Dec 12, 2025
I just sneezed so hard I think I just pulled a muscle in my neck
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I just sneezed so hard I think I just pulled a muscle in my neck
Does anyone have any suggestions for strawberry syrup to use in strawberry milk? I really miss strawberry milk because all the usual stuff at the grocery store (usually Hershey brand) makes me sick. Idk if it's all the process stuff, corn syrup, or what have you. I'm just looking for something more natural in hopes it doesn't trigger my IBS or GERD
Giving myself bruises when my bf is asleep and when he asks I say idk and blame it on anemia
Just caught myself thinking that I should get really skinny so people would actually believe something is wrong with me (would validate that I'm disabled) because I just saw some JayVic and I see a lot of myself in Victor and he's so skinny.
And I just wanted to say, if you're disabled, you don't need other people to validate that. I know that social media and the work place and family and strangers really make it feel like you do need that validation, but your body is broken with or without that validation. You're going to suffer anyway, even if people think you look "healthy enough."
Romanticization of chronic illnesses, especially including mental illnesses, is such a slippery slope because it does make things feel a little better. It makes you feel seen and loved despite it all. But that surface comfort worms its way into you like an addiction. It feels so nice and wonderful especially at first then you find yourself dependent on it to cope then you realize how it's hurting you psychologically. And even when you catch yourself and you get yourself to indulge less, you still get those unhealthy thoughts like I just did and it is incredibly difficult to recognize that especially when they get triggered with what seems by random things, things that aren't directly romanticized.
So, I just wanted to say, my friends who cope by romanticizing, I see you. I see your struggle with yourself and your identity as being disabled, mentally ill, chronically ill, addicted- I see you and I'm right there with you. I feel like we never get talked about in a compassionate way. It's always in a villainizing light. I'm here to tell you that you are not a villain, if your coping mechanism gets you through the day and you are in progress of getting better/maintaining, there is nothing wrong with what you're doing. We all have our own vices.
And for the people who chastise us for romanticizing what's wrong with us, just because someone's way of living is different to yours, that doesn't make them necessarily wrong or evil. We all have our own way of surviving each day.
Stay alive frens
I'd jump out the window with you. A man lesser than God, but a promise just as holy.
Feeling like I have to have a (dirty) little secret at all times or I start spiraling. Secretly looking at hentai in public, hiding the marks I got from hurting myself (in a pleasurable way), keeping a weird item in my pocket like a small stuffed animal/baby accessory or a knife or something, secretly not wearing underwear or wearing a chastity belt, wearing a bracelet with questionable words on it like "missing" or "nymph", secretly hurting myself in public usually by over pruning, etc.
On the outside some of these may not seem bad but it is highly questionable in my line of work. Some of these may seem very extreme and unhealthy. But I gotta tell ya, it helps me get through the day by day without my brain making me crash out.
I promise I'm trying to prevail on my healing journey. I'm sorry for my uglyness
MDNI//TW// Chronically ill and still pissed and grieving//Unhealthiness and discomfort is afoot here, you've been warned. This is my only outlet and my intentions have never been to harm. Please block if you want to avoid me rather than report, or you can always come talk to me. There's a lot wrong with my mind and body and I hate it. DNI if your trauma is your entire personality or if you adopt mental illnesses to make you "more interesting"
This is not an ed/sh blog but I do struggle with both.