Ek Jaisa Haal Tera Mera
Ishq Hai Misaal Tera Mera
Sajne Lagi Hazaaron Khawbon Se
Khaali Thi Jo Kabhi Palkon Ki Bastiyan
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Ek Jaisa Haal Tera Mera
Ishq Hai Misaal Tera Mera
Sajne Lagi Hazaaron Khawbon Se
Khaali Thi Jo Kabhi Palkon Ki Bastiyan
malang: "...the ones who never understand anything."
neel *🥺emoji personified* : "idiot...on the contrary actually. maybe you don't know but you're a sunshine for many." *stares longingly*
malang *smiles softly* : "...this version of yours is the best."
neel: "sometimes you need someone special to become your best version...and for this version of mine, you're responsible."
listen i stay far far far away from most indian web series because they are usually crap and this one seems to be too, but instagram showed me this reel with these two dudes and i thought , "okay let's check it out" and skipped through most of it to get to the bits i wanna watch (because the show is pretty predictable and considering who's playing the male lead 👀)
anyway, point is,
this other guy of the (presumable) bl pair, is so gay, lmao his gay is showing
like there's this scene where he pretty much beat up the other guy (he is making the saddest little boy "please don't hurt me" face) and then just goes and stares at his lips lmaooooooooo
what a chad 😂😂
(desi bl fans are welcome to come rant at me about this, if they've watched it, i wonder if it's actually gonna be a bl ship and not just bromance but i guess a girl can dream)
BL vs Queer Media Discourse Point #105
BL is not counter culture like Queer Media is seen in the West. It doesn't have to because we have a thing called multi-culturalism. Everyone is validated. Yes, there are legal and social problems. Thank you colonialism. But Queer Media in the West has had to set itself apart, to be different because the West has a 'One Thing' culture.
I imagine this is a cultural nuance many might miss.
Full List of All WIP
Don't Run [Stand Alone and also first in series] [Crime, Psychological Thriller]
Xielin [Trilogy] [Fantasy, Corruption Arc]
CharuTirth [Stand Alone] [FoodBL, RomCom]
KimhanAU [Stand Alone] [MafiaBL]
Cult [Stand Alone] [I can make her better. I can make her worse.]
Constinatural [Series. 5] [Supernatural, Fate Curse, Soul Mate AU]
Smart Executions [Series. 12] [Politics, Crime, Found Family] [frankly this is too complicated to explain]
Chaotic Academia [Stand Alone] [Anti-Capitalist group who are queer and messy but work well together]
Aldrich Jin [Trilogy] [Star Wars-like world meets Zuko's redemption arc]
HumanVampire [Stand Alone] [Where the human is far more dangerous than the Vampire]
KianPrem [Trilogy] [Parents fighting a war via their children who are queer and messy and do not do what their parents want them to do]
CompMech Rivals AU [Stand Alone] [Uni-BL; Rivals to Lovers]
TBlackAU [Stand Alone] [A gang of 20-somethings outcasts fighting a corrupt politician]
Flower/Tattoo Mafia cover AU [Stand Alone] [Flower shop/Tattoo shop; Revenge story]
Gay DDLJ [Stand Alone] [Indian Movie Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge but GAY]
Indian BLs WIPs
So, months ago I joked around with the idea of writing Indian BLs and bestie, I don't think it's a joke anymore. I don't know how it happened but over the course of these few months I've plot bunnied my way into over 20 Indian BL ideas. Each unique in Indian entertainment as well as in any BL. Mind you I won't be revealing every one of those ideas here. I don't want to promise something I might not end up finishing for a couple years, if not longer.
This is a list of Indian BLs that I have fully outlined and an ready to start writing. I am currently doing preptober for Kimhan AU.
