

The greenhouse is where he spends most of his time. Journaling his discoveries on poisons and all sorts of plants. The ones that are used to wake up coma patients are the majority of plants in his journal.

The butterflies are quite friendly. He's lonely

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Ah.

They're waking up.

He's been all over the place, listening to the steadily growing noise all over the villa and making sure they don't fall over after being basically dead for so long. (He almost attacked the red head who stumbled into the greenhouse, not being used to noise that was not his own)

His first priority are the children, of course.

Cale answered the many questions to the best of his ability. Why they called him "young master" or "Cale-nim" was beyond him.

As they gathered into the dining room to hear what had happened, Cale had to work hard to repress the feelings that made him want to burst into tears.

When he'd explained that they'd basically been in a coma for years, they were understandably pretty shocked. There were tears, people who wanted to take a moment to themselves to process, and questions. So many questions.

How long has it been? Over three thousand years.

Were you also asleep? No.

Why are you acting so off? He's acting normally.

What did you do then? Took care of you.

Do you remember us??

....no.

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So this is another route this au could go, different from the original post-

Apologies because this is a bit all over the place-

(I wanted to mention something else but forgot ;-;)

[galaxygirl8880]

Be aware of the sads

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It's in the middle of the night and Cale just got done with paperwork. The kids are asleep on his bed, their soft breathing being the only sound in the room besides his shuffling

He's just walking through a hallway, not really paying attention to his surroundings. He can't focus, everything feels.. muddy in a way. He isn't really processing anything, just going wherever his feet are taking him.

Oh, he's in the gardens.

The moonlight looks soft and makes the white flowers shine brighter. He sits on a bench near the red roses.

Is it odd? Nothing terrible has happened, yet he feels so.. empty.

He stares.

He waits.

What is he waiting for? He doesn't know.

He doesn't know a lot of things. He doesn't know why they stayed. Why so many people look up to him. Why they think he's such a great person. Why his Hyungs had to die, he was supposed to die instead, isn't that what the GoD said? Would it have been better?

He can't find himself to regret the fact that he's here now.

'Ah, this is why Im trash'

He's selfish.

Very selfish.

Lost in his mind and records, he fails to notice the hot and wet tears that are falling down his face.

He cries.

When those cries turn to sobs, no one is there to comfort him.

And when morning comes and he's found on that bench, with dried tear tracks visible on his flushed cheeks, all Choi han and Ron can do is carry him back to bed and tuck him in. Concern visible in their eyes and when Eruhaben bumps into them and looks at Cale's face, they say nothing.

'Why is it that you must bare everything on your own? Don't you know that you can lean on us? Lean on me? You've done so much for us. Why not let me do this one small thing and offer you a shoulder to cry on.'

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I saw a comment on a different post about angst writers never making Cale cry and decided to finish this in honor of that comment

Honestly, if anyone's up for it, write something in (whatever character you want)'s pov where they find Cale in the gardens like this fic (or I'll do it later, idk-)

Is this ooc? Probably :^