I think, you will have a very full life. You'll go to college and study whatever you want, and you'll have a career, one that you're proud of. And I think you will be with someone, someone great. I think you Holmes will have an incredible love story. I even think you'll have a family of your own one day. You're gonna make a whole damn life for yourself. I know it.
Ending Scene of Turtles All The Way Down being uplifting
Just finished the Turtles All The Way Down movie, and that ending really got me. Something about the hope in it was just so needed and uplifting. It's funny- I've criticised films in the past for always ending with them getting married and having kids, because of the way those things are pushed as the only way of living a good life. But in this case I do feel something very strongly positive for seeing it with Aza.
The whole film she's affected by her OCD and how it 'possesses' her and she's not sure what she controls, if she even can control her thoughts and behaviours. So this final ending sequence seeing her get those things, seeing her at college, holding someone's hand, kissing someone, having a baby- those are things Aza didn't think she could have because of her mental health and the way her brain works.
But she did get to have them. This film is supposed to give hope to those with thought spirals. By the end of college, Aza still has that Raymond Pettibon painting of the spiral. It's still there, it's still in the background of her work and life. And yet, she lives with it. Sort of a metaphor for the OCD, she lives with it.
I think it would be remised to not mention the incredible work of Ian Hultquist, who composed the soundtrack. Because this ending track 'Love Is How you Become Real' is absolutely gorgeous. The synth style really captures the tone of being a young person right now. But broader than that, I love the rise and fall of it. It starts with this slow build into something positive, and then falls into a lull. And this works so well with Daisy's voiceover layered over the top, the way it's truthful about Aza struggling (because Daisy has seen that struggle over their whole friendship).
There's this beautiful camera technique during that part where the camera's focus shifts in and out making everything blurry, and to me it even reads like tears sliding down over the camera lens while it focuses on Aza- which is really impactful.
The way Daisy highlights Aza falling (because there will be falls in her life) as saying "Sometimes you'll see that life unbuilt." "But you will always rebuild it." That hits so hard. Combine it with the way fully adult Aza still has that Band-Aid on when she holds adult Daisy's hand -because Aza isn't cured of OCD, and that injury is not yet healed- there's just something so validating about it. It's saying two things can be true at the same time; a person with a mental health disorder can grow and improve over time, and it's also saying some things are part of life that we must manage because they cannot necessarily be cured.
I love that Daisy is insistent that that Aza can live a full life, and can achieve things she wants- because that is truly the message of the film. The title of the track says it all 'Love Is How you Become Real' Because "Love is both how you become a person, and why."
At the time I first realized I might be fictional, my weekdays were spent at a publicly funded institution on the north side of Indianapolis called White River High School, where I was required to eat lunch at a particular time—between 12:37 p.m. and 1:14 p.m.—by forces so much larger than myself that I couldn’t even begin to identify them. If those forces had given me a different lunch period, or if the tablemates who helped author my fate had chosen a different topic of conversation that September day, I would’ve met a different end—or at least a different middle. But I was beginning to learn that your life is a story told about you, not one that you tell.
Of course, you pretend to be the author. You have to. You think, I now choose to go to lunch, when that monotone beep rings from on high at 12:37. But really, the bell decides. You think you’re the painter, but you’re the canvas.