So let's start there,
Kimhan AU
Months ago when Kinnporsche started airing, I'd just got to my college dorms and I came up with a scene of a girl fighting minions and standing over them, shirt open, heaving and angry. Her 'bodyguards' come and she yells at them for being terrible at their jobs. I was looking for a place to put the scene among my other WIPs but it didn't make sense anywhere. It stayed on the backburner for months until - I was in the supermarket and I met some Gujarati people (Context: I am currently living in Germany for my Masters but I am from Gujarat). And we started talking. Afterwards I realized how I'd lied, not really a lie, but like changed in how I talked to people compared to how I did back in India. And as a certified overthinker I did what any overthinker would do - I overthunk. Which lead to this idea of a character who presents as sweet and innocent but really is very sharp. Around the same time I'd read a Kimchay meta about how Chay isn't as sweet as he seems and Kim isn't as un-affected as he seems and that played in my head and that was how this ended up being called Kimhan AU. This doesn't really have anything to do with kinnporsche, it's just tangentially inspired by it. (Kinnporsche was something, wasn't it? I have 7 works that are tangentially inspired by something that happened in Kinnporsche or a meta someone wrote)
Anyway, Meet the Characters -
Kim (F, 25) is the youngest of an Indian Mafia family. She has just arrived at her dorms with Big (I am still using temp names. I like names to come to me instead of going to them), her bodyguard and oldest friend. Her dad wants her to keep an eye on P (I dubbed her Princess coz she is the heir i.e. Princess of the rival mafia family). The families have hated each other since an event, years ago, that lead to the death of their first children. Kim doesn't know why she must endure this but after what she did a few weeks ago, she has no choice.
Type (F, 22/23)meets the most beautiful woman she has ever seen at the supermarket once and she can't stop talking about her, to the frustration of her new friends. When she sees her again at the college cafeteria she calls out "Didi". She is the awesomest person Type has ever met, beauty and brains. But then Type finds out she is gay. Type is a good Indian Girl. This gay bullshit is just bullshit. Aisa kuch nahi hota (something like this doesn't exist). And why would Kim need to like a woman when she is so beautiful she could get any man?
[A/N: Let's just say she is in for a surprise. So I had just watched Ep 1 of TharnType when I wrote her and you can clearly see the influence. Type is someone who constantly puts her foot in her mouth and I think that's awesome.]
Big's (27, M) family has served Kim's family for years but sometimes he feels like he could kill Kim any second, especially when she knows his weaknesses and tells the very persistent, very beautiful boy in his dorm how to seduce him. Big has never had any moral issues with doing bad things but a relationship with a 19 year old is where he draws the line. He remembers being 19, he remembers the arrogance and the stupidity and the regret.
K (19, M) was supposed to focus on getting his bachelors. Which was all fine and good and then the most handsome man walked into his dorm room and he wants him carnally. Problem is Big won't stay in the same room for more than a minute which meant Kim had told him. Now how was he supposed to seduce him? But with that Adonis body comes something strange. He's heard him talk about shipments and products and protections.
[A/N: KimType are the fun couple and BigK are the not-fun couple, if you didn't already get that. I was watching Minato Coin Laundry at the time. So...]
Kimhan AU is tagged with KimhanAU or just Kimhan if you want to know more.
Cult
Another tangentially inspired by Kinnporsche. This time it's Vegas Theerapanyakul. but a woman. No murder, just the general sense of 'What the fuck is wrong with them?'
Confession: Some parts of the narrative are real life experiences.
Hetakshi was bored. It had been 6 months of getting her Masters degree which she did well enough (not that her parents would agree unless it was 90% +), but there was nothing to do. The thought hit her so hard she was thrown back into the past - She was on the plane to Germany watching a movie when she thought - What if I start a cult? Wouldn't that be funny? So queue up your inspirational music this socially anxious introvert is going to start a cult. But how? She asked google. She learned, she practiced, she gaslight, gatekeeped and girlbossed. And then she met her -
Sachee didn't understand why she cared so damn much about this one person than she had anyone her whole life. Perhaps it was because she didn't understand her. Hetakshi was...complex. Confident and cocky and sad and soft and rude and shy with the brightest smile and the saddest eyes. It was as she(Hetakshi) slept on the floor of Sachee's dorm room did she(Sachee) realize her feelings might be more than friendship. So what is a Gen-Zer supposed to so when they don't understand something - Google Zinda bad (a hindi victory cheer)
[A/N: You kinda have to stay with this one till the end to truly understand everything. There is a lot of religious symbolism that I don't know how to get into a premise. It's parallels. It's Yin and Yang. It's a study of human nature, of love. A beauty and the beast narrative.]
