#compulsive lying

[thepinks-sys]

"lying is generally a shitty thing to do"

and

"compulsive lying is a complex issue and can be a symptom of much deeper problems and needs to be treated very carefully"

are statements that can and should coexist btw

[this-is-ocd-ocspec-saneism]

I have moral OCD + I'm a compulsive liar (due to issues in childhood that made lying necessary) who's trying to recover and every day that I see those, "if you lie you're a bad person," things, I want to start killing people. These are detriments. I understand compulsive lying is bad, but when I was 6 years old, multiple people threatened to kill me and my family, I had to lie to protect myself and it became a habit at any sign of conflict. I think we need to understand context and nuance because some people are in fight-or-flight.

This is OCD AND OCspec saneism.

Compulsive (insert behavior) is part of the OCspec too.

First of all, I agree with you! Not everything is so black and white, even morality. Portraying it in such an oversimplified manner is so triggering for moral OCD.

Secondly, I’m so sorry that happened to you. That sounds incredibly traumatic and I’m really sorry you had to go through that. I hope you’re recovering well, anon. Healing is very difficult, especially with the added OCD factor, but you’re strong and I wish you all the best.

[driedinkblots]

Honestly Ruben as a character fucks me up way more than Niall does. His only conception of love is through violence. He has only ever tried to be a provider - to a fault, but regardless - to protect the people he cares about. He fills the room but has never once in his life been small except within his father's abuse. He made himself big to thwart that vulnerability and it made him a killer. He could never get out of that trauma-inflicted place. Not once. Not ever.

Everything he did was in service of his inner child and the idealisation of 'true' masculinity - what his father wasn't. All of his pain leaking out of him all the time. Uncontrollable. Unhelpable. Everyone around him had long given up on him, especially Maura. Imagine being ten and assumed to be a dropkick already. His is an inevitable conclusion. Written in his trauma and the man he calls brother's dying breath.

And he gave all of himself in that final act of depravity. All of it. Every ounce of trust he had in the one person he thought hadn't given up on him. Every higher-order cognitive process shed like snakeskin. And he doesn't go down screaming like a child. It's a violation of his own inflicted in return. Hand cupped to mouth, breath for breath. On the same level in the gravedirt and blood.

The world broke him, he broke himself, then Niall broke him. Chipping fragments of him away till all that is left is a shrivelled, bellowing husk. A dying animal. The worst of any person's impulses made real.

He deserved better. He deserved therapy.

[disability-shout-outs]

Shout out to folks with Pathological Lying Disorder/Mythomania!

[compulsiveconfessions]

“I don’t know why I lie. It’s not like I do it on purpose.”

“Wdym you don’t know?? Of course you have a reason, you must be lying about that. Promise you won’t lie.”

“I literally can’t do that??”

“Well you have to”

“Ok *lies about not lying I guess??*”

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[taxidermy-angel-wing]

happy birthday to arguably the most controversial character in the entire danganronpa series, kokichi ouma. this character has been my favorite since the year of our lord 2020, and i will never stop loving this 5’1” dictator

now! an in depth (sorta) explanation as to why he means so much to me below the cut ❤️

I’ve never admitted this out loud actually, but I have issues with compulsive + pathological lying. ive felt isolated and alienated for simply living in the only way I know how to (the lore there is a whole other can of worms). in relation to that, many of the protagonists I’ve seen in many forms of media (not just danganronpa) have an emphasis on telling the truth or doing the right thing with conventional and flawless methodology. lying was seen as this lowly and evil thing that only the villains did because they were bad people. so when i saw kokichi for the first time, I immediately assumed he’d be the type of character to be an irredeemable liar who was simply evil because that was his archetype (as the stereotype typically goes). but saying I was happy to be wrong would be a severe understatement. I have not seen a character that embodies my struggles with lying and masking better than kokichi. not before nor after drv3; it is a type of joy I will never forget. to see a character who was so much like me, do good things (with flawed methods ofc, there was nothing good about the deaths of miu and gonta) but while also having the same methods of survival that have followed me throughout my whole life. kokichi’s character gave me a sense of comfort. not pride in the fact I am a liar, but comfort in the fact that lying didn’t make me terrible. it simply made me someone who was just trying to get by just like everyone else. it’s something I needed to hear, and instead I saw it in abundance.

so, happy birthday to the ultimate supreme leader that made an insecure 13 year old feel much better about himself.

[waytooobsessedwithmcyt]

I'm like an open book but if it was told by an unreliable narrator

[urfavisacompulsiveliar]

I'm not wrong, right? That a lot of us are autistic?

I'm a compulsive liar & autistic

I'm a compulsive liar & allistic

Voting ended onJan 28

Cause of all the masking and stuff. Feel free to elaborate. I'm very curious about this.