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𝓘𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 - 𝓶𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓲𝓷

░ (𝓲𝓭𝓸𝓵 𝓪𝓾) 𝓶𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓲𝓷 𝔁 𝓯!𝓲𝓭𝓸𝓵!(𝓸𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓪) ░

(ex → ???)

ꪆৎ ─ what happens when two exes who were never supposed to meet again…debut in the same industry?

from sneaking past trainee rules, late-night practice and being each other’s first everything, to a messy breakup over text, silence and songs that say too much. now she’s back: soloist, successful, unbothered (or trying to be) and he’s just now realizing…maybe he was the problem. with ryul entering the picture (and making someone jealous), things get messy. fast. old feelings resurface, new connections form and suddenly, every lyric starts sounding a little too real.

contains : downbad, jealous ex!martin x cold-ish reader, gen z brainrot, trainee trauma, miscommunication, petty texts, soft moments, angst, fluff, crack, slow burn, maybe a happy ending…maybe not.

ft. ot5 cortis, ot4 lngshot, + idol besties

▶︎•၊၊||၊|။|||||။၊|။• songs: bad idea right? ♪ nobody new ♪ made to last ♪ i can't love you this much ♪ still into you ♪ flatline ♪ never let go ♪ hold me down ♪ you broke my heart ♪ drivers license ♪ stranger ♪ for us ♪ ...

𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗘𝗦 ⌁ 𝘴𝘸𝘢𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘴𝘴, 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘺, 𝘩𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘴𝘴𝘴

𝗠𝗔𝗠𝗔 𝗜 𝗠𝗔𝗗𝗘 𝗜𝗧 (???)

𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗦 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 𝗕𝗘 𝗔 𝗕𝗔𝗗 𝗜𝗗𝗘𝗔 (𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡)

𝗧𝗜𝗠𝗘 𝗧𝗢 𝗗𝗘𝗕𝗨𝗧!

𝗢𝗛 𝗜’𝗠 𝗔𝗡 𝗜𝗗𝗢𝗟 𝗡𝗢𝗪

𝗛𝗘𝗥𝗘 𝗪𝗘 𝗚𝗢...

dividers: @suupersonic @bhavihelps

first smau…kinda nervous 😓😓🫸🏻🫸🏻

why am i lowkey terrified to post this like it’s a life or death situation?? ANYWAYS… hope u guys vibe with it, if it flops i'll simply pass away 🥰

also heads up i might not post every day bc life is lifing and my brain is just… buffering, but i’ll try not to disappear like my motivation at 3am

ok, bye, love u pookies 💋

(don’t let this flop pls i’m begging on my knees rn)

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✰ 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗺𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝗮 𝗯𝗮𝗱 𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗮 (𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻) ⌁ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 2

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dividers: @suupersonic @bhavihelps

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who knows

▶︎ •၊၊||၊|။|||||။၊|။• now playing: who knows, daniel caesar — have a baby (with me), daniel caesar — always, daniel caesar — less, olivia rodrigo — back to friends, sombr

‿︵‿︵‿୨ ୧‿︵‿︵‿ at fifteen, james thought love was simple: sneaking out after trainee evaluations just to walk her home, buying convenience store snacks with the little allowance he had and making ridiculous promises about the future because they genuinely believed they’d have one: “we’ll get married one day.” when you’re fifteen forever doesn’t sound impossible. but dreams have deadlines and somewhere between “who knows” and “maybe never”, she learns that loving james means learning how to let him go, not because she loves him less but because she refuses to become the reason he hesitates to chase the stage he’s always wanted. so she leaves first, quietly, and he lets her go. years later, he finally makes it: debut, fame, everything he once prayed as a trainee and yet, somewhere inside the success, there’s still a missing piece no stage can fix. because he has everything he dreamed of…except the person he used to dream it with. ‿︵‿︵‿୨ ୧‿︵‿︵‿