It's tagged as Cult
CharuTirth
On to lighter topics. A Indian Food BL coz I saw Old Fashion Cupcake and I have no self control.
Youtube wasn't a thing he'd thought about, ever. Until the pandemic hit and he had all the time in the world to pass. Charu has just been qualified for shorts and he's trying to find a style. Tirth, his videographer, suggests a review of street food in Ahmedabad. They idea is good and they both like it but really it's just an excuse to spend more time together. Charu doesn't want to trouble anyone's life, he is happy just to watch and help even as he hates every second Tirth flirts with other people. Tirth's liked Charu since he's friend passed him the box of sweets he made. He knows what people think about him - about how he moves and how many people he sleeps with. He'd learned to lean into it. If they are gonna talk he better give them something to talk about. But with Charu, he's fine just spending time with him and being his friend.
What neither of them know is Tirth's cousin (Jiva) and Charu's best friend (Hemal) are horrible meddlers who love meddling. It starts with Jiva seeing the ThaiBL wallpaper on Hemal's phone. They agree Charu and Tirth would make an awesome BL couple and what are friends for if not to help?
[A/N: This is very tongue and cheek, fun, light-hearted, classic Uni-set Thai BL narrative but in India. No brains needed here. Okay, a few brain cells needed for the systemic colorism and homophobia but the story is very light on them. Supportive parents in this one. Coz I deserve it. This was the first bl BL I came up with. It's very different from my typical angst writing style. It's a rom-com hands down but I can't, coz I am me, not add some social commentary. Yay! (sarcastic and exhausted)]
Tag: CharuTirth or FoodBL
There are others but for now these are the three big ones. I'm going to be doing Kimhan for Nanowrimo. Hopefully I have some sort of a book by the end that I can send publishers. (If you know anyone, please help me) It would take me a year to fully finish all three, if I am consistent and diligent and don't fall into a spiral and if my immune system doesn't kill me first.
I am planning on writing in English and Hindi. Coz there are dialogues that you just can't do justice in English and there are other things that I only know how to do in English. Like my username says - I'll fuck around and find out.
Do you prefer the term Indian BL or Desi BL? Help me tag this.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Original Work Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Original Male Character/Original Male Character Characters: Sundar, Nitin Additional Tags: Uttarayan, Indian festival, First Kiss Series: Part 1 of Indian BL WIPs Summary:
Over the days of preparation for the Indian Festival of Uttarayan, two college aged boys fall in love.
“I like it,” Nitin says, somehow his voice echoes with the fireworks in the open space. “I like it when you smile.” It’s almost disappointing. Sundar curses himself for what he wanted. “I like it when you’re happy. I want you to be happy. Always.” Something big fires off in the distance, followed by cracklings of smaller rockets. Some part of his brain even catches some music. Sundar is moving before he can think, before he can reason, before he can stop himself and let the moment shrink. Something moves Nitin too. He is aware of it as he moves.
I have a café set QL (literally, one is a BL couple other GL) with a mental health focus, set in India, where the girl finds out she has autism and boy has adhd. (And yes, they go see a therapist for it.) am I doing too much? going too hard on neurodivergence? Like, yes, we need more of it. But both of them in one (1) book? I believe I can explore both well but my concern remains - is it too much? Will someone think it reads like a PSA. I feel like I'm over correcting for complaints I think / predict will come up and I need some reassurance and/or advice.