#depression experience

[ykidwithautism]

just another day of realizing that I’m in fact easily replaceable..

history always repeating itself

[sunshinegremlin]

Second day on 25mg of an antidepressant:

Today I got this shot of exhaustion and extreme irritability. I have no clue where it came from. I feel bad that I'm was so short with my dad.

After a long nap, I'm still exhausted. It may be that I'm socially burnt out today and not med related mind you, but I'm definitely still irritable/angry for no reason and very tired. I'm around a lot of friends and my bf but I'm super unsocial and distant. It feels weird and I wish I was just energized enough to socialize.

I hope it goes away soon. I don't like it.

[stanley1040]

[butt-fuzz]

possibly the thing i hate most about my experience with depression and anxiety is that i got to a point where i forgot all of my interests and dreams and passions and what i want to do with my life, and the things i haven’t forgotten i’m just shit at.

or that’s what the depression and anxiety have led me to believe. and it’s a rare occasion that i’m actually able to point that out, that it’s not necessarily me, it’s my mental state. so i tell myself constantly that i’m not good enough at anything and everything. but maybe i am good enough at something.

[zealousdetectivebouquet]

[anygivenadventure]

Then and Now

[Disclaimer: I had written a long detailed post on my experiences one year ago but after today, I decided to keep moving forward and let this day be a time of celebration and self praise.]

One year ago today I was sitting in a hospital for the 4th day. I had come to realization finally that suicidal thoughts are not healthy and depression had no hold on me.

I felt relieved to not be living with this constant shadow following me at school. I felt as if most of my problems had gone away. I no longer had to see my ex boyfriend at school and deal with the aftermath of an awful phone call that led me to those thoughts that stayed in my head and ruined my life.

Being in the hospital was a very indescribable experience that I wish to never live again. It saved my life and put me on the right path to recovery. My recovery hasn’t been easy. I have my good days and bad days; but I always move forward. My tattoo on my ankle that says “Roads” with an arrow pointing forward reminds me of that everyday.

Today, I got a call around 2 pm and was offered the job as a Summer Welcome Leader on campus. I cannot tell you how honored and humbled I am to be a freshman getting this super competitive job. One year ago, I didn’t even know if I wanted to go to college because of my health. However, going to Summer Welcome last June made me realize that I had made the right choice to speak up for myself - to say “I need help.”

I don’t have the right words in my vocabulary to explain the excitement and hope I experienced at Summer Welcome that I had so longed for since February. Summer Welcome made me realize that I was in the right place and made me feel so much relief in regards to being 6 hours away from home.

I cannot wait for the experience of a lifetime this summer and cannot wait to meet my best friends. I am most excited to (hopefully) shape the lives of these bright eyed incoming freshman and let them know that this is the best place to grow, learn and realize that one year can change your world.

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