─･｡☆*☽*☆.─ "𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭. 𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬. 𝘚𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥, 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵, 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦."

hi, my luvs!! i'm so, so sorry that i disappeared again 😭😭 to make it up to you i decided to write this really quickly! i'm actually kinda proud of how it turned out and it's my first james smau too!! i really hope you like it ☹️☹️

i also want to apologize for not updating my ongoing smau 😓😓 i've been working my ass off since high school finished. i work from 8:30 to 16:30 every day and i'll finally be going on holiday soon (thank god ), i'll try my best to keep posting but i don't want to make any promises i can't keep.

thank you all for sticking with me, i love you so so much 💋💋

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✰ 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗲 𝗴𝗼...⌁ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 5

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dividers: @suupersonic @bhavihelps

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✰ 𝗺𝗮𝗺𝗮 𝗜 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝗶𝘁 (???) ⌁ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 1

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dividers: @suupersonic @bhavihelps

taglist: @aphantassia @ges1ca

ok so my first REAL smau post, i’m lowkey terrified but it’s finally here!!

hope u guys like it even if it’s literally just the beginning…i know it’s kinda simple rn but TRUST these first chapters actually matter for the whole ryul&liv lore and everything going on, martin will show up soon dw.

also ignore any mistakes pls i’m running on zero sleep 😭 had my birthday party yesterday (even tho my actual bday was on the 26th…make it make sense) went to sleep at like 4 and then had to go to my grandparents today so yeah…

'k now i’m talking way too much, love u 💋💋

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✰ 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗲𝗯𝘂𝘁! ⌁ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 3

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dividers: @suupersonic @bhavihelps

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✰ 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗞𝗡𝗢𝗪 𝗜'𝗟𝗟 𝗔𝗟𝗪𝗔𝗬𝗦 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗞 𝗢𝗙 𝗬𝗢𝗨 ⌁ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 12

omg hi pookies 😭😭😭 first of all, i'm SO sorry for disappearing off the face of the earth...school has genuinely been beating my ass these past few months and i've barely had time to do anything besides survive🤧🤧🤧💔💔💔 BUT we're almost free so we cheered!!!

alsooooo i've been dealing with some personal lore (unfortunately, i became a victim of a situationship 😔 #freeme. like yes, i'm exactly where i wanna be but also...wlw got me DOWN BAD.) y'all get it.

anyway i'm finally back and i hope you enjoy this update, ngl i've been lowkey hating everything i write lately, but i did my best with this one so please be nice 🥺🥺🥺 as always, let me know what you think!! advices are welcome and whatsoever 😓😓

and dw i have WAY too many ideas for future cortis smaus y'all are NOT getting rid of me anytime soon 😈😈😈😈 *evil laugh*

love u all, enjoy!! 💋💋💋

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✰ 𝗜 𝗪𝗔𝗡𝗡𝗔 𝗞𝗡𝗢𝗪 𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗖𝗘 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡 ⌁ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 9

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hi luvs!! omg it’s literally been like a week since i last posted and i’m sooo sorry 😞💔 life has been lowkey insane…i had an exchange student staying at my house and it was actually chaotic as hell + school has been eating me alive. also i’m gonna be real for a sec…i’ve kinda been HATING this smau lately...like i feel like i ruined the original idea and idk, it’s just not hitting the same anymore 😭😭 i’m still gonna try to finish it properly tho!! i don’t wanna rush the ending but i also don’t wanna drag it and make it worse ☹️☹️ ngl i really wanna start a new one already 😓

ANYWAY as a lil apology here’s a longer chapter than usual <3 if you have any requests for future smau’s or even advice for this one pls tell me!!

hope u guys still enjoy it 💋💋💋

taglist: @aphantassia @ges1ca @marsgirltyshi @cherryluvssss @fshn-zip @rickyshensgirlfriend @one-chance-pls @myuekii @lilbuzi @banshipresi